What a nice suprise to wake up and see @anon27760155 posting. I’m so glad you’re back here where you belong. I’m looking forward to celebrating your 10 months with you. 
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Good morning everyone checking in sober. Had a good day with my girls yesterday, a little grouchy but it was good, started reading my book and so far I like it, it had me draw my my mom from my memory and goodness did I feel bad 
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You know I do want to apologise a little bit for sounding cocky about not worrying to relapse again, I’m just trying to sound confident and positive if I be positive I’ll get positive results obviously the fear is there. And I really don’t understand why so many ppl seem bothered by the fact Id like to not count my days, I went through all those milestone’s, all this celebrating got this tattoo and went and fucked it up. Like I sat there and said I’ll never relapse, I’ll always remember the shit drugs and alcohol did to me I’ll remember trying to kill myself and yet I still decided to pick up. I own my relapse, i no longer consider myself that many days sober. But it doesn’t have anything with me wanting to remain in active addiction, it just made me realize I can never say never. And all I have is today, and if all I have is today why does it matter if I count my days? Today’s the only day I care about so every day I’m one day sober, the past doesn’t matter anymore, and the future isn’t promised so idk this is my way at just taking it one day a time. Much love
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Checking in May 22 2021
Feel great other then over eating lastnight @apes2020 was totally right and hit the target I’m in love all over again and Im happy with wifey makes me want to eat everything in sight 
but I won’t let it happen again until I reach my goal weight of being between 145 ~150
No urges to Drink or Smoke in my double digits and I can’t wait to get back to where i was 
congratulations to the ones succeeded and to the ones in the muck keep your head up Let’s go !!!
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Day 344 clean and sober today. Made it through my second day yesterday with a sore back but able to manage. Really happy that I found this job. It’s a temporary position that will last from 3-6 weeks which should be enough time for me until I get my year sober for the peer support job at the rehab. I hope everyone has a wonderful weekend, love you guys!!! 
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Dang Mike it’s really good to see you back and posting in the daily check in!!! I’m super glad to see you back bro and much love back at ya!!!
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F**k yeah! Welcome back Danni!!!
Thanks man. It feels good to be back
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Not true! 341 sober days! 
Well, now 342!!
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Well thank you!! I appreciate it 
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Sounds like a good plan to me Mike. I heard somewhere 
“it’s just for today.”
Thanks T.
Ya I’ve had the procedure before. It kind of sucked. I got a hematoma that they manually had to break up 
hurt like hell. Since I been through it before I don’t have that unknown factor to worry about. And they do have good docs over here.
Thanks for your support. @apes2020 and @RosaCanDo I hope you had a good fun hike today with your fam.
@Misokatsu being sober helps. And I feel pretty confident in my sobriety today about it. I could drink all day and still have those problems to face and feel like shit. No thanks I’ll take sober me. I’m getting to like this guy.
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Yep first thing my doc said. Xarelto . I’m on it already. I forgot how expensive it is. . It’s fucking bullshit. I’m blessed I can afford it. I’ve been on it before. Hopefully they can fix me up again and take me off it. I hope whatever they do sticks this time.
Sorry about the death of your old friend.
I’m sure that is pretty hard. I’ve found the older we get the more people we know die. It still affects us even if we hadn’t seen them for ages. Life is just so fragile
Prayers for peace to you
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@Dolse71 WHOOP WHOOP!!! Congratulations on 8 months Paul.
@anon35096624 Congratulations on 1 month
@marcusmaximus2000 Congratulations on 500 days.
@CATMANCAM Sending love and strength
@Lisa07 Hope you’re feeling better soon. Love and healing vibes sent your way
@MrsOdh So sorry for your loss. May the Creator grant you strength to get through this difficult time. Thoughts and prayers are with you.
@vaariesga Nice to see you and happy to hear things are going really well.
@Dazercat Sending love and strength
@anon27760155 Welcome back. Missed you lady.
340 days and still in a bit of a funk. Can’t seem to shake this feeling of being on the edge. Riding it the best I can and knowing I’m not going to drink because I don’t drink.
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Day 279 
I feel good.
My work is busy, I continue to work from home. We have a big transition project that we have to complete by the end of December. Obviously, it is not easy to manage projects and communicate by working remotely. Sometimes I get overwhelmed, but my daily routines protect me. walking, meditation, gardening. In short, I am doing my best to maintain this point where I have come with great effort. I’m getting better.
I wish everyone a peaceful weekend.
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Checking in at the end of day 139.
Have a great sober day, wherever you are.
Goodnight. 
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1019 days alcohol free. Road tripping to Michigan w the wife this weekend. Happy Saturday
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@Lisa07 feel better soon
@MrsOdh sorry for your loss 
It sounds like a nice way to honour him.
@KevinesKay congrats on 3 weeks 
@M-be-free49 great photo of your dog girl 
@Dazercat sorry about your heart, hope they can get you sorted quickly
@RosaCanDo @Beforemy30s @Hopeful777 relating to this convo as I too was a victim in my 20s when I was still living as female, but I feel it’s important to add that it wasn’t our fault
@anon27760155 glad you’re back 
285 days no alcohol.
253 days no cocaine.
8 days no binge-eating.
Yesterday’s level of depression made me feel scared for the first time in a while, so today I decided to take drastic action, and did something I’ve been wanting to do for many years, but my feelings towards my body have held me back, I joined a gym and I WENT SWIMMING it was amazing, the swimming part, not so much the changing room part, as a trans guy I don’t feel able to change out of my swim shorts so I just had to put my joggers on over the top and waddle home, but I did it! I really want to swim every day now. I’m in agony with my feet from walking there and back, not from the swimming, I can only shuffle around now, really hoping the Podiatrist can suggest/do something that will help this issue with my heel bones
Once I was home and showered, I receive a last minute phone call inviting me for my second Covid vaccine, so I jumped in my car and went to get that done, it’s been a challenge getting it because for some reason they didn’t register my first one on my record so nowhere would let me book it, so feeling really grateful that it’s done now 
I’ve start reading a new book today too, it’s called The Autistic Brain. The past few mornings since I finished the fiction series, I’ve just been laying in bed with the blinds closed, attempting to sleep but failing, whilst simultaneously feeling more and more depressed, today I opened the blinds and the window from the top.
I had kinder dreams last night, and the last part I remember was that my brother and one of his friends had loads of cocaine, and they offered me what was left saying ‘do you want it?’ and there was loads, and I woke myself up saying ‘I do want it, but that is the problem, so I’m saying no.’ proud of my subconscious.
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Sign up for Good RX? It saved me a ton of money on prescriptions
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