Congratulations on your 11 months. Way to jump right in. Great work.
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Checking in on the end of day 7.
The last couple of days Iāven been busy and feeling really good. I had almost forgotten about my relapse and carried on with sober life as I got used to in the months prior to it.
Then the stupidest thing happened: I dropped my expensive face cream and it shattered on the bathroom floor. No big deal, right? But somehow thatās what opened the flood gates and I sat on the floor crying for half an hour. Sigh. I canāt act like nothing happened, still an addict, still need to get help.
Remember when I first got sober and set out on an epic 10 day hike that was supposed to be therapeutic and magically cure me of all depression and alcoholism? I even made a thread about it. Broke my rib on the second day and had to go home.
Then moving back home and not telling anyone about any of this, because I thought I was dealing just fine? Ended in an epic relapse with a two week bender, wasnāt pretty at all.
Somehow I develop the most complicated solutions that never work - just to avoid telling anyone except for you TS friends, that I have a problem. Phewww. Did the self experiment, I am living proof that I canāt do it alone. Thatās exactly what all of you have been telling me from day one, back in augustā¦ I am going to do better this time. Iām telling all my friends, one by one and move on from there. Sorry for the long rant and potentially bad English, I typed really fast and angry at myself 
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@unheimlich You can do it!
@anon27700620 8 months is certainly an achievement. I sometimes forget how far I, we, have come.
Day 255
Just pottering along with work and kidsā stuff. Really nothing of note.
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You have told my story and itās remarkable to me that you came back so quickly. Honestly, kudos to you, girl. I was on TS for a month and didnāt tell anyone else except my husband (and even then he didnāt know I intended to be sober long term) and something happened and I relapsed hard. (Edit to say I chose to drink to cope) The difference is it took me 5 months to come back. And getting help and support in my circle and in person is what has kept me sober for 227 days. You absolutely can do this! And it sounds like you know what you need to try this time to be successful. Iām so glad you came here to share and check in. Much love 
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I just thought it deserved a random psychedelic frog bc itās not something you see everyday.
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Pretty well thought out written rant.
Great message there. Itās certainly alright to cry. I do a lot more crying these days now that Iām sober. Itās tough humbling ourselves and finding we need help after all. No more games and being tough. All we have to be is honest with ourselves. And to everyone else too. But just starting with ourselves is a hard job.
I for one, am so happy to see that little penguin pop up here again. And your English is probably better than my American.
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1 week is great to see, seems so far away at the beginning no matter how many times we try it it only gets harder to do so massive congrats.
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Thank you for the kind words @RosaCanDo! As always, youāre an inspiration. I didnāt come back as fast, I drank āresponsiblyā for about 6 weeks before I went on a bender again. Anyways, I learned my lesson. Love from Vienna
ā¦ and thank you Eric @Dazercat. I donāt know how you do it, but you are everybodyās #1 fan and cheer us on and I love you for that
Iām glad everybody loves my little penguin icon so much, but itās just a cameo, in reality Iām 6ā1 and Iām tired of being tough all day. Ready to be humble for a change.
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Still faster than I managed! You still get credit (and I guess I do too) for coming back at all and trying again, admitting we donāt have control or know what weāre doing and need help. And not only that but WANT help and want to be better. I have confidence in you. You go girl.
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@Penguin Iāve probably ever been sober 7 days about 5 or 6 times max in my life, this is my latest effort, I donāt post it to Brag I post it to show people the results of never giving up trying. Iāve still got a long way to go but Iām sober today and itās enough.
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Wow 213 days is awesomeš„³ thank you for the encouragement, itās amazing what weāre capable of, if we donāt stop trying!
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Checking in feeling amazing been stuck in Chicago for the past nights you know chicago is growing on me 
Lets gooo
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Day 297.
Better than yesterday, for no particular reason - I think - other than my mindset about things. Just goes to show - the harder days donāt stick around forever. To do lists get done (or part of them do), calls get returned (some do), sometimes others get disappointed by my actions when I do whatās truly best for me - and I learn to let their disappointment be their own, and slowly I learn to talk to myself a bit better about it all. Thatās the biggie. Wine only worked so well to turn the volume down on that inner critic voice - er, not so well!
Time to call this fine day done. Will look forward to sharing tomorrow with you!
Gānight, sweet friends. 
Happy to read all these posts tonight - lots to celebrate!
Oh @CATMANCAM - so good to hear itās so good!
250 days @Sunny11!
One week @Beforemy30s!
Double digits @Fnkychic! layers are our friends 
8 months @anon27700620! Martin Mozetich and Arvo Part are my āgo toā guys right now. Pop music compared to Mozart! 
11 months @Will3!
And @Penguin, the others said it all - but I did a lot of āsideways cryingā in early early days. Tears that Iād numbed just needed release, and also just all the change. You did good to let those tears have their turn. 
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Morning all Happy Friday ! Just checking in on day 74. Iām reading quit like a woman which I love and on the back of it Iām creating my toolkit today - like itās always in my mind but Iām making it real ? So some visual stuff like some herbal tea bags , a good book to lose myself in , a diary , a nice pen , chocolate ! Lol and then some things written down like mediation on my app , yoga on you tube , music on Apple Music, obviously this app with all you guys on , it just feels like I then have something physical to look at and touch when Iām struggling sometimes .
Anyway just thought Iād share , donāt know if that sounds bonkers lol. Have a great day everyone x
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Checking in on day 5. Dressed and ready for work, and ready for this weekend. I spent some good time on making a to do list for the weekend. That and a few naps should keep me busy 
have a good day everyone
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Iām reading this too at the moment and enjoying! I have also listened to a couple of the Home podcast episodes that the writer leads. They are good.
Love the toolkit idea - doesnāt sound bonkers at all!! 
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Day 8. Into second week.
So relieved it is Friday and grateful for a Friday night in alone but then a weekend of plans with friends and family. Mentally prepared myself for being around drink tomorrow at a birthday picnic: will buy fancy non alcoholic drinks from the supermarket tonight instead.
Have a great day everyone.
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Thank you so much!
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