Checking in daily to maintain focus #30

Yay your back!! :tada::pray::heart: glad to hear your well :hugs: are you still up the coast?

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I surely am! You still freezing your a$$ off down south?

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Halo ice cream is great. I like the birthday cake flavor, and the lemon one. Its not the same as real ice cream but its still yummy and with only 300 calories per tub :stuck_out_tongue_winking_eye:

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Yep lol :joy: its like 4 degrees in the morning here and its not even winter lol :grimacing: the Goldie is sounding pretty good right now ! How are you anyway? And the little ones? All well?

Awww man I don’t know how you cope with the cold, we can’t handle our 12°C at night :laughing: yeah we all good, been abit hectic with my oldest 2 (18 & 20), I thought as they get older it gets easier but I’m finding my 3.5 and 9.5 a walk in the park :joy:. Loving my study, I started Dip. Community Services at the start of the year.
What’s been happening in April’s world?

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Thanks for sharing your thoughts and solidarity! Must be tough and confusing to grow up with unpredictable behavior from your father due to drinking. I think you’re right about the communication, and I tried it when he was drunk, but he immediately switched to my drinking behavior and everything in my body was alert to not talk about that while he was drunk. But I will after this day when his hangover is gone. I reflected a little bit about my emotions, seeing him drunk; on the one hand, it’s because I’m trying to see the alcohol as a dangerous, destructive poison. Anyone who sees this and still drinks it voluntarily must be a fool. So he is an idiot. And on the other hand, I just can’t talk to him bc everything sounds stupid. He asks questions he never will ask when he’s sober. And his mood can change in a split second. Not that he gets aggressive or angry but he can be very disappointed when he doesn’t get what he wants.

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I’m still at the beginning of my sober journey, but I can imagine a little bit how you must feel. Like we are doing our very best to do good, and keep doing that every day, so where is the big reward we are hoping for. I do expect to be enlightened or have reached nirvana after 820 days for sure!

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Day 343… doing an early morning workout today and then going out for a relaxing brunch with the wife, followed by watching movies and relaxing at home for the rest of the day.

In my drinking days, I would’ve woken up so hungover I would have snuck several shots of Tito’s just to keep myself functional before leaving the house. Brunch would have cost an astronomical amount of money due to all the booze. I probably wouldn’t have eaten much and then would’ve convinced the wife to drive us to a brewery afterwards and blown more money drinking poison there.

That would be followed with an involuntary nap at home and then definitely an argument with the wife (which would have been my fault) for wasting our whole day drinking. Then inevitably I would have just continued drinking into the night. That was a typical Sunday for me.

I’m so grateful for the life that sobriety has given to me, it’s a totally different world now. I still can’t believe I made it out of that hell.

Have a great day everybody, love you guys :v:

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Day 11. Feeling good. Organised all my paperwork, spent some really nice quality time with the wife and doing some research on baby development in readiness for the new arrival

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Day 345 clean and sober today. I hope everyone has a great day, love you guys! :sunglasses::metal:t2:

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It really has! There’s no chance I would have stayed sober without this community so I have you guys to thank.

You especially, i appreciate all of your posts! Super informative and interesting stuff :slightly_smiling_face:

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You devil :smiling_imp: you.
Congratulations on all those wonderful days of sobriety
Shay. Have a great Sunday.
:pray:t2::heart::rose:

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So true. So true.
Sometimes I’m feeling so calm and level headed about things these days I feel guilty that I feel so good or fine with all the shit going on around me. It’s almost like a new drug or a new high.

Moves are very stressful. Good luck with yours. I hope it goes as smooth as possible for you.

I’ve had a lot of worries in my life, most of which never happened.
Mark Twain

Congratulations on 820 days. That’s awesome :clap:
:pray:t2::heart:

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Checking in May 23 feeling great could have had more sleep with wifey lastnight feeling great no tobacco no alcohol in my system I get to think clearly about all my choices without anything altering my mind very proud of that I feel here I feel in the moment 14 days as of today Let’s Goo !!! :pray: Congrats to everyone staying sober it’s a journey we ride together

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You da best, Eric! Thank you. Being so bad never felt this good! :smiling_imp:

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You already know how excited I am!!! I missed you sooooooooooooo much :heartpulse::heartpulse::heartpulse::heartpulse::heartpulse:

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Thanks you so much you guys for the lovely comments, I hope I didn’t miss anyone have a great Sunday :+1:

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This hit a nerve with me and got me a little emotional. I know exactly what your saying…it’s how I lost my 2nd wife to a divorce.

She was trying to be so patient with me. She even used to tell me …”look I’m not telling you to quit. Just cut down. Give us a few evenings for us…” I didn’t.

Everything revolved around my drinking. Everybody had to go by my schedule of drinking. I never ate dinner with the family. We never were intimate because I was always passed out by then. I never went to family functions unless it was at my home…you know, so I could drink…

Being sober for almost a week now has put so much in perspective for me. I know it’s too late. We’ve moved on. But I went from a family that loved me and was willing to make it work to now living alone in a studio.

It’s nice to hear your making it work for your family. Alcohol will always be there…but at some time your family will not…

Make the best and God bless :pray:t3:

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Day 302.41
I got 4 brand new tires! Such a relief, its been on my to do list for months. I had a slow leak in one and then discovered a nail in another. It was just looming over my head like crazy. Feels good to have that taken care of.
Im celebrating a year of making my bed every morning! Lol… and something else happened these last 2 months, I started keeping my car clean! Everytime I get out of the car I take everything out that doesn’t belong. This feels life changing… Hope you all have a great day, thanks for all the celebrating on my day 300. Love you all. :heartpulse:
@Will3 Thanks for popping in and sharing your big 365! Its good to see you! Congrats!
@Becsta Welcome back :slightly_smiling_face:
@marcusmaximus2000 Congrats on 500 days! You’re amazing. :tada:

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