Checking in daily to maintain focus #28

[Dazercat]

Beautiful.

I love a good catch

[M-be-free49]

It’s so beautiful!

Just like you.

[Clarity]

Congrats Lisa! I remember coming here when you were in the 200’s and I was like “DANG I want what she has!” and look at you with the 555.55

[C_8]

This is AWESOME Lisa @Lisa07
I have yet to find a good ‘doing cartwheels’ thingy … and I really wanted one for this !!!

Congratulations Lil Sis and thank you so much for tagging me, it’s made my day/weekend/month

[Lisa07]

@C_8 Thank you big Sis! The only cartwheels I can handle these days are gifs. No doubt I’d fall on my face if I attempted one.

Thank you @Mno, @Dazercat, @M-be-free49 and @Clarity. The support from all of you is absolutely amazing. I’m taking this journey with the best group of people by my side.

[BEANS]

Today I woke up…
Went to the gym…
Bought a band new truck… (always wanted one)
And just walked my dog.
Time for bingo at 5
Then making dinner for my wife.

The old me would have done nothing, just been hungover. 90 days around the corner.

FYI. The truck is the same money as drinking and smoking a month. Prob less. Stupid.

[FindingJesse]

Porn 71
Masturbation 0
The good news is that I’m wearing pants that I haven’t been able to wear in a while. I’ve lost 20 pounds this year. Let’s see if I can lose twenty more.

[Mbwoman]

Yes, ma’am!!

[Girlinterrupted]

303.76

Tomorrow will be 10 months, surpassing my TS record by 13 days. 13 is my lucky number too :). Years ago in my 20’s I think I got 3-4 years. Then 9 months when pregnant with my youngest. I know that doesn’t count, but I sure did use it as an excuse to say I didn’t have a problem. The ladies that give birth to babies with fetal alcohol syndrome were the ones with the problem.

I’m enjoying my sobriety and I’m grateful I gave in and finally agreed to give adderall another chance. It’s been life changing for me.

Sorry I have not been on much. I’m doing a software conversion, yet again, sigh. I’m still mapping the fucker. Plus, I just started my last class for my designation. Man it’s a lot of work. Firing one of my brokers a few weeks ago has made me even busier at work due to cleaning up his shit and all the termination items. Plus, he’s been calling a lot, still looking for me to give, give, give. As much as I adore him, I never realized how entitled, self serving, and opportunistic he was. I’m so disappointed in myself for not doing this sooner. But… he was my OG, and I wanted to give him a chance. He was not coachable or willing to learn. The kid thinks he knows it all, and that could not be further from the truth. Bless. Anyway, I’ve been spending a little time kicking myself in the ass. He also was not willing to put his job before anything. If you don’t put in a bare minimum of 40 hours a week in commercial real estate brokerage, then don’t bother. I would go so far as to say minimum of 60. He was putting a max of 20, and always filled with lame excuses. Y’all don’t want to know how much I put in.

Anyway, the old plate is quite full and I love it that way. I perform best under pressure, so I tend to intentionally put a lot on my plate at once. My life is going in the right direction due to my sobriety and therapy. I’m so grateful to be sober.

[Lisa07]

I thought about the 3’s after @Mno mentioned it but I was too late. I wanted to kick myself for not thinking to catch that too. I’ll be looking at it next time for sure.

[Singtone]

Love this post, Cap. I feel the same.

[Dragonflygirl82]

Congratulations Lisa!! Those are some amazing numbers!! 555!!!

[Singtone]

Wow. This post made me a bit emotional, Chuck. In many ways it mirrors my last couple of months. Let’s forget about the shame though, and just keep being better.

[Lisa07]

Thank you @Dragonflygirl82! You’ve got some amazing numbers yourself. Watching your journey puts a smile on my face.

[Complicatedmama]

1180. Had a great morning with my family. Had even better talks with my friends today. I’m so grateful for the support I receive from everyone from my TS family. Not feeling the greatest tonight. Going to rest and hope I feel better in the morning. Have a good night all

[TSan]

I’ve actually written her a letter. I want to make amends, but I also don’t want her to feel as though she needs to respond to me in any way, and maybe a letter is a little less pressure? At this point I just want her to know that I am sorry and that I have taken the things she told me about my words and behavior seriously.

[M-be-free49]

Day 271.
First day of almost 10 days off in a row (minus a couple o’ zoom work meetings, of course ). A staycation this week until I go see Mom for Easter. Gonna do an @Mno number (not quite, but close) on my little place – some touch up painting, shelves, etc. Writing courses. Tax time. Lotsa yoga and muddy hikes. Rest.

See something of a pattern the last few weekends – tired and a bit sad. But the aha is that I tend to “bracket” during the work week. Come the weekend? The sads just want their say. At least I’m not trying to bury them under a case of wine. If I’ve learned one thing, it’s that selective numbing doesn’t work. And I don’t want to miss out any more beauty. Or whatever time my dear Mama has left.

So, the dog girl and the sads and I went for a walk, and it was beauty - under endless blue sky, the river ice starting to crack under a stronger sun. The geese (honk honk! yes!) let me know: dementia may be how Mom’s life ends, yes, but it is not the outcome of her life, her legacy. Even the geese know that.

So here’s to us. (She raises her mug of tea!) We did another day. Let’s go do another one tomorrow.
G’night all – big love.

[TSan]

Day 182/56. Thanks to everyone for the greetings and salutations about my six months sobriety. One of the reasons I love being part of this community is the sheer positivity exuded here, for victories large and small. This is the first place I’ve ever really experienced that in my life.

I got my first dose of the COVID vaccine today, and now I have a bit of a fever and a runny nose. I’m sure it will pass (the same thing happens when I get my flu shot every year), but I’m glad that I’ve at least started the process.

@Lisa07, those are some great looking numbers!

@Girlinterrupted, it sounds like you have your hands full, but are handling it with grace. Congratulations on 10 months!

@M-be-free49, I hope you have a lovely break! It sounds like you could really use it. Also, I really identify with getting the sads on the weekends. When else is there time? Hug the dog girl, and take good care of yourself.

[Myssy]

Great day had my grandson 1st birthday party at my house today! It went very smooth sunny out good food good friends and family little man got more toys and clothes I’m so blessed to have such a wonderful family love my life clean and sober!!

[Sam7]

Day 315 done. Hope everyone had a good day.