@Misokatsu I so feel you on this and was pondering such questions a few weeks ago. MAKE PLANS. CELEBRATE YOU. Ask your husband if he would like to join in your celebration; you may be surprised at his response. BUT, no matter his response, celebrate you every day because every day sober is a victory. @Olivia Congratulations on your 9 months. Your presence here with your shares and support is astounding and I love having you alongside me on this journey. @pdebs Enjoy your connection with nature. May it do wonders for your mind and spirit. @CATMANCAM Good job on not ordering the yum yums. Just a suggestion but could you set yourself a timeframe to practice your tools learned in therapy without any measurements of weight? I know weight-loss is your goal, but can you focus on one goal at a time in terms of your ED behaviours? @DLS Awesome job on 13 months lady. Struggles are real and living life on lifeās terms isnāt easy but youāre doing it. Should you choose to step away know you will be truly missed. Sending love and strength.
380 days Not too sure if itās irony or coincidence but the memorial for my cousin who passed away in February has been set for the end of July/beginning of August. I am planning a trip to be away for the entire weekend and am looking forward to gathering with my family while being given my opportunity to say goodbye and seek closure. While planning for my trip I grieve the loss of my cousin and the recent loss of my girlfriend. Grief sure sneaks up in weird ways as I find myself bawling with no notice but reflecting on memories. Although itās Canada Day here I just canāt celebrate it this year as my heart also mourns the loss of too many innocent children. With a heavy heart I am thankful for having plans to get together with another family for swimming and a BBQ. Much love to all here.
Congratulations both on the eleven months and the whole biking across a state thing. A big state. I might be able to bike across Rhode Island or something
I know what you mean by having something to focus on in the future. I hope you find something, but donāt forget that sobriety is a wonderful goal itself. You are doing awesome.
Day 970. Checking out. Not having a good mood. Think itās fucking hormones.
Anyway, tomorrow day off. And amazingly I succeeded in building/changing an apk for my loop after a friend showed me how. Hating android studios but of course only bc I have absolutely no clue what I am doing and reading the docs, well forget about that. Chinese for me.
Last night whilst I was chilling at home winding down for the night watching Netflix, I had this over whelming feeling that something is missing In my lifeā¦ Im very happy in life , Iām not sad or depressed or down in anyway, but out of no where this feeling came over meā¦ Its was unfamiliar, because I never feel in terms of ālackingā in my lifeā¦ even though I am currently working hard to attain a few certain goals, I still donāt feel lacking in my lifeā¦ But last night a feeling of thereās something missing in my life washed over meā¦I feel good now this morning as im waking up and writing thisā¦ But its definetly something I will meditate over this morningā¦
and see if I get any clarity on what Iām being guided too
I also had a very strong dream where Iām pretty certain I was in an alternative linear realityā¦ As soon as I woke up I remembered the feeling that I was feeling in that alternative reality, it was me experiencing it but another version of meā¦the feeling I felt there , gave me guidance for this reality and as soon as I woke up I remembered itā¦ Very very cool experience
Also, Iām 3/4ās of the way through OTP course and after much consideration, ive decided to exit the course now early. Ive learned all I need to at this pointā¦ Iām feeling strong and confident in my recovery and the literature at this point along in class is not really rocket science and I feel I know what I need to knowā¦ Iāve been in OTP for over two months nowā¦ Two months of day OTP is a strong start to continue my journey of sobriety soloā¦ I learnt alot in OTP , but the time has come to be in the real world full time now and its my time to shine
not necessarily this community but donāt stop doing all the things that got you where you are today. Iāve been in many good places and always managed to find my way back to day 0.
At some point though we do need to start living and enjoying what time we have earned ourselves. Take care
