Hereās to day one without alcohol. I hope Iām back here every day, forever. Iām worried about how Iāll get to sleep tonight. I canāt remember the last time I fell asleep naturally and am afraid of what kind of dreams that Iāll have because I know Iāll remember them and back when I did fall asleep naturally ( many many years ago) I always had nightmares. I hate how it feels to admit that. Very scary.
Hereās to you Kimberly! Welcome to the forum and welcome to your personal journey towards a better life. Thanks for your honesty. We all need honesty to make this work. And yes , it is scary. We all been there and we all know how scary it is. One other thing I know is that we canāt do it alone. So Iām happy you are here. Together we can make it. Together we are strong. So hope to see a lot more from you, sharing, commenting, supporting, being supported. Or if thatās too much maybe just hanging out with us all here. It all helps. Wishing you all success lady.
Day 386
Havenāt been on the past week. @icebear Thanks for the tag on the other thread and dragging me back here/out of my funk. Got back Monday night after being out of town in Minnesota and jumped right into my work week. It was a very busy long weekend and I completely burned myself out but still sober which feels like a miracle.
My shift handing out finish line beers at Day Across Minnesota was supposed to be 11am - 4pm but got caught up seeing old friends & cheering on the racers that I kept helping until around 8pm. The beers they had were tallboys that we were pouring off into pint glasses. I handed the extra of the can off to the racers but a lot of the other volunteers were chugging the little sips left rather frequently and some of them ended up a bit tipsy. If I wasnāt sober I probably wouldāve ended up more than just tipsy and made a fool of myself in front of a large number of old friends and acquaintances. Instead I felt helpful and really enjoyed being able to refill water and support those that were turning around to continue the double distance.
A lot of other things that went on over the past week but I will keep it brief for now. Too far behind on everyone elseās posts to ever dream of getting caught up but Iāve kept yall in my thoughts and I hope youāre doing well.
Checking in sober day 319. Been looking ahead to the one year mark. Iāll catch myself say x more days. I guess thatās normal, but I really have all my days left, not just those. Today Iāll just worry about this day.
I caught myself talking about a restaurant, and went straight to the beer tap. It brought on a strong urge. I played the tape forward and reminded myself all the ways my life is better now because I donāt drink.