Checking in… day 464. Last day of covid quarantine . Grateful for each and every one of you and the support.
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Thank you lil sis I appreciate it! 
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Day 401 clean and sober today. I hope everyone has a great day today, love you guys!
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Good morning y’all.
Checking in sober, hangover free 563 days.
In a row 
Got my Cardiac Ablation, scheduled for August 3. Lots of mixed feelings and emotions. Excited the doc can fix me up and I won’t be tired all the time and my heart will be back in sinus rhythm. And terrified because last time the recovery sucked. I got a hematoma and I was a miserable drunk for a couple of weeks. Well I’m not a miserable drunk anymore. I’m going to be feeling all the good and shitty feelings and emotions. I’ll probably cry. I’ll probably be strong as shit, because I got this, and everything in between. I’m also looking forward to my first flight sober since I’ll be flying out to Santa Monica. Bring it on bitch!! I’ve done my homework.
And besides. I know y’all got my back. Because that’s how it works around here.
If your feelings or emotions get to be too much for you and you’re thinking about picking up.
Come on here first.
See what happens.
Don’t go it alone.
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Oh good on you! I’m so glad you had that peace and freedom! You’re 100% worth it!
Where on earth is that beautiful scenery? 
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Way to go Sunny 
Great choice.
It really does get to feel great and valuable.
Congrats.
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It sucks but it’s ok. Your feelings are not the boss of you. They don’t get to have the last word on anything, you do.
I’m delighted to hear you’ll be getting help for your heart condition. You’re in great hands my friend. And fuck yeah, we’ve got your back
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Checking in day 35 . Another gorgeous day spent with the family . Hope everyone’s enjoying their Sunday 
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Checking in at the end of day 196.
Had a lot of cravings today. Was really tired after a late night yesterday, the sun was shining beautifully, and Sunday lunch (and all afternoon and evening) was always my biggest drink of the week - particularly with Monday off work, as I currently have.
Thankfully I was able to see it all for what it was and stay sober. Playing the tape through made it all a lot easier. I love my new sober life far too much to give it up that easily.
Have a great sober day, wherever you are.
Goodnight 
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Checking in day 66
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I’m glad it turned out Okey for you. Even if recovery will be hard, you know you can do it. As you said, you’re not the same person you where before.
You’re still human though, just like the rest of us. And humans have feelings, that’s what makes us human. As my life coach says, it’s okey to feel. Whatever you’re feeling, anger, sadness, happiness, joy, grief. It’s okey,it’s human. And no one walks through life with one emotion only.
And as you already know, you can do like a lot of us already does. Keep checking in, multiple times a day if you need it. We’re all here.
I wish you the best of luck with your surgery, recovery and your flight.
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Checking in…
Things have been a bit tough lately. Not really living an honest program. Lieing etc for my selfish wants. Haven’t been attending meetings lately… but today I did an online NA meeting and it was fantastic!! Really what I needed. I have so many desires and wants for a happy healthy life. I feel like I’ve lost myself. But I’m changing things up. Nothing changes if nothing changes. I have decided to attend 1 online meeting a day (more if I need to) and I want to start my day with some exercise and with connecting to my HP. Those are my baby steps right now. I dont want to overwhelm myself. Anyway, I am striving for 1 week cleaning. That’s my goal. But one day at a time 
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@liv_m congrats on 3 weeks 
and that’s great about your cousin too 
@Newmom2020 welcome congrats on 3 days
@Anonymouse78 congrats on 4 months
@Jonachav123 congrats on all the 5s
@Dazercat glad they’ve got you booked in, prayers for no haematoma this time
342 days no alcohol.
310 days no cocaine.
2 days no binge-eating.
I’ve been playing Pokémon again today and I got some really cool ones that I’d never normally be able to get because I don’t know anyone else that plays, so I’m happy about that.
It’s been really hot here in the UK this weekend, so I couldn’t wait to get to the gym where there is air con and to swim in the water, I really enjoyed it. At the same time, it’s nice to see a bright sky.
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Thanks Buttercup. I do appreciate it.
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Day 24 . I went to the Church and passed afterwards very good time with my aunts and ancle. Giving thanks because they are still alive
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416.72 sober
36.84 ED
I was walking to work the other day and I heard someone call my name. I turn around and it’s my ex-husband’s best friend. Well, ex-best friend now.
I stopped talking to my ex back in February. I got tired of being disrespected. He’s sad, he needs me, he texts and I cheer him up, then he ghosts. Ain’t nobody got time for that. He texted me for my birthday and I ignored it.
So, anyway, apparently he has gone completely off the rails. Plus, he’s such a shitty friend, no one bothers with him anymore. Including me.
He was supposed to be in this guy’s wedding and bailed at the last minute. It was about a month after his motorcycle accident and he was still mr speed racer in his wheelchair. He was planning on going, then DAY OF it was raining and he didn’t want to get his wheelchair wet. That really, really hurt his friend. They made all sorts of concessions for him and he bails. Not to mention, his friend was in our wedding.
I will say it was amazing seeing him and we talked for over an hour.
I’m proud that I didn’t blame my ex’s downward spiral on myself. His friend told me that he went absolutely insane. Unfortunately, he does have antisocial personality disorder (new fancy term for psychopath). It’s gone untreated for many years. He’s now being enabled by his mother. He lives there, drinks, plays video games, and watches TV all day. I don’t think he goes outside at all.
I had a small urge to reach out to him, but it passed. He made his decision. I gave hime so many opportunities, but he chose a path of self destruction. I don’t think he’ll be alive in a few years. I’m honestly surprised that he still is.
Anyway, happy sober Sunday!!!
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Day 85.
7.15am.
8 degrees.
Ive had a nice week with minimal phone contact. I highly recommend a digital detox if you can do it and don’t need to be on your phone for work etc…
The last two days ive had monkey mind moments that lasted longer than I would of liked. Thoughts of using, playing out in my mind… I have no intention of using and I know it won’t happen, but I think because I’m approaching my 90 days, for some reason my mind is playing tricks and it was really uncomfortable… After the tape kept playing out in my mind over and over last night, it always ended in a big nooooo not happening noooooo, I’d remember I’m in a great place in my life and in no time, the mind hijacking went away… Its crazy how it happens out of no where.
So for everyone that is dealing with meth struggles and urges, cravings etc - no matter what stage you are at in your journey, a bad moment can hit your mind at any time, as long as you remember why your staying clean and remind your self of how far you’ve come and how amazing life actually is when your clean- you can push through dark moments that cloud your logical mind and you can stay Clean. Its possible. … You have the choice every time.
You can choose your choice to stay clean, every time 
PS…still in lockdown here. Not much else going on really 
Glad to catch up on everyone’s week today over my morning cofffee 
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