Day 4 for me. From memory my longest stretch of sobriety was 66 days just kinda lost my way over the Summer period here. Forgot how much better I felt physically and mentally during that sober period. Onwards and upwards.
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From time too time I think of you and smile. Looking forward too hearing from you when we do. Be well my old sober friend…
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@Frantasticooo It’s understandable to have such emotions. Sending hugs.
@Fury I have seen your posts, I am sorry u are struggling right now. But I think the thinking “sobriety took everything” is going to lead to trouble. Although bad things have happened since getting sober, it doesn’t mean sobriety caused it. Being sober u are better equipped to handle the admittedly shit hand u are being dealt at the moment. Be strong.
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Thank you! Pretty thrilled and it couldn’t come at a better time after a bit of a wobble.
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That is wonderful timing! Sadly, I relapsed after a few months when I was planning a visit to see my Mom. It had been a year since I had seen her and she is 86. In retrospect I now know I was not handling my emotions well and let my guard down.
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I had two glasses tonight. I’m not able to do it! I’m fine staying in it’s being out with my partner that I can’t avoid it! I’m so sorry everyone and to me. I’m awful.
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I can absolutely relate to being with someone who drinks and letting that influence me. It’s going to require you to put yourself first and do whatever it takes to stay sober. If that means an extended period not going out, do it. Communication has been so important in my relationship and being honest and direct about my intention to be sober. You are not horrible, you are human. Be kind to yourself and renew your commitment each day to staying sober, talk about it even if your partner can’t relate. It will only help.
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Yes, same. I built it up in my mind to get through my anniversary sober with my husband. Then let my guard down or had unaddressed feelings. I don’t want that life.
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Thank you so much. I am safe and in bed and we talked a lot tonight about serious topics like him wanting to have a child together and buying a house and I think I panicked because deep down I know If it wasn’t for him I’d be with a woman now not a man. But I love him. It’s just I’m attracted to women more so I do get nervous about the future but love it love and one day at a time! Sober for next ten minutes and the ten after that and we will just keep going
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Will do❤️ after some self care and focusing on schoolwork, I’m feeling a little more like myself
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Need a little help here. I’m getting tempted to go to the liquor store down the street and get a bottle. I’m 2 1/2 hours away from 3 days clean. Honestly already feeling a little better. Why is this shit so hard? I’m just sitting here in my apartment fighting in my head…
So now I’m on the app posting like crazy just get this urge to past. Guess water and bed here soon and it’s barely 5. I hope this gets easier… 
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Play the tape forward, what will happen if you drink? Bad things, for the vast majority of the time. Could you put on a movie or something to help the time pass until a decent time to sleep? It is when you start feeling a little better that you get tempted. It actually means you are moving forward!
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So glad to hear you’re talking and keeping that communication going. Chin up and just make the next best decision!
Checking in on 503.
Just got a call from my dermatologist and I got 2 abnormal moles. Pre skin cancer mild stage. Then the endodontist just called and they got a cancellation for tomorrow for me to have my root canal done 
instead of waiting til next week. Now if that isn’t some great reason for drinking tonight I don’t know what is.
FUCK YOU BOOZE 
!! I’m not drinking tonight. I’m going in there tomorrow morning hangover free. And I’m going to patiently wait to see my dermatologist again June 1st.
Booze my old friend? Stick it up your ass!!
I don’t need ya!
Who’s with me?
Got to take the good with the bad. This will all pass.
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Play the tape all the way through!
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I watched the rest of Mortal Kombat lol. Thank you for your support 
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When I get there, I just force myself to drink glass after glass of water until the idea of drinking anything at all is repulsive to me. It also has the added benefit of getting me hydrated, and I make much better decisions when I’m hydrated.
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Checking in substance free for…
It’s been a day, and I will quote Sophia “I am alive and I am sober”
I am experiencing quite a bit of pre-milestone anxiety around all the up coming milestones on this forum. I need to start a new gif file.
Rest easy everyone or if you are just getting up I hope you smash your Thursday.
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