@Rockstar24777 I’m so sorry to hear about your loss, I don’t know what I can say to help ease your pain but I do know you have a lot of love within this forum.
@apes2020 woohoo go you! And omg I saw you guys were going back into lockdown, how fast does everything change hey… good luck studying for your L’s yeah we had that blackout for a few hours.
@Singtone Haha good to know I’m not alone, I used to avoid making phone calls too, now I just delay right up until the deadline
@Hopeful777 I think as long as we stay humble and grateful, we will always appreciate all the awesomeness that sobriety gives us
@Truckinmonster21 You are strong and have it in you to fight through any situation clean and sober. Good on you for getting through this and sitting with uncomfortable emotions. @CATMANCAM Sorry to hear about the fob troubles but so happy to hear swimming is becoming part of your regular routine. @Dragonflygirl82 Hope you have a peaceful getaway. @Hopeful777 Congratulations on your PB. Fingers and toes crossed for the job. @Best_Me Congratulations on 2 weeks. @Rockstar24777 Kept you in my prayers today. Sending love and strength. @vaariesga Congratulations on 11 months. @Luckyredz Glad you’re alive and glad you came right back. @Olivia It hurts me to hear this. Please know I fully support you. Should you choose to leave I believe it will be others’ loss. I have learned a lot about myself through your shares and your support. I really appreciate you. @apes2020 I’m so happy to hear that you’re at this point and feeling the difference.
345 days and it’s been a good one. Went a lil into overdrive cleaning today but maybe I’m making up for the lack of cleaning this past weekend. I’m excited to be having breakfast for supper and then have a video chat date with a great friend. It has been an amazingly good day and I’m taking it all the way to my pillow sober tonight.
Thank you so much Like it’s awesome to work thru them sober and not masking it with drugs or alcohol it’s just amazing and it’s the best feeling in the world yes it sucks in the moment because it’s raw basically dealing them with my true identity and that’s where the work begins drugs and alcohol stumps our growth in anything we do SOBER LIFE
Checking in May 27 today had urges not as strong as before 18 days clean as of today from alcohol 2+ years from Marijuana and about a month I believe in Cigarettes doing great today was my day off I took the wifey out to eat at her favorite place talked about the future our goals etc going on a family trip this weekend with the family to New York looking forward to the beach work-life has been amazing can’t complain overall sobriety is going good haven’t been able to check out the 12 step or the big book yet online I will soon happy sober day everyone !
Going to bed. Another day of just grouchy bullshit and lots of sleeping. I’m gonna hate to admit this, but I ain’t grouchy when I’m using. But I still no this is just part of the withdrawal. I’m grateful I made it through the day sober, grateful my girls still love the crap out of there daddy. Good night
You weren’t grouchy all the time before, just sometimes,
Plus your demeanor when your using or drinking is not authentic, even though you may disagree.
Good night…
Everyone is grouchy early on. It’s when your body is adjusting. My wife was gently suggesting that I drink again because I was so difficult to be around. You’ve been through it. You know. It gets better. Give it a bit of time.
For sure. And as you can see, it ain’t worth it. That was part of my relapse i went to get some n.as because I was really struggling, my uncle said just have some drinks Mikey I won’t tell, I know you came down here to let loose. It was all I needed to hear. Although I’m actually not drinking alot or drank alot any of the times. It led me right back to my other drugs
Well then. Kids can handle a bit of grump now and then. All relationships have conflict, so long as there is repair afterwards then the relationship is maintained. But uncertainly is very damaging. As is falseness. In my opinion.
Day 332.
A better day. Some of the stressors and things outside my control are still cuckoo-bananas, but the storm is outside of me, not agitating me at my core like a few days ago. Sobriety really is a superpower, especially at times like this. Of course some days it will be challenged, but there’s no question: sobriety is my safe harbour, the armchair I crash into at the end of the day.
At the end of a long zoom meeting this afternoon, the chairperson told us all to go enjoy a glass of wine tonight. This kind of thing is common, and it made me kinda chuckle as usual (yeah, sure, just one – the size of my bathtub) but today it also landed in me with such gravity. If I were to go back out there, I could probably hold things together for a while. But then I’d be back, and I don’t want to think about what happens in between…
I went for walk instead. Thunder and lightening are on the way again! I think the sky is mighty proud of us.
G’night, friends. Together we’ve got another day beat, I’m sure of it.
Thanks for the high fives and encouragement…
…@Dazercat – ah, buzzed by the beach and life itself! No need for anything else
…@CATMANCAM – I love that you are loving your swimming! And nice job on fixing the fob!
…and @Hopeful777 – congrats on 5 months, friend!
yeah we had that blackout for a few hours.
work-life has been amazing can’t complain overall sobriety is going good haven’t been able to check out the 12 step or the big book yet online I will soon happy sober day everyone !
