Welcome, Tom! It has helped me so much to check in on this thread every day at the start of the day to set my intention to be clean and sober. Thatās really what got me to today, as well as reading a lot of other peopleās posts to get insight and hope to stay sober. You can also post your own topic if you want to, (look for the button in the upper right that says +Topic) if you want to start a conversation, ask a question, or do a daily journal, which some people do. Otherwise, consider visiting lots of different threads and reading up, comment if something resonates for you. Youāll get the hang of it for you soon enough. I look forward to seeing you around!
Thatās a good idea. I actually do a similar thing on trip advisor and plan future trips, however my next 3 I had planned wonāt be happening (Myanmar for hols, and US & Columbia for work), so I guess that means I can plan some new ideas 
@Bassanova congrats for regaining contact with your son 
@Soundlab congrats on your month
@Tpwheel welcome Tom 
stick around, youāll find lots of support here.
@Nicole_Brame_Weaver congrats on 6 months
191 days no alcohol.
159 days no cocaine.
I hate depression SO much. It would be nice to think it will lift again once Spring starts gifting us some brighter days 
I managed to force myself out for a walk this afternoon. Iām glad I did.
My gallstones are really hurting today, itās getting more and more painful to breathe normally. Then this makes me feel even worse about my eating disorder and my inability to stop, which adds to the depression. Iām praying the pain subsides overnight so I donāt have to go to hospital
I was really hoping Iād get that job last week. Itās hit me quite hard that I didnāt. I donāt know what Iām meant to be doing with my life now.
Iām going to read some more of the ED therapy book before I go to sleep.
Amazing!!! You are doing so well!! 
Dont beat yourself up! Just learn from this experience. We have all been there! Keep checking in. 
1062 alcohol. Day 0 tobacco. I just āhad to have some Copenhagenā. Horrible day at work and I said screw it. I did throw the can out.
Relapse sucks, and honestly I knew better. And it did nothing for me. So, back at day 0 for tobacco.
Day 208
I love watching nature documentaries but then its always a punch in the gut when they talk about how there is only 10% of this one rainforest left.
I was thinking if we all pitched in and bought a portion of the forest we could save it. It would be like a timeshare of the forest we would all own a teeny tiny portion and so it could never be sold. And it could just be conserved.
Lol Just my morning introverted thoughts I guess. Elon is paying 100 million to whoever can figure out how to catch carbon. I think thats awesome but I fear what that would do to the trees. I wish he would just buy the rainforest.
See I am super weird you guys. LOL just me becoming my own quirky sober self, I guess.
Have a great day! 
Day 1142
I missed yesterday I was so busy! No complaints though I love staying busy! I was called into work yesterday to work the COVID vaccine clinic and then asked to come in again today. I feel truly blessed to have my job and a very good employer. I ran home on my lunch to check on my boys to see if theyāre doing there assignments for the day grateful My 18yr daughter is willing to be there to help them and keep them on track because boys will be boys and theyāll forget or get distracted. I was bummed because I wanted to check out the Tuesday zoom meeting posted on here but I was at workā¦thereās always next week and I have the meeting that I co-host tonight. I feel extremely blessed and grateful for all that I have.
Checking in day 7! If I make it through today. Iāll be sober one week!
Today Iāve learnt you have the strength to do 3 days sober and Iām happy in the knowledge that you can do 1 more. Well done 
190 days tells me that at any point you make a conscious decision to change something else in your life you can. Are the other things really affecting you that much right now or maybe helping you stay sober bc 190 days sounds a lot but itās still early and weāre still on the learning curve. When we stop our addiction we have a tendency to want to go all in and change every little thing right here right now. Enjoy today, everything else will sort itself out with very little help from you when the time is right.
And the band played on 
Well done.
I am so immatureā¦ But I die laughing whenever I say I have a strong snatchā¦Along with saying that I clean and jerkā¦ Oh man, now I am snorting laughingā¦make it stop!
I didnāt see any porn today!
Thanks Michelle. I hope the job makes you feel more connected to the world.
