@Girlinterrupted well done on another PB your strength is inspiringā¦ @Kmcc123 wow enjoy your holiday have a great time @anon53116147 how sad, a strong reminder of how addictive behaviour impacts so negatively.
All good here, yes sad day, had some lovely cards and kind words given to me. It really hit home how my work change and being sober has been instrumental in finding a happier me, a useful me, a giving back me. I love life atm i really do. Despite uncertainty of my new job i feel things will be ok.
Last morning of cleaning, thankfully. All packed for road trip with my friends, super excited. I am going to make the most of this sober.
Have a good day
Day 17, outside the gym again . Yesterday was a bit of a shit day at work and I was super tired. Instead of drinking my feelings away I ate some very unhealthy food (I basically ate my feelings instead , but it beats drinking or using) and got an early night. A new day today, the sun is shining, I ache all over but feel amazing again. Some lovely reads on here this morning Iād @ people but, in short, Iām a bit lazy. Happy sobering everyone
Day 1044
Mixed feelings todayā¦
My oldest son is going to get the keys of his appartment today. The first one is leaving the nest. Itās ok, itās normal, but Iām worried as well.
The worrying part is the downside of being a mom I guess.
Just listened to my favorite song. A part of the songtext is tattoed on my arm.
It always makes me happy! It made me think about this place as well.
āStrangers are strangers until they meetā
Well here on TSā¦officially you are all strangers!
But also you are not because weāll meet.
I like that concept.
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Checking in early today. Halfway through day 207.
Just been out for a walk. My daughter is swimming today and my two usual walking friends had already exercised when I contacted them, so I was on my own. I thought Iād kill two birds with one stone and listen to a couple of sobriety podcasts. What has knocked me sideways though, is that they have made me crave after not thinking about alcohol at all for a few days. Admittedly it is as hot as hell here and I was undoubtedly dehydrated, but it just brought everything to the front of my head again. Iām going to eat a big, satisfying healthy lunch and have a couple of pints of water with it - but I feel a bit shaken. I have used podcasts as a supportive tool for the last 6 months and this has made me doubt them.
Anyway, I hope you have a great sober day, wherever you are.
Checking in clean and sober, house looks like a bombs hit it BC kids are on holiday so day at home trying to figure that out and off swimming at some point. Have a blessed day
@Singtone good days and bad days ā¦ perhaps it might help you to go back and read some of your older posts, your gratitude posts.
You have been so strong in your affirmations to yourself to not drink, how grateful you feel that you donāt drink, how much better your and your familyās life is. Those are the āpodcastā that you need to listen to and keep very very close to your heart. Stay strong, stay sober. I hope the intrusive thoughts will go away.
Thanks @Alisa. I appreciate your support. Youāre right, I do love being sober, along with everything that it brings to me and my family.
As you say, up days and down days. I donāt think Iām anywhere near drinking, Iām just a bit unsettled by it.
Coffee. No therapy group today. Thinking of something to do before going to the gym later in the afternoon, thereās a new branch of my club close to my mateās place where Iām going for dinner after. So will check the place out. Itās a bit too windy and unsettled to go for a bike ride. Also started counting my intake and exercise today, I want to lose something like 10 kg in the coming months. The act of counting calories already makes me eat less. Itās all about mindfulness. Well, a lot anyway. Have a good day all. Sober and clean. ODAAT. Love from my balcony.
Checking in. Feeling good waking sober. Im happy for every morning waking sober. I will work hard to stay this way. Where I live AA meetings are closed bc Covid and Im not sure when it will start again. I think I want to try it, I have not before, maybe it will make a difference for me staying sober and not fall off all the time. I also consider to start in a gym when my summer hollidays are over and I have done a few weeks sober.
Still a little sore in the arm after Covid shot yesterday, it was worse yesterday, so hope this will be it
130/92/0.6 - alcohol/weed/cigs. Today is my first day off cigs. This time Iām going cold turkey. Iāve come to realise that no other method works for me. I am too weak to stick to a planned decrease every day. Only sudden and total cessation works for me.
I am craving badly. Itās so easy to get cigs. The cig shop is a 15s walk. I wish it was harder. Like hard drugs.
I need to distract myself. Iāve got a series of movies lined up - post apocalyptic and horror. I am also getting into a new job soon. So need to learn some things and get prepared. Itās a startup and Iāve never really worked in a startup before. So everything will be new. Itās also the first time Iāll be the CEO of a company. I feel like I donāt know anything. Need to learn so many things.
If i can give up on cigs, I will have no more addictions! I will be free. Itās possible. I can do this. Just need to stay strong. Ignore the cravings. Just live a day at a time. I am using the same toolset I used for alcohol. Hope it works for cigs too.
The toolset is fine for any addiction, you just might need some extra tools to battle this specific one. Itās an insidious bastard indeed. The craves are fast and furious. Nicotine has such a short half-life time, much shorter than any other substance. So be prepared for that. BTW, youāre not too weak to use the decreasing/weaning method. Itās just a bad method. Doing it CT and not using any medical assistance is pretty bad ass my friend. I did it myself too .
Sharing just a short tip now on dealing with the cravings form an old, now deceased (BC of COPD) friend from my old quit smoking website named Bertram. Success Manish!
āFighting craves can wear you outā¦ next time perhaps give this a tryā¦ When a crave startsā¦ find somewhere to relax ~ lay down or a find a comfortable chair, standing will work though. Close your eyesā¦ relax your bodyā¦ remain calm, allow your crave complete controlā¦ allow it to run itās course ~ completely ~ start to finishā¦ until it stopsā¦ allow it to enter your mindā¦ The first time may be intense, sort of like a vibration running through your headā¦ relaxā¦ remain calm, lower your shoulders often, allow the crave to run itās courseā¦ until it stops, you will be okayā¦ ā¦ Embrace your craves, experience themā¦ learn from themā¦ride them outā¦ every timeā¦ ride them outā¦ you will be okayā¦ Craves are proof nicotine levels are loweringā¦ embrace themā¦ learn from themā¦ Practicing this method will allow the very essence of your addiction to manifest itselfā¦ your courage will growā¦ There will be anxiety/stressā¦ walking bathing or light household activities will helpā¦ try to walk oftenā¦ namaste.ā
Day 412 clean and sober today. Up early and excited to go to work. Have a great day everyone, love you guys!!!
Congratulations on your year sober @anon9289869!!!
Day 48. Woke up last night to the panicked screams of my wife and son. Somehow a bat had gotten into the house. So there I was, in my underwear, in the middle of the night chasing a poor little freaked-out bat with a kitchen broom and a bucket around the house (I donāt know why the bucket. It seemed to make sense at the time). I think it got out. At least I couldnāt find it anywhere. So that was fun.
Hope everyone is doing well today. Love from bat-land.
your strength is inspiringā¦
. Yesterday was a bit of a shit day at work and I was super tired. Instead of drinking my feelings away I ate some very unhealthy food (I basically ate my feelings instead 
, but it beats drinking or using) and got an early night. A new day today, the sun is shining, I ache all over but feel amazing again. Some lovely reads on here this morning 
Iād @ people but, in short, Iām a bit lazy. Happy sobering everyone
days sober!! 
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