Very well said . Urs is meth mine is heroin but ill tell u this the hijacking of the mind and the dark cloud coming to harass ur logical mind is same thing I been dealing with past few days 66 days in and my mind tells me u have such a ways to go back out now ur a junkie nothing more get just a 20 bag a little taste and I have to say noooooooooo ur a lie I demand freedom I demand to meet the real austin sometimes I say that multiple times . Thanks for ur post
2 more hours will be day 25. Just feeling kind of lost and unproductive today. Did a cover up tattoo on myself last night that turned out good. My mind wants to go get some drinks, hoping I fight through it
Very much so isnt it it blows my mind how I watch the tape play out in my mind , but my ālogicalā mind is watching it play out and knows it canāt happen, yet it letās it play out to the point of uncomfortableness, then out of no where, the hijacking just stops and our logical mind ( our higher brain ) takes over as if to say " yea nooooo thats not happening ahhh no" then its as if it never happenedā¦ Pure mind hijacking isnāt it
Sorry to hear youāre in lockdown again April. I read a couple of days ago you all were in a āsnap lockdown.ā Whatever the hell that is. I was Wondering if it affected you.
Big Congrats on 85 days. I remember that 90 day milestone was a son of a bitch. You got a great attitude and I so proud of how far youāve come. Keep being strong and amazing. Youāre so worth it.
Do you guys ever get any snow?
Sending strength. Your sobriety will make it just a bit easier this time, Iām sure.
Youāre in good hands, Eric. Allow yourself to feel all the feels and be sure to keep sharing them with us. Iāll be keeping you in my thoughts in prayers throughout.
Did I miss a post? Is Kelly staying in Flag with the animals? Whoās going to be with you in Cali? Your daughter?
Thank you so much !!
Yes !! One minute at a time
Thank you sooo much
Yep, lots of snow. But its a few hours drive from my home, so I dont get direct snow at my home but its not far away
So well put . On point lol. Ahhhhhhh no ah no . I can be so happy thrilled that im finally going after my recovery then in a mili second my mind starts putting obsessive thoughts about dope and it literally drains my physical energy. Its as if u get past one stage and thereās another stage around the corner to prove urself that u demand recovery . Wish best for u ill pray for u and please return the prayers lol
Ya Kelly is minding the herd at home. . My daughter will be around to help me out in Cali. Thanks for your thoughts and prayers.
Just woke up from a wicked solid 2 hour nap. Not sure if Iām going to miss that or not.
Thanks Fleur @Misokatsu
Hey Paul.
@Dolse71
I know itās only been a day. But Iām thinking about you and hope your ok. Give us a shout when your up for it.
Checking in tonight 5 years 20 day.
And I am still alive I did not died from not drinking or using! Now I wouldnāt had believe that 5yrs 20 days goā¦ And even those I hurt like crap tonight I feel bett than I did for the 30 some year I used. I am more grateful, and humble. Thanks to my friends here at TS for being here.
I had my 2wk post surgery appointment Friday, omg I was totally miserable by the time we got from Norfolk 4hrs each way. So I got to see my new to jewelry and I must say it was kind of a āwowā but Iām ok. They removed my bandage and raised my brace and said your neck need to high and chin straight. 14 more week. See you in 4.
So through i would share my xray
Day 7 (nearly). Itās 3:15 am and Iām off to Wales shortly to climb Snowdon . Checking in now because I wonāt get a chance later.
One of my mates from rehab told me not to worry about making it up because we climb mountains everyday . Wish me luck! Happy Monday everyone
Day 358
Heyyy sober famā¦ Phew! Made it through that vacation. I survived. Felt like everything that could go wrong went wrong and by day 3 I was ready to pack my bags and go home. I even thought about drinking one day but didnāt! (So glad! Plus, someone sent me a 1 year gift and I didnt want to have to return it! Funny the logic we create in our headsā¦) Anyway, things ended up getting better and by the end we actually wished we had an extra day. Butā¦ I came home with a new appreciation for Vegas and that is absolutely priceless. I can put all my California dreaming to rest now.
Life has its ups and downs but sobriety makes life soooo much easier.
Hope you all have an amazing sober day, I missed you all!! Lots of shout outs to be had but I am sooo tired today and still in a funk. I accept that this is how I feel, tomorrow is a new day.
@Dazercat Praying for you a safe trip home and no hematoma this time!!
Wow! That is incredible. How did that happen? Sorry you probably already explained this and I am just super late, just curious. Great job on your 5+ years!! Definitely feels better sober.
Wow, that xray! Your neck jewelry is way more impressive than mine! Hang in there!
Checking in on day 1