Hey Tyler thanks for the shout out…feeling good over here. Congrats on your continued progress.
Sending well wishes for your upcoming move. I’m sure it will work out and like you said you have a clear focus for the week.
See you around. Good Evening blessings.
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Thanks for the prayers @CATMANCAM.
Sending you good vibes on your upcoming assessment. I can’t believe the move is so close. It seems like yesterday you were posting about putting your place up for sale. Time is flying by. What a relief it will be when it’s all finalized and you have the money needed to make your next move. 
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Checking in day 100. Still working a bunch of extra hours, but have a little vacation coming up at the end of the month so I’m pretty excited about that. Hope everyone is having the best day they can.
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Hi everyone. I’ve not posted on this thread before now but today is a good day to start. I celebrated 60 days today. I’m sure it’s been said by better people than me but if I can do it anyone can. My own mother was preparing to bury her only son just a couple of months ago. I had 3 wonderful children that were losing their dad and I was a tornado in anyone’s life that cared about me. Today I thank God for giving me this wonderful gift of sobriety. I have a long road ahead but with your help and the program of AA I finally have a chance at living this life the way it was intended. I can’t tell you all how grateful I am to have found this forum. You guys have held me up when I couldn’t stand and helped me celebrate the small victories I have won. I truly love you guys and hope that my experience strength and hope can touch just one person that is still suffering. We all deserve this gift and I’m proud to be a part of this community. My alcoholism was always something to be ashamed of but today it’s becoming one of my greatest strengths. God bless all of you.
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Yay! Jon’s here! I’ve posted so much today I can’t remember if I said it already, but big congrats on your 60 days sober. It’s a huge accomplishment! Glad you’ve found this community and looking forward to getting to know you better. I can already see you have a lot of kindness and support to offer to others, so thank you!
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Wow. That is very kind of you to say and thank you. All of you have been so supportive and amazing. I have come to rely on this app daily. Thank you again, Rosa
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My lack of a regular sleep schedule is causing problems now. The struggle is real. (Boundaries). I missed my weekly covid test today. I realize that I can take it tomorrow but that rationalization does nothing to make me feel better about letting myself down. It makes me depressed. Life can be depressing enough without me piling on. Learning to try and not be an imperfect perfectionist, you know what I mean. That and not being able to healthily detach from some of the people I have in my inner circle, particularly ones that are relapsing. (Boundaries) Some of them are my housemates. Two of my closest friends from this past year who’s names I’ve mentioned before and maybe shouldn’t have. Actually now that I think of it Dylan gave me permission to mention him anytime. I get all these conflicting emotions. Getting conflicting opinions, from other friends and even the professionals. They don’t have answers that are consistent on how to healthily detach. Part of me understands it and part of me hates asking for answers and help, and still not being satisfied with the answers. There isn’t one clearly defined. If there is I haven’t heard it or refuse to accept it because it seems cold and evil and detached and those kind of thoughts and feelings remind me of the person I was when I was using and drinking. I choose to not be that person now. The struggle is real. Maybe the answer lies in more boundaries. I still have work to do with boundries.
I am still praying, reading daily reflections and bible. Meditating a little. Continue to do a daily gratitude on here, sometimes twice a day. Attending numerous twelve step meetings. Volunteer cooking three dinners a week. I have about six men maybe more (Boundaries) that I’m their unofficial support worker. I have been pretty busy and that is a good thing. It does mean I haven’t been reading your check ins. I read the gratitude thread eveyday. I believe its a good thing that I haven’t overwhelmed myself trying to read all your posts. Gratefully there is alot of us on here. It takes a lot of support to successfully get and stay clean and sober so do your best to not be afraid to reach out to eachother for help.
I started attending a weekly step work group so that I can continue to carry the message. I need to reach out to one of my old sponsors and see if they can take me back, for now as I have guys wanting me to sponsor them. I refuse until i finish the steps and get a sponsor back or a new one.(Boundries Lol) Alot on my plate and that’s ok.
My sister is coming to visit on Wednesday so that will be awesome and the first time I’ve seen any family since early December, Yay.
Congratulations to all of you who are still here and your milestones matter as do you.
God bless you all.
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p.s. never forget how awesome you are. ya you!!
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90 days today. I wish that I could say that an attitude of gratitude is inherently second nature to me. It truly is not. It was a struggle to not explode today. I couldn’t seem to affix my focus on what was reasonable/sensible. There were so many exhausting variables that seem to impede upon any attempt at being pragmatic. I can’t say that I made some mad boss moves and overcame what seemed to obstruct my view of a silver lining. My mind was so fogged up with frustration, repugnance, and what seemed to be the banality of feeling my otherness. I wanted to cave and crawl into my solitude; cloister myself in some respite that left the vulgar, bellicose, irreverent uncivil, insolent world outside. I was emotionally, mentally, and intellectually savaged by today. It was a quick reminder that this isn’t salvation I’m working towards. It’s not a matter of redemption. It’s not even symmetry. It’s a delicate balance. This ain’t no party. This ain’t no disco. It sure as hell ain’t no country club. This is recovery. One day it can be picking out a china pattern. The next day you find that you’re spinning all the plates in a 50 piece set. The day after that you could be picking up the pieces of the refuse and the detritus to make something beautiful out of the broken plates. A mosaic comprised of the remnants of the work you previously have put forth when reality shatters our illusions that’ve tricked us into thinking that we know all about our condition. The con has been run on us again. A cunning hustle. The truth is that we’re nowhere close to having this thing figured out.
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Today I was frustrated, tired, agitated, stressed and full of anxiety but I wasn’t drunk. Today is a good day
66days💜
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Day 252.
Scrolled through our thread, our day - with toothpicks-keeping-eyes-open (thank you Fred Flintstone). Looks like a lotta hugs are in order tonight - and some hip hip hoorays for all the milestones too.
I’m grateful for all of you with the energy tonight to say more! We remind me of our Canadian Geese, flying overhead in a V formation.
…taking turns in the lead.
…honking loudly to show our support!
…or honking bravely if we need a word of encouragement or to be carried for the day by another’s words.
(Apparently scientists still don’t know precisely why the V-formation is, but suspect it has something to do with saving energy. No kidding.)
We did it. Another day. Together. And we can do it again tomorrow. We amaze me.
G’night, big love to all. 
(honk honk)
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Nice victory on your 66th day.
I hope you have a good one tomorrow.
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Thank you so much 
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Aw, M!!! This imagery brought such a grin to my face…we’re a flock (or several flocks) of honkers! I seriously dig it. 
(there’s no emoji for geese, so swans will have to do. There’s gotta be a good metaphor in that. I’m sure if it.)
to you, amiga! Thanks for being here!
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biggest problem we have is our thinking, we think we know everything we think we know what’s best we think we have the solutions to stay sober we think we have a million good reasons not to stay sober we think we know better than everyone else and we think we will do the whole thing over and over and over again.
Because we only ever think of ourselves.
I got a sponsor and it was amazing bc turns out I didn’t know anything about anything apart from how to drink and look where that got me… So for the first time in my life I didn’t have to think anymore and it’s such a huge relief and a burden removed, all I have to do now is listen and act if I start to think I tell my sponsor what I’m thinking and he will tell me THE truth not MY truth.
So I was never going to join AA now I have, I was never going to get a sponsor now I have, I was never going to pray now I do and I could never stay sober and be happy, now I am.
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