I feel, that everything related to my dad’s estate inventory, is like taking a step forward and then taking two steps back. It’s just so frustrating right now. I understand that legal processes like this take time, it’s not that.
I think it’s more to do with my brothers not being the most helpful with this. The oldest one is still being an ass, and we cannot reach him. The second oldest brother is slightly better, when it comes to keeping contact, but it feels like he doesn’t understand the urgency with some of the paperwork. And it’s a bit complicated to for me to travel 7 to 8 hours to a different town just to deliver a piece of paper to the bank. F*ck.
Surely this is no help but I’m pissed of with your brothers too atm I’d almost like to suggest you go over there for a week or two and have this sorted. But I know it’s not that simple eh.
Busy day off. Took my road bike in for servicing, can get it back before the sop closes. Now I have to go to Amersfoort for group therapy. Making progress there, not in the least because of the input I get here discussing some of my issues. My second year of sobriety rocks! You all rock! Have as good a day as you all can. Sober and clean. Love from Amsterdam.
Day 381. Awe it’s a beautiful day fam, I had a awesome night with my girls. They make me laugh so much, I still try to figure out how to get through with them without yelling, it will always be a learning curve but I’m sober so it’s all worth it. Last night trying to sleep, I’m laying there with my eyes closed… Mind is literally playing the hike with this girl, like actually climbing the mountain and laughing with her, and also i played a scene going snowboarding with her and what I would say and how I made her laugh and I’m sitting there smiling with my eyes closed like this is actually happening. Then I’ll catch myself and say thoughts and try to fall asleep, only to go on to practing deadlifts and squats in my mind. It took me a while to fall asleep. Idk if this is normal or not, but either way I’m gonna say it’s a beautiful thing. It’s better then having negative thinking like before. Anyways I can’t wait to get home to my beautiful girls. And I hope you all have a wonderful day. Much love
Day 251 clean and sober today. Spent yesterday with a childhood friend of mine who is dying from Lou Gehrig’s disease, a disease that there is no cure for. He’s not sure how many months he has left to live and it was a really big reality check for what I’ve been going through. He told me to find my passion, whatever it is that brings me joy and happiness and to do that with all of my heart and I’ll be ok. Really humbling and made me very grateful to have him in my life after 35 years of not seeing each other. Have a great day everyone, love you guys!!!
Where does your friend work/live in Singapore, Charlie? It isn’t a huge place. I’m not saying I’ll know him, but it’d be interesting to try to pin down a location.
Checking in at the end of day 46.
Not much to report again. Nice day in work teaching some great kids. Played football with some colleagues after work, but didn’t have a lot of energy. Struggled a bit. Getting old. Really ready for a good sleep now.
Have a great sober day, wherever you are.
Goodnight.
Day 96! T minus 4 days. Spring is setting in here in Holland… I feel grateful and am proud that I have managed it this far already. Wishing everyone a great day !
Hey all. Checking in on day 249. I think… the app counter says today is 248 but I’m 99% sure that’s what it said yesterday. I double checked my check-in post from yesterday morning and I also wrote 248 in that one.
So maybe the redesign of the app stalled the counter? Not sure. Either way, I’ll go with today being 249. Not much going on just trudging through winter and excited for spring to come (hopefully) soon.
Day 164: I’m taking a bit of a break today. Rather than stay in bed (like I was sorely tempted to this morning) I’m going to hang out in the cozy basement doing laundry while I knit and watch my shows. I’ll take Lupe out for her walk when it warms up a bit, and it’s a nice sunny day so far, so it will be good to get out and move around some. Feeling tired but content. Sending good vibes out to you today.
You are such a good brother to him and your sisters. Your recovery is still going to be priority, I think its a good plan to be selfish and let him move forward because he wants to. If I have learned anything, it is that nothing will happen unless I truly want it. He has to want it to make it happen.
Please feel free to unload away. I’m not in Texas but my kids are. They are ok. I’m so grateful for that. They are a bit cold and definitely have issues too. I hope y’all warm up and it gets better soon. Sending many prayers to Texas this week.
I’d almost like to suggest you go over there for a week or two and have this sorted. But I know it’s not that simple eh.
Dunno if a week or a two would suffice, might need few months actually, lol.
As to whether it’ll be ok to do so this summer we’ll see but would be a good trip if we can
