- Much love everyone, another grateful Tuesday. Staying with my buddy for some squats should be a good lift session. I know I don’t have my license yet, but I found a crazy killer deal on this harley davidson, I’m thinking of going and picking it up this weekend just to have it for when I do get my license. Will see what happens, hope you all have a great day
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Rob, sounds like a better day for you. So glad friends were there for you. Holding out positive thoughts for you and wishing you peace. 
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Congratulations M on 8 months!!! 
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Checking in at the end of another lovely sober day. Got home fairly early from work today and the weather was great. A couple of months ago, that would definitely have meant a few beers leading on to a few wines and a thick head and a stack of anxiety in the morning. It didn’t even occur to me today. I need to keep reminding myself how bad the alternative is because sobriety is becoming so normal.
Life is so much better now.
Have a great sober day, wherever you are.
Goodnight. 
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Been praying for you Rob. Glad you are still here with us fighting the fight. You know Corey wouldn’t want it any other way.
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Good morning everyone! Please keep your head up, be proud of the person you are becoming, and be grateful for the privilege to have waken up, for the opportunity to try again on another day, and to simply be alive.
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Hey all, checking in on day 261. Hope everyone has a good one!
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Checking in sober. Today is Day 420, which makes 60 weeks alcohol free. It was just over a week ago I made the intention to return to posting regular check ins, then a week ago I learned that my 19 yr old son’s best friend had died suddenly. Been dealing with a lot since, comforting my son, contemplating the meaning of life, focusing on my sobriety, and trying to make sense of it all.
Finally made it back here, catching up on all the posts and milestones this morning. Then I hit the post by Rob about his son… I was overwhelmed with emotions and had to walk away to gather myself.
I’ve had a lot of death around me, and been on the brink of suicide three times. Yet with this deep well of pain I still cannot imagine what you must be going through, Rob. If it means anything, it is a testament to your strength and resilience that you here, continuing on with your sobriety, fighting through the pain to make meaning in life. You have the right attitude. “I’m going to continue to stay strong and sober like my son would’ve wanted me to be.” I said the same thing to my son about his bestie’s death, that the best way to honor his life is to live the best life of your own that you can live. I’m gonna head out and put that advice into practice myself now.
May we all be safe from inner and out dangers, may we all be well in body & heart & mind, may we all be at peace and be happy. 
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Checking in, clean and mostly serene.
I just feel some way that I can’t put my finger on. Maybe a little lonely? I have allowed so many relationships to atrophy and/or become superficial. I have always had issues with being judgmental and I pushed people away who didn’t meet my perfect ideal. And maybe the ones I did associate with were always that way too and I picked friends that didn’t want emotional intimacy either. Kinda hard to see my part in it. I’m sure it’s a mixture of all.
I talked to my sponsor and he gave me some ideas for stones to turn over that might help. It just doesn’t feel genuine for me to pick up the phone and call someone just to talk. Even the thought of calling family gives me anxiety. I suppose it’s my perception that they’ll think I’m weird calling out of the blue. Maybe they will. But I suppose I can’t show them I’ve changed unless I show that I genuinely care.
Anyway, just feeling a little down. I seem to have this issue after having some good days. When I have a blah day after a few good ones I feel like I’m doing something wrong and I need to get back to those euphoric feelings again. Temptation usually follows close behind when the euphoria doesn’t come.
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Checking in March 2 2021
Day 2 No Alcohol
No Cigarettes
800+ days no Marijuana
Iam feeling at peace I did my prayers read my Bible and prayed for everyone giving everything to my higher power I will come out on top I will see the light I will walk in positivity and nothing or anyone will come between me and what god has in store me I will fear no evil as I travel these roads you can strip me away from everything but here I stand I lost my uncle to alcohol last year , wife cheated on me after 12 years on valentine’s day this year , lost my best friend my furry friend my rosebears aka fathead I wasn’t able to keep her but here I stand here iam I’m not going to break and I won’t let alcohol and cigarettes tell me lies of temporary fixes nope not me I will keep marching . 
LETS GOOO
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Thanks 
it means alot
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- Woke up early to meet my trainer at the gym but I’m exhausted now. Usually, I have energy after a good work out but not today. I also forgot my lunch. I’m feeling off today and very irritated. I’m doing patient reg. again at the Covid vaccine clinic and there was some people visiting and all they were doing was complaining about their jobs. Nothing irritates me more then that because there are so many people who would love to have a job and are having troubles getting one. Idk…hoping for a better afternoon. Hope everyone one has a good day!
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Day 5 of no cocaine or booze. Keep on trucking.
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@Littlemac drink lots of fluids that helps with the stomach stuff bone broth is good because is had lots of collagen and helps with nutrients while your body is adjusting! Keep on keeping on!
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Checking in, keeping busy today and it’s the first day I got outside and enjoyed the early spring weather and sunshine. Took Miss Lupe for a walk and it was just the spirit lift I needed today. I can see grass poking through! I’m back on track and not just going through the motions. Got groceries to fill my poor empty fridge and cooking plans for the week. One day at a time, with some nice plans in the days ahead. Sending love 
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@Bassanova congrats on 6 months AF
@M-be-free49 congrats on 8 months
204 days no alcohol.
172 days no cocaine.
So I made it through the night without buying cigarettes but today I had just had enough of the self-hatred from the bingeing and weight gain, so I’ve decided to reintroduce nicotine until I reach a healthy weight, because I can’t live like this, the weight loss is a priority for my mental health, vaping doesn’t give me the distress that weight gain does, so that’s the better option for now. The cigarettes are discusting but they are just to see me through until my vape liquid arrives, I paid extra for 24hr delivery so I’m hoping it arrives tomorrow. If I could quit both the nicotine and the binge-eating addiction at the same time, that would be my preference but I’ve been going round in circles for years now trying to control both at the same time and I need to take a new approach. I will revisit the nicotine addiction later in the year when I have lost this 6st I’ve still to lose.
Had a day off from the walking today because I was doing a job application and it started to get dark. It’s another Recovery Coordinator role so I probably won’t get it if they are looking for someone with previous experience, but I’ve got to keep trying 
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Hi Tyler, glad to see you’re making some choices to change your trajectory. They sure can be hard ones, but it’s up to you to make them. Proud of you for trying something different. It’s all we can do!
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