@Chosen2001 Im doing good, soon hitting 1 week. Thank you 
Make me feel real good and happy we catch up during this Journey and doing this togheter.
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So great! 
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It’s not out the window. I struggled with this too. I’ve been on this site since 2018, I came close to a year and screwed up a few times. The hardest part was watching people come in the same timers I did, or after me rack up the days. It reminded me that I was a failure. But I’m not and neither are you. This shit is hard. I always knew that no matter what, I wouldn’t give up. You can’t do it for your girls or anyone else. It’s got to be for you. I know I’ve asked this before, but do you have a therapist?
You didn’t lose the time Mike, just consecutive days. That’s it. However, you weren’t sold and we watched you white knuckle for a very long time. You are your own worst enemy. You lie to yourself and romanticize what alcohol will do for you. You want to be normal, like everyone else, and wish you didn’t have an addiction.
I see all these rock bottom posts and it blows my mind. The fact is, rock bottom is death. We will always have that last one in us until it kills us. I still never shared my last relapse on here because I’m so ashamed. I should not be alive, yay, I’m a cockroach 🪳
I don’t read war stories. Why? Because my addiction looks for any reason to drink again. For years I looked at these stories as an excuse to drink. I would be like “well damn! I never did that shit!!! I’m not an alcoholic, I’m not like these people”… Until I was. But even now, I can STILL find people 10x worse than me. So, I scroll on by that shit. I know my story. No big dick contest for me. I don’t care who was the biggest addict. I just know I cannot drink. I don’t drink. I no longer want to drink.
It’s gotta come from you sweat pea. I look at you, your new career in front of you, your kids, and your age. You can literally carve out a great life for yourself. It’s so much better than a lifelong struggle with addiction. I would give anything to go back in time. My kids should not have had to go through what they did. There are things I will never share or even say out loud. My girls have trauma to work through and I’m very fortunate that they still love me and believe in me.
I care about you Mike. I want to see you pull through this. Keep sharing how you feel, no matter what. This is a safe place for you. Fuck anyone who judges or makes you feel like shit. Click the old ignore button. Love that thing 
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Hey all, checking in on day 344.
I had an insanely vivid drinking dream last night. AGAIN. I dreamt that I a bunch of shots of vodka and got blackout drunk.
I don’t know what’s up with these dreams lately, I have no desire to drink at all. This dream was so vivid I woke up with crippling anxiety thinking that I had relapsed.
Anyways, I’m still sober in real life and very happy about it haha. I hope everyone has a great start to their week!
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This is brilliant, well done
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I’m getting used to it now 
Well done BTW 
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Day 346 clean and sober today. Depression is starting to lift, whew it’s tough riding those waves!!! Went to the gym last night and am getting ready to head to work. Have a wonderful Monday everyone, love you guys!!! 
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Hi! I cleaned up our home gym which I turned into one of my drinking shelters after I quitted all sports in 2018… It was disgusting. I hid bottles, cans there, and found mice’ fece and dead mice too! 
I still can be surprised how gross things I did when i was drinking. After this, we had BBQ. Now I will set to watch TV and relax. Muscle soreness is guaranteened for tomorrow.
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Checking in on day 500. I’ve been okay.
Still seeing my therapist a few times a month. My cravings are at their all time minimum.
Although sometimes I feel like getting drunk haha.
I hope all of you are doing okay as well!
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Checking in May 24
No urges to drink no urges to smoke. Feeling great 15 days af as of today !
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Day 41 Got up early for my day off, got laundry in and try and push myself to get some house cleaning done. Then I’m doing a Target run! 
Hope everyone has a great day!
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Thanks, everytime I open the app I’m like 
Blessings and sobriety!
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Checking in on day 33. Waking up in Lisbon, Portugal today. Visiting family and spending holidays in this beautiful country. Just happy atm
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have you ever had moments in your life when you think you might have made a big mistake
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That sounds very frustrating, I can not imagine how hard it must be on you. I admire your strength.
Congrats on your days.
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Checking in SOBER at the end of day 141. Win!
It was touch and go today. I really didn’t want to be in my own head this morning. Had some really strong cravings as a result and my alcoholic voice put in an appearance for the first time in a long time. He saw his chance and he went all in. I had to put all of my faith in the knowledge that I didn’t want to drink, despite my emotional brain telling me that I wanted to.
Thankfully, I was able to think about all of the real benefits of not drinking. They are not imagined, they are real. The health benefits, the emotional benefits, the financial benefits - they are huge, and I don’t want to let them go.
My wife was great. She could have taken the opportunity to bring me back to the dark side, but she knows what I want and she knows how much happier I am now, so she helped me to do the right thing.
Also, a big thank you to @Misokatsu and @Its_me_Stella for replying today when I needed you to. Your kind words and support really helped to bring me around.
I spent a lot of time reading around other threads today and found a lot of solace in that.
I would have drank today without this community. There is no doubt in my mind.
Have a great sober day, wherever you are.
Goodnight. 
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Plenty, but who’s counting?
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