Day 10 no alcohol / Day 256 no weed
Prettt tired and going to bed but still wanted to check in daily. Had big conversation with my boyfriend today. Doing ok even if I’m not 100%. Still processing…
Does anybody ever just scream? Like just let it out. I screamed today, alone in my car with no one around, and it felt pretty liberating. I guess I wouldn’t recommend it as a regular thing bc you know, might hurt your throat or vocal chords but I needed a release and I definitely felt it…
Checking in at the end of day 61. I am pretty tired. It was a relatively productive day! Time to get some sleep so I can get up bright and early for another sober morning.
Someone in the neighborhood is watching Aladdin at an absurdly high volume. The 90s movie. So I’ve got that goin for me.
I know for a fact we got some screamers 
here. Good release. Sleep well.
I haven’t done much today yet but been on ST… As much as it’s genuinely done me some good, I need to do some proactive things and get outside… Also go to sleep early without question and restart my healthy daily routine plan to stop senselessly feeling lost. Ah, let’s just start with a cold shower haha. 
BOOM.
Self sabotaging at its finest.
@CATMANCAM Thank you Congratulations to your 1 year no alcohol! Great job!
@050Nl That was wonderful! Thank you! I looked up Oziamandis. Thank you for the recommendation.
Language is such a beautiful art form and yet a simultaneously deadly weapon. Societies have been built and fallen through the awesome power of it’s sound, and the equally terrifying reverberation of the silence created when there was a refusal to speak. Indeed, the world itself is said to have been created by the words.
Always good to find someone with a passion for the verbal/written arts.
@apes2020 Thank you. I appreciate you saying so Also, I’ve been keeping an eye on things happening where you’re at and I just keep thinking… wtf is this? At what point does your government go to far? My thoughts are with you.
@Lisa07 Thank you! I love that gif.
So today in our capital state, the state next to me, got 1 case… The 1st case in an entire year…and now they are putting the state into lockdown after one case!!
At this point I’m completely convinced that its all BS and its all some big experimental scam of some type. Its literal insanity 
Love this
The spoken and unspoken (words thought) and written word is what creates realities.
The power is unlimited.
Yes, precisely this!
And, in the context of sobriety even, we either tell ourselves that we can and that we will; or we spin up another story for our own downfall.
@Chiron , the way she gets into the third person that tells about the fallen king … Beautiful
Quick check in
On to ct_scan now
Have a good one
ride today. Slept a tad longer than expected. Even Luna couldn’t wake me up. Well, I am awake now, I’m sober and clean, have to stuff myself with breakfast, clad myself in lycra and be gone. This place still a fixed point in my morning routine. Thanks for being here all. It helps. Have as good a Sunday as you all can. Love from Luna and me.Sunday ? Where, or better yet, when, the hell are you 
Maybe you need some more coffee there buddy.
At least your sober.
It’s what these switching work schedules do to me. For me it is Sunday 
Having that extra coffee now.
Ahh ha. Ok. Then. Enjoy your Sunday. Since I’m retired I usually don’t know what day it is. But I was pretty sure it wasn’t Saturday night over here.
Have a safe ride. G’night. 
…1238. Cannot sleep, I guess I am excited to go camping. A nice little 4 day weekend. Truck is packed, just need Ms. Monkey to wake up so we can get going. A year ago she invited me up to her girls weekend camping trip. I guess I must have met the approaval of her friends. Same group of people will be there. This time, with their significant others.
To be fair, Canberra was open for months now about its trip number for lockdown being 1. And the 1 they did get had been active in the community for days, with wastewater testing also showing it is further spread than expected.
It’s not a crazy response, it’s a known response to a territory that is smack in the middle of Australia’s biggest Delta outbreak state, NSW.
Was going to send as message but can’t figure out how.
@apes2020 sorry you are in lockdown w so few cases. On the other hand no lockdown where I am and delta is running rampant doing lots of damage. Hospitals are at capacity. 90% unvaccinated, many pediatric, many teens and twenties. Many vaccinated getting delta, mostly mild, but many also hospitalized or moderately to severely ill. it’s everywhere and it’s scary, will probably get lots worse before better. I decided to message you this bc not sure if it’s not suppposec to be discussed in this detail. If it’s against the rules please someone say so and I’ll remove.
@mno thnx , it all went quick , good and now just going to wait till the 25th then I know more. Till then I’m going to just relax and live in the moment 
Have a good one m8 and bless
One year and one day
Have that “day after u get back from holiday” feeling, you know, back to the regular staying sober routine after a day of feeling pleased with myself. Still have some final grading to do, but am being distracted by a cute channel on Youtube. Not being quite as present for the kids as I would like. And character defects of mind-reading, over-sensitivity are alive and kicking. Plenty of progress still required.
