Checking in
No Booze 606.66
No added sugar 18.
I thought I’d check in in the afternoon for a change.
I been thinking I spend way too much time on TS. 604 days now. Small price to pay for my sobriety.
If it’s not broken. Don’t fix it!
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- Checking in as I’m taking a break from packing. Exhausted…we have to be out of our townhouse tomorrow. We’re moving in with my parents for a couple weeks and this time not because we were evicted because I spent all our rent on drugs and not because I couldn’t do it without the help of my family. Not this time. This time it’s because I worked my ass off and stayed sober for 1335 days. I worked hard enough for myself and my kids and I bought us our very first home. I have tears as I’m writing this because I’m damn proud of myself. Cleaning and boxing things up isn’t a bad thing this time. This time has a whole new meaning. This isn’t a fresh start because I got clean again. It’s a new start because I’ve stayed clean and I worked to give my kids a home of our very own. Something that was always just a dream and now it’s a dream come true. So, I’ll keep working through the night to get things packed and cleaned. I close on our new house Friday and we take possession one week after closing.
SN: Im also on edge because we had a scare with my youngest son today. He was having shooting pains in his chest and because he had a pacemaker we had to go get testing done. He’s ok and resting now and we’ll keep monitoring him but makes this mama nervous and on guard at all times.
For those of you struggling just know it gets better if you continue to stay sober. Have a blessed night TS fam 
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So my official day count is 436,
Had a productive day, my friend is a manager at a car dealership and has been lobbying me for months to come work there
I met with the manager who said dude get all your tools together, get everything ready and I’ll have you in here as soon as possible, and I’ll give you more than your making now, and keep adding on that cash every 90 days if your showing me you want to work and make strides in progress, he has apparently big plans for me, wants me to be a top producer at top pay by the end of the year
Top pay for auto techs here is around 45/hr. I’ll take it
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Nice to see you checking in Patty. So freaking happy for you. 1334 you’re an amazing momma. I’m glad the kid is ok. I pray he stays that way. I can’t wait for you to be all settled in. And get all this behind you. So much stress in moving and your doing it sober. How cool is that 
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Thank you Eric, I am so excited! I have been so busy and haven’t been on much but I’m still sober and come on and read what everyone is up to but that’s usually when Im heading to bed and almost asleep. Buying a house is no joke I’ve had to do so much but it’s been worth it every step of the way. Hoping I’ll have more time soon as we are getting back to somewhat normal.
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I am smiling so wide!!!
All your hard work is paying off mama!!!
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Day 80 check in.
@anon27760155 Danni I hope you are OK. Please reach out to someone you trust. We are quite worried about you.
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Me too! I can’t even imagine having to drink, like, a half beer a day to stay alive and keep that under control (sorry if that analogy is tone deaf). In any case, wishing you strength @CATMANCAM.
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@MrsOdh Congrats on the year and on your first class. Keep moving forward one day at a time and everything will be fine.
@Complicatedmama Awesome job on the house, prayers for your little man
@anon27760155 Hope you’re well
@Thirdmonkey Holy shit Lol
Congrats on all your milestones everybody.
As for me its day 745 without alcohol, day 591 with no drugs and 279 without nicotine. I am trying to live a balanced life. I go to roughly four twelve step meetings a week, pray, volunteer cook four times a week, work with counsellors, a sponsor, even a sponsee. Trying to rebuild relationships with my parents and sisters. Applying for school, going for hikes and bike rides. Focusing heavily on being grateful everyday and its changed my life. I am grateful for cognititve behavioural therapy. I’m grateful to God. I’m grateful that I got tired of hitting bottoms, because it took more than one for me to even start to get it. I’m grateful that I stopped seeing all the old people, places and things and took back my power nobodies gonna give it to you, it takes work, lots of work. @Soundlab put in the work i was chronic relapser but i changed we all have a choice to change.
God bless you all. 
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p.s. You can do this I believe in you. Ya you!!
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Checking in sober. I had a little bit of a close call and the last hour has been an emotional one but I am tucked in and feel ok. I read a lot of posts earlier and was triggered or set off in a way where I felt like I wanted to pick up. My first though was no, not here too!! I thought about not reading or being part of TS for a bit to be on the safe side, which would suck, but then I thought…this shit is going to happen all the time anywhere I go so I’d better start dealing with it. It isn’t what someone else says or does, it is how I interpret and react to it. A song lyric that plays on repeat in my head lately is, “Oh and darling, instead of running
I think it might be time you sit down…And deal with the pain.” So that is what I did. I thought through the reason I felt like I did and traced it back. I know exactly why I felt hurt and pain in that moment. I know how I felt as a kid and how it followed through adulthood. When I was affected, I disappeared, became invisible, curled up and drank. Now, I have to recognize it, stop it in its tracks, observe and let it go. It is in the past and I am in the present. That’s all for now. 
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Thank you Stella I am so excited…my emotions are everywhere! But in a good way!
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I can understand this and at certain points in my recovery I have 100% felt the same way. You are right eventually we are faced with all of this stuff but learning how to maneuver around it safely is imperative. I commend you for taking a step back and looking at what was going on inside of you, that’s some awesome recovery work you did there. Congrats on your days, big hugs.
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Good morning all , checking in 
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Hi. Sorry everyone, I have struggled with not drinking but resetting and still wanting this. 7 days no smoking though so that’s been good and have started a counter for no contact with the ex. Seems I go downhill when I’m around him, not blaming him but just seems to be the way.
I feel this next week will be a good one.
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I’m trying,but it’s hard. However all your beautiful words in here made me feel a lot better yesterday. That was our first though as well, so we asked, they said it wasn’t but they didn’t want to tell us who it is. So we’re suspecting either our cranky neighbors again. Or tweenies foster care mother. Lately tweenie have made a lot of posts on social media, blaming us for a lot of things that’s not true, so there’s a risk it all comes from her. We’ll see tomorrow.
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Thank you. Well as I wrote above, they say it wasn’t. So we’re suspecting either her foster care family or the cranky neighbors of ours. We’ll see tomorrow, it’s upsetting no matter what. Basically our system means that everyone can make up whatever they want about people, report it to the social service and create a lot of problems. But at the same time I know that our system is trying to protect those who really needs it. (usually it doesn’t work but I guess that’s another story)
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Good and productive day
Taught and planned a cool thing for tomorrow
Ran errands and worked on step work
I’m pretty tired and miss my nightly wine but I know one turns to 7 
Sending hugs hope and love to this online community
Day 92 here
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Good luck Kelly.
I’m glad you’re right up and trying again.
If nothing changes.
Nothing changes.
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Ah really sorry to read this, especially so when you have accomplished a massive milestone. You have done amazing Sophia 
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Hey again Kelly. I dug this up for you. Might be interesting to check out.
And @Soundlab
@MagicILY I know you got 29 days. That’s awesome! But thought you might like to check it out too. There’s some good stuff on it.
This shit is hard. But so worth it. And y’all are too.
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