I’m here, I’m alive and I’m sober.
Day 323
I’m not sure how I should feel about today.
Y’all know my former best, oldest and closest friend right? The guy who started doing drugs again.
I wrote about him yesterday or the day before. He’s been having some trouble with his girlfriend. And totally screwed that relationship. And he’s been chasing us for day to get a babysitter because his Ma has been really ill.
His Ma passed yesterday evening. And this morning he called us because he wanted a new lock for his house. Because he was afraid that his girlfriend would come and steal his stuff while he was at his sister’s place for the funeral arrangements.
We had a lock for him so he quickly came over here. Telling us that he lost his glasses in the lake last week. Asking if he could borrow money for new ones. This guy has really expensive prescription glasses so we told him that we don’t have that kind of money. While he was here his Pa who lives like a 15 min car ride from our house called and said he’ll lend him the money, if he came over for a quick visit to pick them up.
My friend ofc had his son, an 8 y/o boy with him here. Which y’all know I completely adore, amd sometimes wish it was my kid,even if he has a heck of a temper. I feel so much for this little boy. When they arrived I could tell that my friend was really high, and at first I didn’t even wanted to go out and talk to him. But I we’ve been friends for so long, going through so much. And both of us just lost a parent so I couldn’t just ignore it. I sent the kid in to play with my boys. Hugged my friend and talked to him deeply for a few minutes.
But it was almost impossible to get a normal conversation.
When he was about to leave, I just got a feeling that I didn’t want any of them to go. I felt it so strong that I almost got ill thinking about it. My friend was unstoppable and in the moment when he was about to call for his little boy to jump in the car. My boys and his boy starts to laugh hysterically because they where playing. So I begged him to let the boy stay and play for the day. But I also told him that I had no intention of keeping the boy for weeks so he better get someone to pick him up during the evening.
And once again I asked him not to drive especially not without glasses. I said that we could have his Pa over here instead.
But my friend insisted on driving, and I couldn’t proof that he really was high so i didn’t stop him.
About five minutes after he left he called us to let us know that he’d been in a car crash, and totally wrecked the car. The back of the car, where his boy usually sits was just mash. We tried to ask him if he was alright but we didn’t get an answer. And during those minutes we had the firefighters driving by on our road with full sirens really quickly. They are the first responders her. We barely hung up before one of my husband’s bosses called. The boss is married to my friends sister. And he had just called them to say that he crashed, and that the boy is at our place.
During that call we had both the ambulance and the police driving by our house, also in full speed with sirens.
We talked to the boss, and he said that my friend apparently had speeded a lot, considering the miles he drove during that short amount of time. And that when he talked to him this morning he had revealed that he’d taken a lot of drugs during the night, and some amphetamines during this morning to stay awake.
We aren’t sure about my friends condition, but I’m sure that they’ll take his license, and probably put him to jail for this. Hopefully hell get into rehab to.
I’m 100 % there was a sign from the universe, call it intuition or whatever that made me keep the boy here. Even if I’ve said for days that I refuse to babysit him.
If I hadn’t insisted on keeping him, he might have been dead by now.
At the same time I really regret that we didn’t force my friend to stay here, by taking the keys or whatever. It might have saved him to.
I haven’t told the little boy yet. And I don’t know what will happened to him. But me and my husband have agreed that if they need somewhere to place him temporarily we’re going to volunteer so he can keep going to school where he have all his friends. And stays at a place that he knows.
Happy Monday everyone, I’ll keep you updated as soon as I know more.
And I had to cry some tears in frustration but then shake it off and let go. I’m sober, I’m pretty happy honestly and I’m finding joy in things like my walks with Lupe and my garden, chats on the phone and messages from friends. Sending some grateful love your way today, amigos. 