Day 382. Happy Friday everyone I had another good day with my beautiful girls yesterday. Went down a practiced my deadlifts this morning. I did pretty good untill I tried going over 275 which just tells me I’m still pretty weak in alot of places. Progress not perfection… At first I couldn’t see my higher power, but now I’m actually seeing it. Yesterday I brought some quarters to work, I had enough for two waters but one of the quarters was canadian so I couldn’t get my second water, I sat there looking at the quarter for a second going gosh darn it, I dropped it…looked down to pick it up and there was a dollar… Today I was leaving the gym, I thought my pants over a chair, after my session put them on and was leaving and patted myself, no wallet in my back pocket. I was like hmmm I thought I brought it but maybe I didn’t bc i had a few dollars in my pockets for lunch. But something stopped me and told me to go back and look, sure enough there was my wallet. Just idk that’s your higher power guys, pay attention.
La poésie aide parfois dans ces moments. 
Checking in on day 11. Feeling pretty good today as I wake up. I’ve been pretty hazy and sleepy feeling in the morning. I’m going to make sure to check in everyday. The first week or so I always like to keep my phone away from me and just rest and stay busy doing things with my kids and take care of house work. Now this weekend and week coming up, I’m going to add some recovery related habits to my list of good habit building. I’m going to attend a women’s only meeting and get back to reading the big book. I’m determined to stay sober. Each time is easier and easier. Each relapse teaches me something new about my addiction. I know 100% without a doubt that as soon as I stop living in the moment and get too far ahead in the future, that is when I relapse. Yesterday I was truly in the moment and living just for the day. One day at a time was not really important to me at first, I did not value what that really means. Now I do. Thanks to everyone here. Have a fabulous Friday TS folks.
Day 372~ Checking in. Been feeling a bit down lately. I’ve got so much on plate it’s overwhelming. Life is so hard sometimes. My husband’s grandmother is in her final days with her cancer. It’s just really sad to see someone you love suffer and in pain like that. My mother in law (her daughter) is a mess. She’s been super emotional which is causing the rest of house to feel the tension and stress. I feel so bad as I know the pain of losing a mother. All I can do is be there for her. My daughter has been going to hair school along with working at the shop. She’s 20 and figuring life out. She’s been struggling a bit with some choices she’s made when it comes to dating. I’ll never understand why people “Ghost” someone aka just disappear. It’s mean. Again all I can do is just be there for her. My son has been working tons. He’s in the electrical union in Boston and they’ve been wicked busy. I’m so proud of that kid. He’s overcome so much and really has grown up so much since last year. His biggest dilemma right now is his skis he order haven’t come in yet 
he paid one day shipping and it’s been 4 days now. Both our tenants in one of the rental properties are moving this month. This means lots of showings to get them re rented. Just another thing to add to the list. 
We’ve been dealing with a neighbor at the shop. He owns a convenient store next to our shop and has a big parking lot. Well apparently he’s pissed because people have been parking there. We do not encourage people to park there. There are signs saying to not to park there. We are NOT the parking police. I told him if people park there then tow them like your sign saids. He’s just a complete ass. He threaten with I’ll just open an ice cream shop. I’m a business man. I literally laughed in his face. I told him not to threaten me go ahead and try because I’m also a business woman and two can play that game. What a dick. I don’t understand why people have to be such assholes. Ughh I tell ya. With all that shit going on I do still find gratitude in what I do have. I have many blessings. Life is such a rollercoaster. Many ups and lots of downs. I just remain focused and keep on with my sobriety because I know if I was not sober things would be WAY worse. Gotta just keep my head down and my eye on the prize.
Keep fighting. Days can be tough but so are we. 
Checking in at the end of day 47. Ridiculous. 47 whole days.
Was invited out for a beer after work today. Not only did I decline, but I felt disgusted by the idea. My body (and mind) has started to see alcohol as the poison that it is.
Instead of drinking, I went to the supermarket with my wife and eldest daughter and bought all of the ingredients to make some Mexican food. We then cooked it up with the rest of the kids and had a lovely meal. Never cooked Mexican food before. I love suddenly being bothered to do things.
Have a great sober day, wherever you are.
Goodnight. 
Oh, and my skin seems to be fitting my face a bit better.
Does anyone else have that?
Day 252 clean and sober today. Up early, meditating and trying to set my intentions for the day. Love you guys!!! 
Checking In…
Still not counting the days so I don’t know what day it is but still sober.
I would definitely recommend the ‘Not counting the days’ approach. I think the way I’m approaching sobriety this time is much more “Not drinking for now” but how long “For now” is, I don’t know and its pretty liberating because there’s no pressure to collect days; they just seem to be mounting up, which is nice. I think I’m roughly at the stage now where I was first time round when I started using ‘Talking sober’ and the contrast between the two experiences is huge. First time round, I was very insecure, wired all the time, completely loaded on caffeine and sugar and really not sure of who I was or where I wanted to go… I started making long term plans but anchored them to days which probably wasn’t the right approach for me. It seems to me that there’s a big difference between ‘being sober’ and ‘living soberly’ and its working much better for me this time round. I don’t really think about drinking or sobriety unless I come on here for a read or if I’m speaking with someone directly about it.
I’ve been saying recently to those closest “When the pubs open, i’ve no doubt i’ll probably go and have a few beers” despite the fact that I probably won’t go out and have a few beers - Giving myself the future option/opportunity to say no feels pretty empowering. Do you guys remember Phillipe Petite? If you don’t know the story, he was the Frenchman who walked the tight rope between the World Trade Centres in 1974. I highly recommend listening to him speak about his experience and see how that appropriates to your story; I also still swear by Jordan Petersons lectures.
I was listening to a JP lecture last night where he explains that if you drink alcohol and find it hard to stop, it’s because you’re experiencing something called a stimulant kick which is what makes it so dangerous to those who experience it. Very interesting lecture 
All the best.
Checking in on day 249. I guess that makes it two day 249’s in a row since the app update messed up my counter, but I’m just gonna stick with this new number.
@RosaCanDo I tried what you suggested and reset the calendar but unfortunately that didn’t help. I think it might have changed because now it seems to only switch over to the next day when the counter gets to 6:30pm, which is what I have as my sober time.
Oh well, doesn’t really make a difference since I know what my sober date is either way. I’ll check to see if the counter rolls over to 250 later this evening.
As usual recently there is nothing special going for me, just grateful to be sober. Have a great one guys!
Yeah, I cared more about my day count and adjusted the time to midnight so it switches over for me.
Day 165: Super groggy and sort of light headed from my meds. Not enjoying this feeling and hope I adjust soon. Gonna take it easy today and hopefully get in the kitchen later.
Hope you feel better soon!
Day 47! They just keep adding up each day! I have no idea why I thought I couldnt do it. Thanks to this crew, everyday just keeps happening!
Day 573
I’m recovering from a cold of some sorts. Feeling a lot better. I’ve been getting so many calls from friends and family about looking for apartments to rent and honestly I’ve been taking it slow to feel better. I haven’t really returned anyones calls because I simply do not feel like speaking to anyone. Ever just want a break from people and their problems? Ugh. I just wanna go in the mountains and throw my phone away. Feeling very introverted these days. Not because of depression or anything of the sort… just so I can figure my own shit out.
Ha!! I set my alarm for my 444.44 … but slept through it 
The meaning of 555 is to stay positive, confident and aware of everything that happens within your inner being. No matter what life throws at you, the most important thing is your state of being. The truth is that your state of being creates your circumstances, and not the other way around.Nov 11, 2016