I’m here, I’m alive and I’m sober.
And I’ve been logging in three times already because I forgot how many days it was, day 191.
Wohoo, not much to report I’ve got a lot if Lilly Pulitzer from the family this morning. 4 pairs of shorts and one shirt. And a facial mask set from my 18 y/o that I’ve been to cheap to buy for myself.
Currently I’m probably failing cake nr 3 in the oven. A gluten-free, dairy free, nuts, peanut soy and sugarfree birthday cake was a lot harder than I thought.
But anyway Happy birthday to me!
I hope everyone is having a great day.
I know I will even if it’s snowing (again, bye bye spring) my mother said that when I was born it was the biggest snowstorm in 30 years guess history repeats itself.
Coffee. Pondering whether to go for a bike or a hike today. The cold weather with a chance of showers points me towards a hike. The absence of wind and the way I feel towards cycling. I want to leave at noon so I got an hour to decide. Or a little bit less because I have to get dressed according to my choice.
One thing I know for sure is that I won’t drink or smoke today. My certainty not to do so is increased ten times each day by being here, and reading your stories, victories and struggles. And sharing mine. One day at a time we are in this together. My gratitude towards this place and you all really has no boundaries. Has as good a day as you all can. Sober and clean. Love from Amsterdam. Pic isn’t new, but @M-be-free49 made me think of it.
@drave Triple digits yay! Excellent work, congrats! @Inneed Big congrats on 60 days and welcome to the thread Jon! @I.cant.We.can Boundaries yes Brian lol. Keep your soul safe, and your heart, and your body, and your brain. We only have so much to give. You do this for you. @IlFinocchio I don’t think it’s anybody’s nature to have that attitude of gratitude. I sure don’t. That’s why I practise it. In more than one meaning of the word. We work our sobriety one day at a time. Congrats on 90 days. If we keep doing so I’m sure we will have some fun too. @PrettyPicnic Congrats on being sober friend We’re feeling the feels and living our lives. ODAAT.
Wide awake at 4 am, now it’s 5 so I might as well check in! Today will be fun - I am reconnecting with an old friend over Skype video call this morning. We were coworkers at an organization for mental health and substance abuse services years ago and bonded over that majorly dysfunctional and toxic workplace. Some bonds are forever Then I’ll be enjoying the unseasonably warm weather as much as possible, a lot of time out on my deck and a long walk with my pup. I also get to hear a friend’s share in AA over zoom today, which is exciting! Finally, I’m making a tomato and veg soup with tortellini using tomatoes I froze from my garden last summer. It’s going to be a happy day today. Never could have happened if I wasn’t sober. Big love for my TS amigos
Checking in towards the end of day 65.
Think I forgot to check in yesterday. Can’t decide whether that’s a good thing or a bad thing. It certainly suggests that I’m going through a slightly less obsessed period, so I’m going to take it as a good thing.
Having tried both, I also think that I prefer counting my days. 65 feels like a proper number. I’m happy with that.
Been busy this week, and there’s more to come - but it’s all a lot easier sober.
Have a great sober day, wherever you are.
Goodnight
(Honk, honk)
Day 65…Checking in, doing well in most things sobriety, finding routines. Life is still chaotic with vaccine clinics, but thankful I have secure employment and that we are providing a service that peeps bring happy emotions to.
In the past 3 weeks I have been hit hard with the reality of what I was using drinking to cope with. Find myself distancing from those I love while I attempt to understand what I am feeling, why I am feeling it, and what the fuck I am supposed to do with these damn feelings. Who knew sobriety would make life more complicated… KIDDING (kinda).
I fully get that life is less complicated without drinking because I actually really enjoy being sober and just not having to think about the stress of having a drink and managing myself. I am finding that not drinking has become my new addiction and exercise my new coping mechanism. But like all coping mechanisms, it is allowing me time to not face issues and I know that I will need to in order to find equillibrium in my soul.
I am attempting to give myself grace for not being able to “fix” how I am feeling, or even really find the right words to describe it so those I love can understand. But its not easy when for so long I hid behind my smoke and mirrors. Now that the glass is shattered, everyone can see.
Checking in sober, Day 427. Today makes 61 weeks AF. Slept the night straight through for a change, got a solid 7 hrs and even feel kinda rested! Don’t know what’s behind that but I’m not going to complain. The mild weather is supposed to move in starting today so I’m hoping to spend a good chunk of time outdoors and get in a long hike, do some meditation/self-reflection, and hopefully get some new nature photos. Wishing everyone a safe, sober day!
Day 400 I can’t lie I have reminisced drinking a little bit. It’s funny I was making my uncle drinks the other day everything was fine I didn’t care. And then yesterday I imagined having a couple beers while out on the harley, obviously my kind tricking me I know I’d just get another dwi. But it’s funny I haven’t had a license in 8 years and my mind thinks about having beers before I even get it back . Yup your a alcoholic mike that’s for sure… I’m adjusting to my uncle being here and all the traffic in and out of the house, my mom and step dad having been drinking a bit with my uncle my mom keeps trying to quit smoking and was doing good untill my uncle came up, it’s funny hearing her exuses, but I try not to take other ppls inventory. I’m grateful for all I have and all I’m accomplishing, I really hope God keeps me on this path. Anyways much love, keep killing those milestones fam
guess history repeats itself.
Then I’ll be enjoying the unseasonably warm weather as much as possible, a lot of time out on my deck and a long walk with my pup. I also get to hear a friend’s share in AA over zoom today, which is exciting! Finally, I’m making a tomato and veg soup with tortellini using tomatoes I froze from my garden last summer. It’s going to be a happy day today. Never could have happened if I wasn’t sober. Big love for my TS amigos 
