Wooo 30 days!! That happened fast. Sorry you can’t make it to a meeting because of the virus but I’m proud of you for racking the days back up so fast!
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45 days, whee. Doing pretty well, hardly any thoughts of drinking, forgot about this app for a few days. Working on validating my emotions. Applying for a new job.
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@Mno thank god you’re all grown up now because I would have hopped on a plane and kidnapped you!!! Sooooo adorable.
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Checking in on day 83. Sitting at the car dealership having my car serviced. Prepping for our road trip to the Florida Keys in two weeks. A friend’s cat was hit by a car yesterday. She passed away at the vet’s office overnight. She wasn’t chipped and didn’t have a collar. Friend found out after business hours through FB that the kitty was there. I’m trying not to go to a bad place and think that since the kitty was “unclaimed” that they didn’t do as much as they could have. Left the poor thing there unattended. And she died. But I don’t work in that field and am making assumptions. It’s just sad. I love animals and my heart hurts that the sweet kitty died alone and scared. 
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1024 days alcohol free
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Congratulations❤️
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I feel exactly the same, and I turned 50 at the end of last year. At least we’re getting there in the end…maybe.
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I had a conversation with my daughter about this recently. I also didn’t realise how full of self loathing I was until it stopped (well, slowed down a bit 
). I now don’t recoil when I catch a glimpse of myself in a mirror or a window. I was having a tough time earlier this week, wondering whether this whole sobriety thing was for me after all, and one of the things that kept me straight was this. The idea that I can now, somehow tolerate my own reflection. It had never occurred to me before because I didn’t know there was another way to be. I like it, and I don’t want to go back to the old deal.
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Checking in at the end of day 144.
As a maths type, I quite like that number.
Not much to report today other than discovering that I share a brain with @Becsta.
Did a bit of adulting, too. Called the bank and also called my letting agent. Two calls that I didn’t want to make, and that I wouldn’t have made six months ago. 
Have a great sober day, wherever you are.
Goodnight. 
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Day 935 and 14 for my today. It finally stopped raining and I will believe in the weather forecast. I will. Next three days off. So I am grateful for that.
Wishing everyone a sober night, day. Great that so many people are adding up day after day.
So do I try. I get more aware of my doing, how it is affecting me and what feels good. Small, infinite small steps but still progress.
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Very sad. I wish I hadn’t read this. I don’t know what it is about me and pets or any animals. Pet death really makes my very upset too. Any animal. I know where you’re coming from.
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Marie!!!
I am so happy to see this as I sit on my little patio drinking my morning coffee. What a great way to start my day. Congrats sweet friend, I am so happy for you.
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Day 2, Meth.
I wanted to listen to you. I wanted for it to work for me. It consumed me, 24/7 thoughts I couldn’t escape. I can’t believe this drug exists, i’m so pissed off right now. I let down my girlfriend, family, and business partner… and none of them noticed I was on it for 8 days. 8 days, it felt like 2.
I surrender. I can’t beat this on my own. That’s it, i’ve run out of options. Daily meetings, calls to fellows, all the steps, service work. I feel broken, I just want to be free of this. Please remind me of this if I start feeling confident again and that I don’t need help, I do.
At least i’m alive. Hope you all doing better than me.
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Look at that little boy… beautiful photo.
I was talking to my sponsor about change in recovery the other day. (She is 19 years clean now.) She told me that every year on her clean date she reflects on her past year, looking at what her growth has been. She says for her the growth, if you look at it in year by year portions over 19 years it doesn’t seem that much. However as a whole 19 year portion, her growth from when she came into recovery to now is huge. Being we are so very young in this recovery life of ours I think that although we have grown and changed a lot in our first year, the change won’t always be something we can put in a box and say " here it is this is, what I did". It could be that the change is so small and happening inside so slightly so that some big change can happen down the road. You know like when you are trying to move a piece of metal and you need to loosen all the bolts first? A bit tedious and not very noticeable work but necessary.
We all see all the hard work you are doing and how commited you are to your healing. It can’t be easy Menno but I can only imagine once you are finished it will have all been worth it.
Big hugs.
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Welcome back Rich, I am glad you made it back lots are not these days.
Do you have a meeting list? Can I help you in any way?
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Congrats 
on a month April I’m very proud of the way you have picked yourself up again 
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Congratulations @apes2020!!! Sending all the chip applause vibes your way on such an important milestone!!! Keep taking it one day at a time!!!
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@apes2020 so good! 
@Eleven17 congrats on 4 months 
@Dragonflygirl82 enjoy your break, it sounds wonderful 
@M-be-free49 you are enough 
@Hopeful777 congrats on 5 months fingers crossed for the job 
@Best_Me congrats on 2 weeks I’m loving your posts! 
I love Matt Haig, his book on reasons to stay alive really helped me at one point.
@Rockstar24777 sending love and strength💙
@vaariesga congrats on 11 months
@Girlinterrupted your gif makes me so excited every day eeeek! 
@anon74766472 congrats on 935 days and the 2 weeks
290 days no alcohol.
258 days no cocaine.
13 days no binge-eating.
Swimming was great again, today there were only two of us in the lane
The electrician came and checked the heater, it needs replacing, so that’s one job underway and should have heat in the bathroom early next week
I also managed to fix the gate fob myself, after asking a gadget fiend for advice, I used alcohol gel and a q tip to clean off the corrosion, and replaced the battery, and it’s working again, this was not before making a phone call to the gate company who refused to come and open the gates so I could get my car out, the management company who didn’t answer, a trip to the locksmiths who tested the signal and said there was nothing wrong with it 
, and 4 unanswered messages to my landlord though! 
The joy I felt when the gates opened and the fact I was able to fix something with my own hands was incredible I am now about to go and visit my brother and see my niece, so I’m hoping it wasn’t a fluke and that the gates will open again now
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