Woo hoo, you go girl! Congrats on +500 days sober. Keep on stacking them days ODAAT!
Blessings and sobriety!
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LOVE IT!! Thank you Beth 
psā¦ Thatās one seriously sparkling clean car 
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@anon43625156 congrats on your week
@THE52Real-MVP congrats on your week
@jjcarson92 congrats on 6 months
@Drave congrats on double digits
@Inneed congrats on 60 days
@IlFinocchio congrats on 90 days
@MrsOdh happy birthday! 
@anon60334405 congrats on 400 days
@Luckyredz congrats on 2 weeks
@Dan531 congrats on 500 days
211 days no alcohol.
179 days no cocaine.
It was a beautiful morning today, the sun was shining through all of my windows and warming me and the cats up. I felt really peaceful during my meditations first thing it was lovely.
Had our final session of Tuesday support group today. It was okay, good to connect really. The women are talking about meeting up face to face at one womanās garden log cabin once lockdown restrictions are eased in a few weeks, but I donāt know if I would like to do that, Iām far too socially anxious and awkward, maybe though, Iāll see if Iām still local when Iāve moved.
It took me over an hour to move my mass collection of empty boxes from my spare room to my lounge, and move all of the stuff for recycling and charity into the hallway, and then I picked up something that flooded me with all of the heavy sadness of losing my mum as a child, and that was the end of the start of my decluttering mission, I needed to lay down.
Iāve spent hours making enquiries about rentals and been met with 100% rejection as usual. Literally nowhere accepts pets. I donāt know what to do, I am wondering whether people just donāt tell their landlords about their pets and hide them for inspections, but as a person with high anxiety, I am anxious (ha) that Iād get caught and evicted. Iām hoping the council will be able to find me emergency accomodation when I have my homelessness assessment tomorrow, but I have to be able to stay with my cats, itās non-negotiable, they need me as much as I need them, so Iām going to try not to fixate on finding somewhere myself until after that now.
Because of how overwhelming the decluttering mission feels, Iāve bought yet another decluttering book in search of some motivation, it says itās only a 3 hour read, so thatās how I will start my morning tomorrow, and hopefully be productive afterwards 
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I know it took me a few knocks on the head til I got it. Itās different for everyone but I had to look at life as it was meant to be lived; without the drinking or other things to help make it bearable. We are strong enough!
A mindset change for me finally clicked; itās not an option or a choice anymore. Youāll do it, if I can you can, my friend. 
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Day 61. Been a good day. Worked on my 4th step. Almost done, thank God. Starting to worry a bit about finding a job. I could get one that pays next to nothing but I do not want to do that. Sent my resume in for a supervisor position but havenāt heard a thing. I am praying for things to work out exactly how they are supposed to. Now I just need to have some faith
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@CapriciousCapricorn @anon79808082 @anon60334405 @CATMANCAM I see therapist on the 16th. Im gonna start going to some meetings as well. Thanks for all the support. Im gonna just keeping trying. I know ill succeed eventually.
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945 days alcohol free. Anxiety has been through the roof latelyā¦ seems Iām always worried if something is wrong with me. But then Iām afraid to go to the Dr cuz of what might happen. Itās like a revolving door lately. Can barely sleep and having panic attacks quite frequently and today a big headache that wonāt go away. At least Iām not drinking. Happy fuckin Tuesday lol
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I felt the same way for so long, anxiety about possible medical issues, about going to the doctor, etc. I also have a history of anxiety attacks and of course drinking didnāt help. I realize you have a lot of sober time, but when I read this thread it helped me get past my fear and finally make my appointment. I though Iād share just in case it can help you. Scared to death of the doctor
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thank you @littlemisschatterbox @Fargesia_murielae @Dazercat @Dragonflygirl82 @Joy @CATMANCAM @Misokatsu!
itās crazy that itās been so long since that last drink. Time flies (even when you remember it all 
)!
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I missed this, awesome job, Dan! 
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Thanks Donnaš
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61 days and finally got caught up on my sleep. Normally when Iām working I get super excited about it that I donāt sleep my normal 8 hours. So last night I slept for almost 14hrs lol it was great and much needed.
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There is no need to apologize to me. Every day spent sober is a miracle. Progress not perfection, my friend. Iāve seen progress!
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