Signs of the angels in the numbers 
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Checking in at day 19.
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Day four. It has has been rough but I am actually looking forward to getting to my meeting this morning, meeting with my sponsor after and doing step work. Was going to say āAGAINā because how many times have I had a day four over the past 35 years, but will be gentle with myself, take a deep breath and focus on the day ahead. 
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Happy 1 year!! Thanks for being here on this forum and sharing your journey! I am so so proud of you!! 
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Almost 21 days. The last couple of days have been terrible for me. Intense cravings/temptation, anxiety, waves of heavy-heartedness etcā¦ Just overwhelming somehow despite knowing better. To be honest, Iām aware I donāt just have addictions, thereās PTSD where they came from, and I need help. Iām officially going to try to organise a psychologist tomorrow because itās really quite hard alone. Thanks for your time, stay strong and enjoy your day/night! 
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424 days todayā¦I hope everyone is well!
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Checking in. Want to drink, really. Finding everything in my head whats going to happen if I drink, that it will not be only one, all the pain I get, everything. This Is so hard. Hard not to drink, hard to stay strong.
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Very frustrating to deal with that. Was like that a few days ago. Not wanting to drink but tortured by the idea of it. WTF? Just keep making the right choice each time, every time. So glad I didnāt crack the other day. Keep fighting for yourself.
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@Wakikki stay strong! I had that same feeling yesterday and I know itās so hard. One voice telling you it will be alright, the other knowing that it wonāt be.
I made a list of my top 5 values in life and then thought about how my drinking affected each one. That helped. Have something yummy to eat. Or do something you get absorbed in to take your mind off it.
You can make it through today.
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Iām new to this thread but wanted to post for a while so here goes.
Today is much easier than yesterday. Yesterday was hard. Low mood, stress, feeling hopeless. I was looking for an easy way out of feeling those horrible feelings, but I didnāt give in. I just surged the urge and had a very early night with a good book. Iām a much more chirpy chicken today and SO GLAD I didnāt give in. No hangover this morning.
Feeling proud to still be sober.
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Day 426 clean and sober today. Wishing I was at work because I love it so much! Itās important to take days off though, my friend told me itās a part of self care. Anyway, have a fantastic day today everyone, love you guys!!! 
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@Charlie_C @Rockstar24777 I made a separate post, thanks for the congratulationsš„°
@1in8billion Hope u can find help soon
@Wakikki Be strong!
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Congrats Tyler 
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Congrats my friend 
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Itās taken me a bit to grasp what is going onā¦ I have been scrolling through the thread trying to see what the fuck happened. Trying to find a post where you were reaching out for help. Looking at my phone to see if I missed a text from you somehow.
I see nothing.
You told me that you were going to go to rehab if you couldnāt do this on your own. Clearly that is the caseā¦there is no shame in needing help Mike. Itās courageous to say " I want to live and I fucking need help."
ā¦hope you can get some help.
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Day 1012.
-11 working days to vacation. Not that I am counting 
Doing okay as I had some aha-ohhhh-now-i-understand-moments. They come when I am relaxed,usually when I do some cyclic automated things.
So, I am doing good. Girls are fine. Weighed them and Paula is 400 g heavier than Dora 
now I double Doraās snack portion in regards to Paulaās. Hope she wonāt find out. 
I am still a bit uneasy leaving them alone, I hurry to come back after work, cleaning their boxes. Hope this improves with age a bit or Iāll have a problem. But the frequency of human babies is also higher, isnāt it? Questions over questions. Iāll find out. Iāll adapt.
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Stay strong. Every time I get a huge craving I tell myself to just make it through the day. 10 times out of 10 I have woken up the next day and my craving is gone and I feel so much better. I am always, ALWAYS thankful that I didnāt drink. Youāve got this.
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You home?
Hop in the shower. Long hot shower. Stay in there as long as you can. 30 minutes. As hot as you can stand it. Relax. Let the hot water flow over you and maybe even cry it out.
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