Checking in for the evening 
Today was okay. Was pretty productive even though I wasnāt feeling the greatest. Going to just have a nice hot shower and lay down in the fresh sheets that I washed today. Best feeling ever 
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Checking in for the night. Relax, get some sleep and get caught up on some homework tomorrow. Goodnight everyone!
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Checking in sober. Noticing a bit of irritability/agitation building within me so I am going to check in more . Not really sure of the cause, just feeling a bit off. Still worried about my Motherās health, but I am powerless over the situation and it is in Godās hands. Trying to push through and focus on the things I can do like journaling, going to meetings, checking in, and step work. Keeping it simple and taking things one day at a time. Hopefully my mood will shift soon. Have a strong sober 24 everyone. Awesome work on crushing those milestones! 
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Checking in late day 32 thankful for one more day of sobriety!
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Day 233.
Lots on this thread about all the changes some of us want to make - procrastination, eating habits, screen time, motivation, etc. This is my mind some days at my work laptop: āI should check email. No, wait - donāt. Hey, thereās crackers. No, focus. Do what you were doing before - tunes, I need tunes. Ok, now focus. Thereās crackers? Time for a break. Gotta check the memes thread.ā
The beautiful thing about being sober - in the alcohol free sense - is that I get to see this now. And I donāt think much of it changes until I just get to know this sober self and laugh at her - with her - as she rage eats crackers and doesnāt lose her sh*t on a work call. Not making excuses for myself! Just breaking the shame cycle.
The rat in my mind has been trained to finish the maze for the cheese (er, wine) reward. Coming to the end of the maze now heās frantically searching for other rewards, sure. Slowly weāre talking him out of that whole mentality. Hey, little rat dude, letās just leave the maze and take things one moment at a time, k?
So heās asleep for the time being, the cracker crumbs are cleaned up, and tomorrow is another day.
We did it again - another day. We can do it again tomorrow. I know it.
Gānight, big love to all. 
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Ya it is!
Great job man. 
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- Feeling super isolated with this crazy weather and rolling blackouts here in Texas. Hubby has been stuck at work for 5 days/nights because of an external disaster code that is still in place
He was able to leave the hospital this morning and make it home safely and now itās my turn. Kids have missed another week of school, grocery stores, pharmacies, etc. are closed or limited in suppliesā¦ this feels like Covid all over again. A few days ago it was Spring in my backyard and now itās ice and no one in the Houston area was prepared for it 
Just needed to unload this somewhere 
so thanks for listening.
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always finding out something new, this week I am hurting and although itās not pleasent itās definitely an experience Iām watching bc Iāve been numb all my life and didnāt know I could care about anything else but me. I always thought I was heartless but this pain shows me Iām human after all.
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Checking in on day 405!
Therapy thursday for me.
The app updated on my phone. Looks really nice!
I love the journal function on it. Iāve never kept one so iām giving it a try!
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Had my first drinking dream last night, 60-odd days into sobriety. Actually surprised it took so long to manifest. I accidentally drank a sip of wine thinking it was soda and was extremely angry that I would have to go back to Day 1.
When I think about it, thatās exactly how I feel in waking lifeā¦like I would be letting myself down.
I wonder if these dreams will continue or if they ever go away?
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Way to go, +1 year of freedom. Keep on keeping on ODAAT dear. 
Blessings and sobriety!
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Checking in at day 65.
I feel, that everything related to my dadās estate inventory, is like taking a step forward and then taking two steps back. Itās just so frustrating right now. I understand that legal processes like this take time, itās not that.
I think itās more to do with my brothers not being the most helpful with this. The oldest one is still being an ass, and we cannot reach him. The second oldest brother is slightly better, when it comes to keeping contact, but it feels like he doesnāt understand the urgency with some of the paperwork. And itās a bit complicated to for me to travel 7 to 8 hours to a different town just to deliver a piece of paper to the bank. F*ck.
God, grant me the serenityā¦
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Yes please
Surely this is no help but Iām pissed of with your brothers too atm 
Iād almost like to suggest you go over there for a week or two and have this sorted. But I know itās not that simple eh.
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Thanks Olivia, I appreciate that. 
Dunno if a week or a two would suffice, might need few months actually, lol.
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- Busy day off. Took my road bike in for servicing, can get it back before the sop closes. Now I have to go to Amersfoort for group therapy. Making progress there, not in the least because of the input I get here discussing some of my issues. My second year of sobriety rocks! You all rock! Have as good a day as you all can. Sober and clean. Love from Amsterdam.
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Good morning friends, day 96! Still so sleepy and groggyā¦ Need to shake it off and get ready for work.
Have a great day!
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I agree with @Jennajen. I love the way you are with your words. The way I related was very funny in my mind.
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Day 381. Awe itās a beautiful day fam, I had a awesome night with my girls. They make me laugh so much, I still try to figure out how to get through with them without yelling, it will always be a learning curve but Iām sober so itās all worth it. Last night trying to sleep, Iām laying there with my eyes closedā¦ Mind is literally playing the hike with this girl, like actually climbing the mountain and laughing with her, and also i played a scene going snowboarding with her and what I would say and how I made her laugh and Iām sitting there smiling with my eyes closed like this is actually happening. Then Iāll catch myself and say thoughts and try to fall asleep, only to go on to practing deadlifts and squats in my mind. It took me a while to fall asleep. Idk if this is normal or not, but either way Iām gonna say itās a beautiful thing. Itās better then having negative thinking like before. Anyways I canāt wait to get home to my beautiful girls. And I hope you all have a wonderful day. Much love
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just planned out a trip to scotland on tripadvisor As to whether itāll be ok to do so this summer weāll see but would be a good trip if we can
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