Way to go Marie.
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I’m recognizing some trauma from my early teen years today. Watching some stupid show triggered it. Doing my best to just sit in the discomfort and let go.
I think this is a huge reason I started drinking in the first place in my early teens. Thinking about the things I went through as a 13 year old kid still brings up shame….
Not repressing, not obsessing, just recognizing and letting go.
Grateful to be sober and have a place to check in. Thanks for being here.
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Exactly. For me it means that thanks to the work I put in my recovery I still might fall in holes (dark thoughts and make the same mistakes) but it gets easier and I stay less time in these holes and eventually, maybe I have learned my lesson and take another road.
Edit: saying, I don’t understand, please precise is also a huge step. So ppl can explain differently, get to know each other better. Eg I love pictures and metaphors where your brain might not be wired like this, so communication might be hindered. So, giving feedback is a good thing.
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@Complicatedmama how exciting about the new house and a magnificent surprise for your children… my thouggts and prayers are with your brother, wishing him strength to fight his addiction. Congratulations on your 300 days totally amazing, well done
@Desire2ChangeToday 2 years wow, congratulations to you 
@CATMANCAM thank you for your good wishes and good news re Therapy all good work in progress .
@Rockstar24777 ah so good you had an awsome day, sure illustrates how far you have come in your journey and now giving back. You will get so much from this work, as i do with a similar role… very happy for you.
Thank you @Claartje 
The only way @Dazercat Eric, the last month has flown. So good to have reach personal bests in so many ways, never felt so solid and wanting sober life… thank you 
Have a good, sober day all
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Your right. I think I’m gonna give this a solid year on my career, I mean it’s literally been about 3 months of doing this. I’m gonna practice harder and work for it harder, if I don’t get better in a years time then I will find something else. But I made 200 dollars off that tattoo today so to me that says I’m worth something.
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Hell yeah man that’s so true. And now that I think about it, I joined a lifting forum when I first started lifting and posted videos and damn did I get the some criticism. Nobody seriously knows how to be humble and help ppl anymore. Which is kind of why I stick the self teaching, there is no drama then. I do miss my lifting, tomorrow I have anther tattoo and then I’m gonna go for a hike. Thanks for the pep talk bro
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Day 15. Sat outside the gym because…. This body won’t build itself. It’s rainy and I have to work out side today. Hungover me would have a hated this and probably just not bothered going to work. Somehow a little rain doesn’t bother me at all anymore, I’m just grateful I still have a job to go to. Much love everyone, have a happy and sober day
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Day 92.
Sober tings …
Today I had a pleasant surprise. I got a text from my bank telling me they had money to refund to me. I thought it was a scam at first because well why would the bank Want to randomly give me money without me first asking for it? 
Turns out, they do. And today I got refunded a few hundred dollars because apparently the universe its dishing out my manifesting orders
Ive been manic manifesting lately. And the synchronized moments of universal magic are showing uo everyday. And when these moments of alignment happen, the pure joy I feel Internally ripples through me and makes me smile so authentically I could cry. You know those moments of pure love joy and happiness that just happen out of no where…thats why we are here on this earth, to experience love, joy, and happiness
It wasn’t the money In particular that made me excited, it was the way the universe orchestraded it to get it to Me how it did and at the moment and time that in did…
There is so much infinite magic in our human incarnations, be open to receiving it @Chiron
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Morning all! Quick check in from me. Looking forward to another sober day. And it’s raining so no need to water the allotment. It’s the little things, lol
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Checking in clean and sober, got mo my meeting last night that I’m so fortunate to have local to me, have a blessed day all. X
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- Coffee. One more late shift ahead. Looking forward to my weekend after that which will be really free time as my therapy group is on summer break. Will still be working on my mental health though. ODAAT, sober and clean. It’s an essential part of my -and anybody’s- recovery. Recovery is about so much more than simply stopping using our DOC. have as good a day as you can all. Clean and sober. Love from Amsterdam.
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3 days coming up today. Having my coffee again today, feels good drinking coffee and not wine in the morning. Had hard time fall asleep yesterday, lots of anxiety, so feeling tired today. Having some pains in my body, but feel pretty good, could be worse. Will not make big plans for the day, just take it easy and take the day as it come.
Good day to you all. Thank you
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Ok doing good but when is it over? When do I get to feel like I have succeeded? I know it is ODAAT. and will probably always be. Just feeling a bit blue. Caught a cold, under quarantine. Had to get tested even though I am vaccinated. Can’t go to the gym. Have to work from home until I get a negative covid test. Everything was going so good and then this setback. Could be worse though…I could have picked up a bottle but not caving in. Stay strong people…we got this.
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Day 73 AF
Yesterday I returned to work after 2 weeks off. I got seriously triggered when I was leaving work as the boss had put some beers in the fridge for the workers for the first time in months and it instantly took my thoughts to.a bad place. I was strong enough to close the fridge and go home but it was the first time in a couple of months that I’d had a serious urge.
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That’s rough! Well done for keeping on keeping on 
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Nearly completed 4 days! It was a little easier today except for feeling kind of short tempered. Have felt quite low today as sat around most of day at home and still no work! But got out this afternoon after school pick up for a bike ride along the coast. Saw whales jumping! Bf came and met for dinner. He’s being supportive and not drinking around me atm but I’m telling myself I don’t need the world to be sober for me to be sober. I have to do this regardless of what he chooses or anyone else chooses to do.
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That’s a lot all at once…hope things get better 
I did do a double-take (phew!)…… awesome congratulations @Desire2ChangeToday Shay!! 
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I don’t know if it’s the meds or just life but I’ve noticed that I’ve fallen back into the pattern of not giving myself permission to be happy again recently. Every so often I need to remind myself that it is a choice and I am allowed to enjoy myself. Over and above core commitments and life principles (e.g. relationships, animal care, sobriety, paying bills), I have the freedom to do what I want and that is something that should be embraced with enthusiasm!
There are so many things that I want to do and there is an element of practicality holding me back (so many things, can’t do them all, which one to pick), but also some fear and guilt there too. Thanks to @RetainKingII for the reminder that this is a mindset that can be switched! I had a similar conversation with my OH and when I said about something I’d quite like to try, his first words were ‘do it!’.
With that in mind, had a tax rebate come through and I have a chunk earmarked for some Shakti Dance (a mix of dance and yoga) stuff, something I’d like to try and explore a bit more as a potential future career option.
Am also hoping we will be able to find a house in a new area in the not too distant future. I like it where I live but I feel like a move would do me good. I have wrestled with the idea a lot as I don’t want to just run away from my problems and have them follow me. But I feel like I have a reasonably good handle on the problems that will follow me, and there is some baggage here that I’d rather be without. Fortunately nothing too heavy, so no rush. Seen some lovely looking places though and will be starting to book viewings etc in the next couple of weeks. Exciting times!
Anyway, that’s a long post 
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Wahoooo three years!! Great news 
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