You can and you WILL definitely push forward!! For yourself, for your tattoo business, and for your girls!
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Congratulations Lee. 5 months! Look at you go!! Great job 
Iām so happy to see this one.
Iām not drinking today with you. And Iām probably not drinking tomorrow with you too. Love it 
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My friend.
I posted awhile back. Canāt find it now. But I read actually talking out loud to yourself is a good tool when you are having urges. You just proved that.
Sober on buddy.
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Lots of great milestones to celebrate today.
Great job
@Mike69 on 2 weeks awesome
@Jfrat 10 months. Look at you go.
@icebear Drew the big āsix ohā thatās huge!
@Sunny11 almost cake time. 
Way to go everyone!!
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590 days of āGetting better at getting betterā as Steve says
Being in bed for so many days and unable to attend meetings with my new crew has started to wear a little on me. As soon as I noticed my self defeating thoughts surface I did what I was taughtā¦ got my head out of my ass and reached out. I do not feel well enough to get myself to a meeting tonight so I asked for a ride from a homegroup member who wasnāt even going to the meeting. That didnāt matter, they were happy to go and get me there. That is what addicts helping other addicts is aboutā¦ but we can not help each other if we donāt know when the other is in need. I said straight outā¦ " I feel my spirit withering could you please give me a ride to the meeting?"
I NEVER ask for helpā¦ it makes me so uncomfortable but I see where not asking for help has gotten me in my life. I see where allowing my self sabotaging, self defeating thoughts have gotten me in my life. I will get as uncomfortable as I need to make sure I never get to those dark places again.
Reach out.
Donāt sit in your own shitty thoughts.
Ask for help.
Be grateful.
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Day 107
@Mno you inspired Me to drag my bike from under my bed and re assemble it 
I took it apart when last lockdown ended , but now that we are back in lockdown and its about to be extended again today, I decided I would put my Bob the builder hat on and attempt at asembeling my bikeā¦ And I did it!! I feel sooooo accomplished because Iām usually useless at putting stuff together 
Today is a great day!!
Also Iām loving listening to brene browns podcast latelyā¦ She is a great podcaster/author
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420 days. Itās been an odd day of sorts and we have gone from wicked heat to coolness. Ready to crawl under my blanket and catch some Netflix, with or without my eyes open is uncertain 
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It has been quite a while since checking in on this thread but I feel like I need to make it a nightly practice. I did not drink tonight although I wanted to. The fact that I work until 9 is very helpful but a big trigger reared its head again and I spent hours climbing myself out of the emotional hole, trying to put things into perspective and remembering that I tend to see things as much worse than they are when it comes to one part of my family. I whispered the serenity prayer over and over in the shower and hopped on this forum for strength and inspiration. I am glad you are all here and I appreciate all you share. I remembered that drinking tonight will not make anything better or change anything that I have no control overā¦and I really donāt have control over much. I remembered that worry solves nothing. About to read my hysterical book and go to bed. Close call and I am so happy TS is always there when we need it.
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Checking in daily ā Day 9 no alcohol / Day 255 no weed
Iām super bummed tonight. The last few days have been tough as Iāve taken space from my relationship to work through some things. At the recommendation of my therapist and mom, I asked my boyfriend to meet with me somewhere public so we could talk before I come home and suggested a park. He refused and our phone call went really badly. He kept interrupting everything I had to say. A long follow-up message made it seem like he was wiling to meet with me at the park, so I have set a time and place with him tomorrowā¦but a lot of the messaging around it he just seems so angry about me asking for this. He accused me of making an ultimatum. Iām just trying to help our relationship. It sucks. Itās been really good to process over the last few days but I thought Iād be home tonight, I thought heād be more willing to show up to try and work on what is often a good relationship with potential to grow. I want us to both feel good in it and be able to communicate.
I donāt know if Iām even going to be able to bring this up tomorrow since Iām already getting so much resistance from him, but I have definitely become more aware of how his drinking is impacting our relationship. Thereās a lot of times when he is drunk that he makes joke about me that just arenāt funny to me and are sometimes even undermining. He was mocking me the other night. But when I donāt laugh or ask him to stop, Iām just too serious and need to lighten up. I have noticed increased irritability during the day and heās been drinking earlier in the day more regularly. I know he has to figure out his own relationship with alcohol, but it makes me sad. And Iām just sad about how things are between us right now in general.
He wants me just to forget our issues and think about the good times and move on, but pushing down the troubles throughout our relationship is why we keep running into the same problems. Itās all coming to the surface for meā¦so if we donāt start really talking about it, I just donāt see how we can make it long term. I want to figure this stuff out now even though itās really really painful. Heās been telling me for years that I am not willing to talk about our relationship and what Iām feelingā¦Iāve been trying and trying, dealing with situations where I donāt feel comfortable to express myself and getting interrupted when I do vocalize whatās going on. Now Iām putting in so much effort and trying something new that might help and he wants to pretend like there is no problem.
UGGHGHGHGHGHGHā¦at least Iām sober. At least I know with certainty that alcohol wonāt help the situation, so Iāve got that. And Iāve got a support system of people who love me, but right now I just feel very lonely.
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Checking in at the start of day 220.
Completely forgot to check in yesterday, despite doing my usual reading before bedtime.
Had dinner with friends yesterday evening. My friend is trying a period of sobriety, which is great. It gave us a lot to talk about. Had a lovely evening, a pleasant drive home feeling all grown up, and a clear head this morning. Magic.
Have a great sober day, wherever you are.
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Good morning all 
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Stay strong MagicILY.
What you are going through sounds really hard and scary. I sorry itās coming to this. But you are sober. You are clear headed. You are strong. And you are worth being in a really good relationship. And you are so smart knowing alcohol wonāt help the situation. Keep checking in. I feel the most important thing now is to get through this sober. Sober you, can get, and deserves the best.
You and your boyfriend will be in my prayers.
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Way to go Kelly. Day 18 down. Day 19 next. One lousy day at a time. Good job.
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Congrats on your continued recovery.
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Day 3 for me today:) love the journal entry reminders. Nice way to reflect on your day:)
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Love this post and what youāve said here. Of course I hate that you have felt poorly. I hope that soon you will be recovered. My thoughts and prayers for that. Youāre the girl who did the 5 min.! Friends want to helpā¦ I am glad you have people around that can help you get going again. Iām glad you got the courage to ask them and to feel good about that.
It is very much a strength and not a weakness.
I know youāll get there and get back to where you were. One day at a time.
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I know your right, going to contact this morning with a positive attitude 
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Checking in on Day 118. X
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