Checking in daily to maintain focus #31 (Part 2)

Very well said . Urs is meth mine is heroin but ill tell u this the hijacking of the mind and the dark cloud coming to harass ur logical mind is same thing I been dealing with past few days 66 days in and my mind tells me u have such a ways to go back out now ur a junkie nothing more get just a 20 bag a little taste and I have to say noooooooooo ur a lie I demand freedom I demand to meet the real austin sometimes I say that multiple times . Thanks for ur post

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2 more hours will be day 25. Just feeling kind of lost and unproductive today. Did a cover up tattoo on myself last night that turned out good. My mind wants to go get some drinks, hoping I fight through it

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Very much so isnt it :pray: it blows my mind how I watch the tape play out in my mind , but my ā€œlogicalā€ mind is watching it play out and knows it canā€™t happen, yet it letā€™s it play out to the point of uncomfortableness, then out of no where, the hijacking just stops and our logical mind ( our higher brain ) takes over as if to say " yea nooooo thats not happening ahhh no" then its as if it never happenedā€¦ Pure mind hijacking isnā€™t it :thinking:

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Sorry to hear youā€™re in lockdown again April. I read a couple of days ago you all were in a ā€œsnap lockdown.ā€ Whatever the hell that is. I was Wondering if it affected you.

Big Congrats on 85 days. I remember that 90 day milestone was a son of a bitch. You got a great attitude and I so proud of how far youā€™ve come. Keep being strong and amazing. Youā€™re so worth it.
:pray::heart:

Do you guys ever get any snow?

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Sending strength. Your sobriety will make it just a bit easier this time, Iā€™m sure.

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Youā€™re in good hands, Eric. Allow yourself to feel all the feels and be sure to keep sharing them with us. Iā€™ll be keeping you in my thoughts in prayers throughout.

Did I miss a post? Is Kelly staying in Flag with the animals? Whoā€™s going to be with you in Cali? Your daughter?

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Thank you so much !!

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Yes !! One minute at a time :black_heart::black_heart::black_heart:

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Thank you sooo much :black_heart::black_heart::black_heart::dizzy:

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Yep, lots of snow. But its a few hours drive from my home, so I dont get direct snow at my home but its not far away

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So well put . On point lol. Ahhhhhhh no ah no . I can be so happy thrilled that im finally going after my recovery then in a mili second my mind starts putting obsessive thoughts about dope and it literally drains my physical energy. Its as if u get past one stage and thereā€™s another stage around the corner to prove urself that u demand recovery . Wish best for u ill pray for u and please return the prayers lol

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Ya Kelly is minding the herd at home. :cat2: :dog2:. My daughter will be around to help me out in Cali. Thanks for your thoughts and prayers.

Just woke up from a wicked solid 2 hour nap. Not sure if Iā€™m going to miss that or not. :thinking:
Thanks Fleur @Misokatsu
:pray:t2::heart:

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Hey Paul.
@Dolse71
I know itā€™s only been a day. But Iā€™m thinking about you and hope your ok. Give us a shout when your up for it.
:pray:t2::heart:

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Checking in tonight 5 years 20 day.
And I am still alive I did not died from not drinking or using! Now I wouldnā€™t had believe that 5yrs 20 days goā€¦ And even those I hurt like crap tonight I feel bett than I did for the 30 some year I used. I am more grateful, and humble. Thanks to my friends here at TS for being here.
I had my 2wk post surgery appointment Friday, omg I was totally miserable by the time we got from Norfolk 4hrs each way. So I got to see my new to jewelry and I must say it was kind of a ā€œwowā€ :open_mouth: but Iā€™m ok. They removed my bandage and raised my brace and said your neck need to high and chin straight. 14 more week. See you in 4.
So through i would share my xray

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Day 7 (nearly). Itā€™s 3:15 am and Iā€™m off to Wales shortly to climb Snowdon :grin:. Checking in now because I wonā€™t get a chance later.
One of my mates from rehab told me not to worry about making it up because we climb mountains everyday :raised_hands:t3:. Wish me luck! Happy Monday everyone

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Day 358
Heyyy sober famā€¦ Phew! Made it through that vacation. I survived. Felt like everything that could go wrong went wrong and by day 3 I was ready to pack my bags and go home. I even thought about drinking one day but didnā€™t! (So glad! Plus, someone sent me a 1 year gift and I didnt want to have to return it! Funny the logic we create in our headsā€¦) Anyway, things ended up getting better and by the end we actually wished we had an extra day. Butā€¦ I came home with a new appreciation for Vegas and that is absolutely priceless. I can put all my California dreaming to rest now. :sweat_smile:
Life has its ups and downs but sobriety makes life soooo much easier.
Hope you all have an amazing sober day, I missed you all!! Lots of shout outs to be had but I am sooo tired today and still in a funk. I accept that this is how I feel, tomorrow is a new day.
@Dazercat Praying for you a safe trip home and no hematoma this time!!

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Wow! That is incredible. How did that happen? Sorry you probably already explained this and I am just super late, just curious. Great job on your 5+ years!! Definitely feels better sober. :yellow_heart::yellow_heart:

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Wow, that xray! Your neck jewelry is way more impressive than mine! Hang in there!

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Checking in on day 1 :grinning:

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