Day 144. The power is on for the moment, but has been flickering. I think we’re doing rolling blackouts again tonight. At least it’s warmer tonight than it was last night, when the power was out.
I’m tired after a chilly and restless night of little sleep, followed by a day of further weather related drama. So we are going to sleep now so I can get up and take the world’s most convoluted route to Lafayette.
There are lots of awesome milestones happening around here. Hopefully, tomorrow I’ll be able to catch up and shout out all the good stuff! For tonight, congratulations, my fellow soberians! We made it through another day sober!
Thank you for your encouragement. I’m really hoping I can find some healing with help from a professional. The memories, the regrets, the shame and embarrassment … it’s too much to carry.
It’s going lol. Having lots of ups and downs recently but I’m making progress. Really loving it when I’m clean and sober. And remembering more why I don’t want to use. How r u? Hows recovery for you lately?
Checking in for the evening Today was okay. Was pretty productive even though I wasn’t feeling the greatest. Going to just have a nice hot shower and lay down in the fresh sheets that I washed today. Best feeling ever
Checking in sober. Noticing a bit of irritability/agitation building within me so I am going to check in more . Not really sure of the cause, just feeling a bit off. Still worried about my Mother’s health, but I am powerless over the situation and it is in God’s hands. Trying to push through and focus on the things I can do like journaling, going to meetings, checking in, and step work. Keeping it simple and taking things one day at a time. Hopefully my mood will shift soon. Have a strong sober 24 everyone. Awesome work on crushing those milestones!
Feeling super isolated with this crazy weather and rolling blackouts here in Texas. Hubby has been stuck at work for 5 days/nights because of an external disaster code that is still in place He was able to leave the hospital this morning and make it home safely and now it’s my turn. Kids have missed another week of school, grocery stores, pharmacies, etc. are closed or limited in supplies… this feels like Covid all over again. A few days ago it was Spring in my backyard and now it’s ice and no one in the Houston area was prepared for it Just needed to unload this somewhere so thanks for listening.
always finding out something new, this week I am hurting and although it’s not pleasent it’s definitely an experience I’m watching bc I’ve been numb all my life and didn’t know I could care about anything else but me. I always thought I was heartless but this pain shows me I’m human after all.
Had my first drinking dream last night, 60-odd days into sobriety. Actually surprised it took so long to manifest. I accidentally drank a sip of wine thinking it was soda and was extremely angry that I would have to go back to Day 1.
When I think about it, that’s exactly how I feel in waking life…like I would be letting myself down.
I wonder if these dreams will continue or if they ever go away?
I feel, that everything related to my dad’s estate inventory, is like taking a step forward and then taking two steps back. It’s just so frustrating right now. I understand that legal processes like this take time, it’s not that.
I think it’s more to do with my brothers not being the most helpful with this. The oldest one is still being an ass, and we cannot reach him. The second oldest brother is slightly better, when it comes to keeping contact, but it feels like he doesn’t understand the urgency with some of the paperwork. And it’s a bit complicated to for me to travel 7 to 8 hours to a different town just to deliver a piece of paper to the bank. F*ck.
Surely this is no help but I’m pissed of with your brothers too atm I’d almost like to suggest you go over there for a week or two and have this sorted. But I know it’s not that simple eh.
Busy day off. Took my road bike in for servicing, can get it back before the sop closes. Now I have to go to Amersfoort for group therapy. Making progress there, not in the least because of the input I get here discussing some of my issues. My second year of sobriety rocks! You all rock! Have as good a day as you all can. Sober and clean. Love from Amsterdam.
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Today was okay. Was pretty productive even though I wasn’t feeling the greatest. Going to just have a nice hot shower and lay down in the fresh sheets that I washed today. Best feeling ever 
He was able to leave the hospital this morning and make it home safely and now it’s my turn. Kids have missed another week of school, grocery stores, pharmacies, etc. are closed or limited in supplies… this feels like Covid all over again. A few days ago it was Spring in my backyard and now it’s ice and no one in the Houston area was prepared for it 
Just needed to unload this somewhere 
so thanks for listening.
I’d almost like to suggest you go over there for a week or two and have this sorted. But I know it’s not that simple eh.
Dunno if a week or a two would suffice, might need few months actually, lol.