Checking in at the end of day 266.
Sober.
Grateful.
Tired.
Have a great sober day, wherever you are.
Goodnight. 
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Day 8. A dream about relapse, disturbing.
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Day 422ā¦
Life is busy at the moment.
Life is good.
And most importantly lām an addict in recovery
Whose blessed to be here in this little corner of the Webā¦ Seeing others success is moving x
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Just checking. Had a little argument with my ex for the first time in a while, my oldest takes medicine for her ADHD and without it she really is a hand full, today I didnāt make her take it, honestly I donāt like it because the meds is a controled substance. And itās a chewable med but lately autumn has been crying and throwing up when she takes it bc she doesnāt like the taste so Iāve been crushing it and putting it in caramel and her mother as soon as she came today was yelling at her and trying to force her to chew it and autumn said no daddy puts it in caramel for me and she flipped on me saying Iām ruining her teeth and her and her bf donāt put up with this. I yell at my girls alot sometimes but Iām just trying to put myself in my daughterās shoes, I told My ex to try and do the same, I will get applesauce to try and be healthy about crushing the meds. But idk now I just kind of feel like shit.
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Itās hard when our littles have to take meds. Mine did tooā¦
I used chocolate pudding, there are sugar free ones.
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Absolutely, I just believe in giving my daughter a break off the meds sometimes so she can be her self. And my ex was pissed about it today, she needs to take her meds everyday I canāt handle her like this she said. Well itās not always about us, we canāt always make things easier on us we have to give her choices to otherwise when she gets older she will always go against us
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Ruining her teeth is a bit dramatic. Not brushing ruins teeth. My kids eat sweets and shit too and their teeth are fine. My wife is a dental hygienist also so if sheās not worried about it, your wife probably should either 
Iād do the same thing if I was you. If it can get your little one to take the meds without getting sick and fussing a bunch I donāt see the harm.
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Thats what I feel Im doing, only surviving, each day, to stay sober. Yeah I guess thats what it is, Im romanticing it. And I dont know why, because each morning I wake up sober Im grateful for it, because I remember the awfull feeling waking the day after my wine. I remember that anxiety, to be afraid if this time I made non reversibel damage, the pains in my body, the time I did not spend with my kids. Everything. The drinking is not worth it. But still I think of it and miss it during the days, and again next morning Im so grateful and thankful I did not.
The thing is, I dont know how to work on my sobrity? I know I need to stay sober, and for that I dont drink. I have been thinking about trying AA, but I have not yet. And, I should find my self a hobby or something to do. Til now I dont have the energy, when I get home from work Im so tired. Then its dinner, homework and activity with kids, chores. I have a very physical work.
Everyday Im so tired. I have pains. Muscels the doctor say. And in my head. I get all this anxiety of it. Thinking something is wrong, Im going to die, this Is not normal. And makes me even more tired.
I try to change, my life, my surronding, apperance. Try to be better.
Thank you for your replie, I really appreciate it 
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Thank you x
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Checking in, day 325 no alcohol, day 75 no smoke. Feeling ill, Iām cold and weak so Iāll call it a day soon. I have a lot of work for the whole season, but actually Iām grateful for the distraction. I treat my day as I used to do at the beginning of sobriety, watching out for HALT, distracting myself and making myself aware of how essential sobriety is for me. I drink tea, watch a film, even plan to read a book in bed (havenāt done it for months), Iām slowing down and am grateful for the basics.
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Thanks man
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My oldest son was severely ADHD when he was younger. Saying they are a handful without their meds is putting it oh so nicely. I know what youāre going through. Donāt feel badly about putting her med in something that she likes. Youāre just being a loving dad, and I donāt think a little piece of caramel is going to hurt a thing. Iām sorry your ex doesnāt get that. The sugar-free pudding is a good idea, and you could also try a piece of banana or some nut butter. 
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15 Days isnāt so badā¦Working long days sure helps close the windowā¦
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Checking in on day 107 from the North Shore of Lake Superior. Itās a sober goal to some day cycle the Circle Tour around the entire lake.
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Itās beautiful.
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I can only speak for myself. I have a demanding job but I live by myself, no partner, no kids, so I have more time for myself too. My last using years I spent all my free time under the influence. being under the influence meant I had no time for other, meaningful stuff, I just lay on the couch and watched tv or surfed the internet.
Since I became sober I finally have the time to work on myself. Being a substance abuser forever means my emotional development stopped since my teens (Iām 55 now). Iām finally working on that, but it took me about a year of being sober to start that. Iām in group therapy to treat some personality issues I have. Itās slowly working. Itās hard work. But very much worth it.
I think for now you have to hang in there Wakiki. Your body needs to heal. You put it under a lot of stress through work and taking care of your family. You need some you time. I feel for you drinking was your you time. Now you need to find something else. Not necessary AA. Stuff just for you. Think about it. Take your time. Stay sober. One day at a time. Hang with us. Iām glad youāre here. Youāre not alone. Hugs.
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Thatās a nice sturdy old warhorse, that bike of yours. And awesome surroundings.
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Checking in doing great very happy today loving life went out for lunch now at home watching the ballgame. Sober/clean at 3 months & 20 days
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