Checking in at the end of day 184.
Had a great day with the family today and have had no cravings at all. 
Went out with my wife for lunch and bought some new walking shoesā¦and some running shoes. 
Yes, thatās right, Iām 50 and Iāve bought new running shoes. Iāve been saying for a while now that I want to lose 10kg and then start running. Well, thanks to consuming the better part of a thousand calories per day less in sobriety, the 10 kilos have disappeared - so itās time to get it done. Wish me luck.
Went out with the family this evening, albeit in two separate groups of three because of the social distancing rules here, and had a great time. Picked up some Chinese dumplings on the way home for a lovely dinner. Magic.
Life really is so much better now.
Have a great sober day, wherever you are.
Goodnight. 
Day 54 ā¦ my sober house and sponsor have me going to speak at a commitment in a detox tonight nervous lol but not as nervous as returning to active addiction. Have good day everyoneā¦
@Hopeful777 @Alisa @Dazercat @Kareness @SoberWalker @050Nl @Misokatsu Thanks for all your good thoughts and prayers. I came home to a hungry Luna so thatās good. No puking or diarrhoea so far today so thatās good too. I gave her same fancy cat food (tuna) which she seemed to devour but in the end she didnāt eat much, mostly licked all the juice out of it. So thatās less good. I got an appointment at the vet on Thursday morning which is rather late I think. Will see how she does tonight. Love from Luna and me.
Hope she is doing better soon. She is so adorable. 
Day 2 check in. Got my kids this week. I also got my 2nd covid shot yesterday and I feel like junk.
Checking in on day 23. Managed to get some time to myself today to read abit and clear my head . I feel a lot better for it and realise I need to do it more often and not let things get on top of me. Hope everyoneās had a lovely dayāļø
Checking in on another day. Beautiful day today here. Have some running around to for a desert order I have to complete for a client. 20 cupcakes, 20 macarons, 20 chocolate covered pretzels, & 10 chocolate covered Strawberries. Should be fun to do & keep me busy from having the urge to use. Baking is one of my passions and I often find that when I use, my passion for this or for exercise, or anything else for that matter, goes out the window. I like to have something to look forward to and to accomplish each day. Being in early recovery I am doing all I can to ensure that I remember the positives of being clean and the shitty parts (which is everything) about getting high. Hope everyone had a great day!
Earlier I was grateful for the rain, now itās making everyone crabby. Ah, impermanence. Psychiatrist increased my antidepressant as an āexperimentā and told me I should probably stay away from alcohol 
bit of a waste of time. I am still trying to find a therapist but most are booked out months. I am craving some mad carbs today, I could eat a whole loaf of bread.
So far so good with this approaching tropical storm; mostly rain but wind will be here in a couple hours. I just hope we donāt lose electricity!
Edit: hereās where I am, that little island.
Good point! 
rawrrrr
Put an offer in on the dream house. Know they have had at least three others so we will see. Anxious as anything but just gotta wait. Thinking positive things 
Checking in. Two weeks today
@Seb congrats on 50 days 
@Kmcc123 congrats on your week
@apes2020 thank you 
It was a nice day 
Iāll check that film out tomorrow 
@Dolse71 sorry youāre having a hard time, sending strength 
@SassyRocks sorry you had a sh*t day too, I hope today has been better
@C_8 cool number 
the 2s look like two sets of Swans
@icebear congrats on your sober weekend
@M-be-free49 good luck for dealing with the stuff from the past
@Dazercat congrats on 550 days
@Mno I hope the evaluation went well and that Luna is doing okay just seen your today post, good luck at the vets on Thursday 
@Hopeful777 Sorry about your friend, sending prayers
@Rod3rick welcome 
congrats on day 1
@Mephistopheles thanks for sharing, great poem
@Jmigo49 congrats on 60 days
@littlemisschatterbox feel better soon
@Singtone good luck for starting your running journey
@John1990 hope tonight goes well
@Sunny11 stunning photo 
I love sunrises and sunsets
@siand exciting! Good luck 
@JLove congrats on 2 weeks
330 days no alcohol.
298 days no cocaine.
24 days no binge-eating.
Watched another movie this morning. It feels really good to be able to sit with myself and do this. I know it sounds like such a simple thing but I havenāt done this for so long. I always loved films and it used to upset me that I couldnāt sit through them anymore. It feels good to welcome old positive habits back, like with this and with the exercising again
Also did the rest of my grocery shopping before lunch, my feet are really not happy with the extra walking but Iām so used to their complaining now.
Went to the gym and swimming this afternoon, itās feeling good again this week 
I realised I had missed 2 of my 4 daily meditations since the 2nd of July, so Iāve caught up on 4 of them before coming here and I feel so peaceful now. Will catch up on the rest tomorrow while both of my cats are in surgery, super anxious about that and so worried that something will go wrong again, seriously hoping and praying that itās all successful and I can check in here tomorrow with my babies safe at home recovering by my side.
No you wouldnāt. This is the normal Paul now and the normal you donāt drink! Hope youāre in a better place as a day ago.
Letās have a good clean and competitive series.
Also, the games are on ABC 15 I believe, no cable needed
Iām still here, day 24. I actually made it through my first holiday with out fallingā¦ Everyday Iāve gained on my clock is so encouraging!!!
Iām here, Iām alive and Iām sober.
Day 310
Mongolian food week goes on. Today we even found a Mongolian food channel on YouTube, where they show authentic Mongolian food. And even visit nomads. My 11 y/o wanted us to instantly sell the house and become Mongolian nomads because it looks so clean, simple and cozy. I can understand him.
Iām getting more and more second thoughts about going anywhere again this summer. The Covid-19 Delta virus is starting to get me nervous for real. Iām still not vaccinated, they say itās a bigger risk for me to get really ill from the vaccine because of all my allergies and thw fact that Iām allergic to some painkillers (Like Ipren) and dental local anesthesia. But on the other side weāve got Pa, they didnāt dare to vaccinate him either. And he got covid and died. My husbandās friend middle aged in full health died from the vaccine.
Also our news has been cabled out that in Israel vaccinated people are getting the Delta virus despite the vaccine and some of them dies. Also they are saying that there will be new better vaccines coming here in fall.
My province is still the second one with highest infection rates right after Stockholm.
And it feels like such a big risk to maybe get sick, just because Iām getting cabin fever from sitting here all summer.
I know, I know Iām dwelling this a lot. Especially lately, but ever since Pa died Iāve gotten more and more worried. What If I die, what if my husband dies? What if one of the kids get sick? Iām worried sick about this. So I think Iām going to try and find out activities to do without needing to travel anywhere. Like camping in the backyard.
Next week our 9 y/o has choosen minecraft as a food theme. I approved it, It might not be a different country, but itās definitely a different world.
Late checkin today, but weāve been at the playground almost all day. And my allergies are trying to kill me. It just started to rain and hopefully it will all night so I can breathe again tomorrow.
I hope yāall had a great day.
12 days 20 hours. Boy I am sore, went for a nice ride last night, guy is supposed to come at 5 for tattoo. Girls come home tomorrow much love