Less than a week to go @CATMANCAM, will u do/eat/buy anything to celebrate?
A fellow mum mentioned that a “long” time ago, a child passed away from heat stroke at the jhs my son will go to from next year. I instantly panicked internally. I also panick internally at any news about a child’s death. It is an almost daily thing. I am sure all parents worry, but do wonder if my worry is a little extreme. I know worrying won’t help, but can’t help imagining it happening to mine. I started crying now just typing. Everyday like this is getting a bit much.
Relaxed and sober on my camping trip with my dog. Done some lovely walks and read books… so chilled. Cooked outside. Not gone near a pub, even for food.
Good Morning everyone! 30 days! I feel proud to have 30 amazing mornings and evenings sober. I wake up at six every morning with no alarm, didn’t know I had an internal clock! Before quitting I was always too exhausted to get up on my own. I went to my third AA meeting on Tuesday. My stack of quitlit is huge
I am grateful for everyday and grateful for all of you here on TS. Knowing that I am not alone in this is very helpful. Have an amazing day everyone!
Tonight when I am getting ready for bed I will be looking at the 5 months sober token. Funny thing is, my TS friends are the only ones who I will celebrate with. Everyone in my life, for the most part, thinks I stopped for good a lot longer ago. S.O. never brings it up. Three year relationship between him, me, and the elephant in the room. My adult sons have witnessed bad behavior maybe 2 or 3 times in the past decade. We don’t discuss it. I could go on with other family and friends. It is just strange.
How does this make you feel? You don’t have to tell me or anyone. But you put it out here for a reason. Congratulations on your 5 months. You are doing this! Don’t let anything or thoughts hold you back.
Day 372
Currently on my mind is the fact that all bike (and most other sport) events have a beer sponsor. The race I dropped from I am now volunteering at the finish line. I found out I have a 5 hour shift midday handing out champion beverages — the option of beer or rootbeer.
Happy they have the rootbeer option this year at least. I know I have talked about it before, but finish line last year when I was two weeks sober I had fully intended to have that champion beer. My sobriety at that point was purely for race performance but my friend working the finish line remembered when I was sober many years before and just handed me the empty champion glass…no beer. I have her to thank for a lot of my continuing sobriety.
So now to put myself fully in that environment…Everyone involved I have made largely aware that I don’t drink anymore but I can’t help feeling nervous about it. I know my addict brain is going to want to scream at me the whole time. Thinking I’ll wear a camelback or mtb hip hydration pouch and just guzzle lots of water all afternoon. And luckily the majority of riders will come in after my shift so I don’t anticipate handing out many beers. My shift would be the 11-16 hour ride time. 16 is around where the faster casual riders come in so I’ll mostly see the top placers/course record holders and that is exciting!
That’s beautiful Danni. What a blessing to be able to get you life back and especially the trust that comes with it. All so worth it.
And I still can’t believe I did a year without booze and I’m gone 19 months.
Checking in at the end of day 214.
My daughter has a couple of friends staying over. So happy/proud to be sober. In any other summer, there’s no way I would be.
Life is so much better now.
Have a great sober day, wherever you are.
Goodnight.
@Olivia Shark Hoovers are absolutely amazing, especially for pet hair if you have any pets, at the moment I believe they have an offer on too, £100 discount. @anon53116147 keep going man, I’m sure your girls love you, it’s great that you’re getting plenty of bookings, people must like your work, you’ve got this @Thirdmonkey theres a Winston Churchill quote as well ‘When you’re going through hell, keep going.’ It kept me hanging on in some really dark times, I’ll check that song out too, thanks @Lilemm please start a Laney thread and spam us with photos I adore Rottweilers @anon27760155 massive congrats on your year so proud of you, love that picture quote and your quote at the end @SoberWalker sorry you’re having a hard time, I think it’s great that you and your partner are going to try therapy, sending strength @zzz you obviously do want sobriety, never stop trying, congrats on your honesty @Mno It’s A Sin is an amazing but truly heart-breaking series @Misokatsu I already treated myself on Prime Day, I bought a new Emma mattress, some Beats headphones, and an electric toothbrush, got them as an early reward because altogether I got £515 discount, and they were things I have wanted for a really long time How about you? Sorry about the anxiety you are having with worrying about your children, I think I’d be exactly the same if I had children, I get like it about my cats @Hopeful777 your dog is marvellous
@Ewa congrats on 30 days @Mbwoman congrats on 5 months
360 days no alcohol.
328 days no cocaine.
1 day no binge-eating.
Woke up early again. I’m watching a reality series and it’s keeping me happy having something to watch that I’m actually enjoying, it will keep me entertained for quite a while as I’ve still got 12 full seasons to watch. It’s good also because it stops me from laying on my bed feeling restless and depressed not knowing what to do with myself.
I made it back to the gym and swimming today after a whole week off It felt really good, but I am in so much agony with my feet.
I took my toenail clippings to my doctor’s to be sent off for testing, hoping to get this issue resolved finally, I’ve had it for 14 years and it’s a minor thing I know, but it gets me down.
Had my Podiatrist appointment and things are not looking good for my feet, she said I’ve definitely got Plantar Fasciitis in all 3 branches of tendons in my heel, she also thinks I’ve got Arthritis in both heels and shin bones She said there is another treatment for the PF called Shockwave Therapy, but it isn’t available on the NHS, privately it’s £200+ per session . I am more serious about buying an electric wheelchair now, I’ve been considering it for a while but putting it off because I’m stubborn and like to push myself, but now that I know I am doing more damage every time I put weight on my feet, it feels like the sensible option. They are mostly around £1500 but I’ve found one I like that is on offer for £799. Can pre-order now for when it’s released in September.
The floaty head side-effect has subsided thankfully, but I do have blurry vision so I didn’t take my lunchtime dose as I had to drive all afternoon.
I have a sore throat today so I did a Covid test before I went out anywhere and it was negative thankfully, I had a sore throat for 2 days last week too but it never progressed into anything more, annoying but minor.
Not as many posts on here today so I hope everyone is doing okay
I adore Rottweilers 
so proud of you, love that picture quote and your quote at the end 
How about you? Sorry about the anxiety you are having with worrying about your children, I think I’d be exactly the same if I had children, I get like it about my cats 
It felt really good, but I am in so much agony with my feet.
She said there is another treatment for the PF called Shockwave Therapy, but it isn’t available on the NHS, privately it’s £200+ per session