Ha. You’ve got me here, Eric (my middle name, incidentally!). I do recall saying exactly the same thing to someone else on here. It’s funny how we can believe entirely different things when we are dealing with ourselves and other people. Thank you. I am actually really delighted with my 5 months. 
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Congratulations!! 
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Day 357 clean and sober today. I hope everyone has a great day today, love you guys!!! 
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Day 355 for me today, wrapping up another sober week.
I hope everyone has a peaceful and relaxing Friday!
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Day 2 sober. I can’t give up although I feel so so tired interiorly
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Thank you Mel, I can’t understand people like that. They spread negativaty, I try to do the opposit.
It’s good to have you back 
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Well i’ve decided to have a trip to manchester tomorrow, this is one of those moments i need to go to this city and adapt. What will my reaction be like. I have noticed lately that somewhere new triggers me. So here i am learning a new way to live, to unapologetically be me without stressing myself out.
So i’ve been bleaching the flat today so that my mind does not focus on my plans for tomorrow.
I want to live my life,
So what if i can’t look at someone, so what if i struggle if someone accicident bumps into, so what if i tic… I keep saying i can do this shit. Please bare i’ve never travelled to manachester and before lockdown i would always have someone travelling with me but im doing this, i want this!
Heres to learning.
I have two sets of earphone charging and wired ones in my bag, thats my music sorted!
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Actually thank you for that, your right!
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Well done and congrats on 60!!! 
I enjoy reading your posts. I think it’s cause we’re both big on writing lists lol. I’m always writing a list of things to do, whether it’s on paper, the computer or in my mind.
One of the things on your list always speaks out to me cause it was what saved me and forced me to make a change or I was doomed.
“I need to listen to and honor my body.”
This one is huge. A few weeks before I quit I knew my body was telling me something. Something wasn’t right. I knew but kept ignoring it. My acid reflux was getting worse and worse every morning. Again I ignored my body hoping it would just go away. Until one morning I started coughing up blood And even then my stupid stubborn pride wouldn’t go to the doctors. That’s how much this disease had me at the brink of destruction. A few more mornings of blood and pain in the chest and arms and legs…I threw in the towel and completely gave up and did a 180. Where was this sobriety all these last 30 years? It’s always been there…I just needed to make a decision to take it, own it, love it and be free…one day at a time.
So when you say honor and listen to your body. Absolutely do. It’ll save your life. Great read 
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Congrats on Day 2! I was the same. I was so tired for the 1st week. Like all I did was sleep. I think it was my body adjusting to this new routine or detoxing. But as I just responded in another post…don’t fight it…listen to your body. It does get easier. Before you know it you’ll have more energy than you’ll know what to do with lol
Keep up the good work
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Sun is shining and day 6 is approaching 
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hi friends!! it’s become such a joy to check in with you guys, this app is amazing. i’m on day 3!! no cigarettes, no alcohol. i’ve never attempted to remove both at the same time but honestly it makes the most sense for me. this way i don’t leave 1 foot in the grave, i’m just full-body running thru the meadow at this point 
i feel like i’m finally honoring my truth, honoring my life and my value here, and allowing my psyche to go thru whatever trauma needs to come up that i’ve been suppressing with the substances. it can be overwhelming and super sad at times but it doesn’t make me want to use, i’m just staying strong and honoring the process because i truly want healing. i truly want to LIVE, not half-live, like i feel like i used to do. sort of like a demi-zombie — no thanks. not anymore. i used to see that as appealing actually. lol “demi-zombie” — NOPE not anymore, thank goodness!! 
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Keep going and have a great weekend 
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353 days. Thanks @Dolse71 for the ODAAT reminder. Each day putting my head on my pillow sober is a victory. I’ve learned that with each day comes new challenges and staying focused on today and staying in the moment is of utmost importance to me. I didn’t think it was possible but growth one day at a time happens and I’m living proof of it.
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So checking in today. Sad to say but I had to hit my reset button on here. I was almost 90 days and I had a drink last night. I wasn’t blackout drunk but I am feeling the results of drinking last night thats for sure. I am just upset with myself about it. I’m better than that and I feel like I let my wife down. So here is back to square one.
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Use it as a lesson you have learnt and keep going, one day at a time. Reach out here if you have cravings or if you feel that your brain has already decided to drink and you just delaying it - it can be turned around.
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I’m really sorry that you’re going through this, it must be really tough. Closure is hard but necessary sometimes. So is restart. Reach out here whenever you need company.
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Day 1. Happy to be here. 
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You are right. Its a good lesson to learn from. And yes I have been through that whole brain saying to drink but I delay it and try to talk my self out of it. Didnt do so good last night with it. Ended up just fighting with the wife. She says I cant drink at all.
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