First daily check in for me. Day 11. Today is a massive anniversary to the catalyst of my severe self destruction. I’m happy to be here with you all on the road to sobriety.
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Congratulations 
Day 15 Sober. My choice as always.
I quit smoking 8-1/2 years ago. I know how an addiction(s) love to pack onto other addictions (known or unknown) when you quit one addiction so I’m not surprised smoking is “bulging” up again. Giving up alcohol has brought smoking memories/craves to the surface again. Not other things like over eating or over spending, etc.
I won’t drink. I won’t smoke. I’m healing & recovering myself once again and know I will eventually settle into new (hopefully healthy!) behavior patterns besides smoking & drinking. I’m on my way.
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Ha. Ok. Cool. I know Harbourfront Place. Small world.
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Day 145. I spent the day in our freezing cold office in Lafayette. I love wearing four layers and my winter coat and a hat indoors all day! Max got to run all over in the warehouse, though, so he was ecstatic. Tomorrow, the plumber will hopefully be out to fix the pipes in the Baton Rouge office. I’m looking forward to a peaceful weekend, and I hope y’all are as well!
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Stay warm! Hopefully things get better for you ASAP. 
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I often have dreams about relapsing also , my counselor from IOP says the vivid dreams will get farther apart but they can be so real it’s scary . Hang in there
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- Had a shitty day at work feeling like a lump. That got better when I went home to get my son off the bus. I wanted him to play outside while I did chores and he insisted on being inside. I could tell he was having some big feels and he asked to be alone. I had the presence to take a pause and ask the HP for a hand. (That alone was a miracle) Opted to leave it instead of pushing the issue. I went and moved snow and checked on him often. He drew pictures and had some snacks. Once I got inside we had a great talk about how to treat people who are being unkind to us. Apparently he’d had some not-so-pleasant encounters with kids on the bus. There was a great hug and peaceful exchanges the rest of the night. We’ve been reading a lot of Roald Dahl together and we did that for bedtime once again. Followed that up with a great al-anon zoom meeting full of some really great people. Being that my sponsor is also an al-anon sponsor I learned that my steps counted there too. So I can get busy trying to be of service there as well.
Still feeling nervous about sponsorship but I recognize how much I need to give freely to others.
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How great that you read together; and, an author that is equally important as well as innovative. These are precious memories… he might forget what the kids said or did on the bus one day, but he will always remember you respected and loved him that day.
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Checking in/out:
Today my patients were tested by my daughter. I swear she likes to start arguments as soon as I walk in the door from work. She’s 18 and was acting like she was 5. At first I was getting all worked up and I had to stop and check myself and not go off on her. I had other things I needed to take care. Her brother was getting ready to start his tutoring session and I needed to help get him prepared. Her and I have our fair share of arguments and I know it’s because she’s so much like me. I do not want her to follow the path that I was on. I know what I was like at her age, I was having my first child. I want her to experience so much more in life before starting a family. I am proud of how I handled things with her today. But not every argument ends that way. Today I’m asking my Creator for patient and understanding.
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Checking in at day’s end.
Had a good day. Prayers, readings, God, gratidude. Crushed my cooking for the clients and staff at wayside best meal I made in weeks. Pork tenderloin was falling apart when I went to cut and serve it mmmmm. Had a good AA meeting where I was perhaps a touch “preachy” tonight but so be it God is great. Gramps was a preacher and Mom was the Sunday school superintendent for a lot of years so …Hallelujah!!! I am trying to accept it and run with it when it does come cause it’s not always that easy.
God bless you all. 
& 
P.s. you are wonderful. Ya you!!
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Thanks so much. I did mention to my wife that it felt like a served a purpose for the first time in a while.
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How beautiful then, that this served the both of you. 
Day 234.
Today did not go according to plan. My plan. Shit-storminess not of my making. Even the freedom of knowing I get to choose how I react to things out of my control was less freeing, knowing I still needed to act as a grown up in this situation.
But. Still. I went for a good long walk with the dog girl after work, and it was warmer, and quiet (given the time of day), the sun going down and dusk and really quite peaceful. And even if that moment, that hour, was the best of the day - well, it beats any drink. Anything I could ever get from a drink.
Storms come and storms go. Sorry, storms, the dog girl and I are going to stay in our own sheltered weather station and just observe this all go by. You can’t draw us in. We don’t do hurricanes.
We did, though, do another day. All of us. And we can do it again tomorrow.
G’night, friends. Big love. 
@Croke week 1 down! 7 whole days. Yes!
@Tyler yep, brighter days coming, friend. we keep going forward.
@OfTheNorth First daily check in of many, I hope! Congrats on 11 days.
@IlFinocchio sounds like you’re on a roll! welcome to this place. glad you are here and not where you were. 
@jjcarson92 I’m glad you are at peace. I’m glad you, too, are here. (please keep taking pics! if you like. they’re good.) 
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- Didn’t pick up my bike last night as it was raining cats and dogs. Now the sun is out and I’ll be soon too. Gearing up to the weekend which will be an early edition of spring 2021. Choosing a route now to give me a tailwind on my way back and uploading it to my new bike computer. I love life this morning. Totally opposite to how I would have started my Friday two years ago, waking up heavily hungover and still intoxicated from the night before. The way spent before it even started. I’m not forgetting. Never again. I’m sober and clean and very grateful for that. Have a good day all! Clean and sober. Love from Amsterdam where this little gift I got together with my second vaccination makes me feel like spring too.
@OfTheNorth Congrats on 11 days and welcome here friend. I’m happy to see you. Strength in numbers.
@IlFinocchio Welcome here and huge congrats on your progress from down in the hole to back on your feet and moving forward! Glad for you friend!
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Day 192 (I think)
Recently play Uno with my daughter, and sometimes with my son, too, in the evenings. Lots of over-excitement when someone else has to pick up a load of cards, exaggerated dispair when u have to pick up cards urself, kids fighting over what music to play as bgm. Truly precious times.
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Starting Day 24. Yeah, 240 would be better, but I’ll take what I can get. Guess what?? I’m not drinking today!! 
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