Feel like I skipped time. Thought it had been 4 days AF but it’s 5 days 
No cannabis for 12 days has been great. Kicking a 5 year habit after having ten years smoke free has been challenging. Weird how an addiction just comes straight back even after ten years!!
It’s like if I’m not drinking, I want to smoke. If I’m not smoking, I want to drink. Need to break this pattern!
Have a nice night everyone 
…1261. Suppose to rain today…but I dont care…I got bacon on the flat top
Remember kids, bacon just isnt a culinary choice when camping. The bacon grease, rubbed on the wettest log will burn brightly. Bacon might just save your life.
Congratulations to everyone on their awesome milestones!!! Day 449 clean and sober today. Up early for work drinking my coffee. Hope everyone has a wonderful day today, love you guys!!! 
Hey all, checking in on day 447. I hope everyone’s weekend starts of well!
I agree with @Dazercat, block all numbers associated with dealers and you won’t get those text messages @Dona.
Day 5 here. Just checking in to say hey! Also day 1 without nicotine…took the edge off the first few days, but the past couple, I was just smoking because they were there. So I had my final one last night. Happy Saturday to all!
I guess you know as no one else what can be or not be. Get in to the conversation and find a deffinet solution in which hopefully everyone aggrrees and feels seen as human in 1st.
Did you talk about this with your brother? Open up… No more then you can bare beside taking care of you but is your sister the right one to initiate what so ever? Does he see it? Except it? Or does he coop…
That’s the addict mind thinking. You’re clean and sober now. You have to commit 100% by deleting all texts and numbers and blocking. Holding onto any of that is only keeping that relapse window open. Shut it immediately.
I was just reading your post and noticed you’re a yoga teacher… I’ve been thinking of joining a class for a while, basically after years of neglect and junk food I’m in terrible shape, I’m stiff and my joints hurt. I feel like an old lady lol (I’m also on the bigger size)
Any tips for joining a class? There are so many to choose from its a bit overwhelming, and I’m terrified ill end up in a class with experts all doing perfect poses and feel an idiot!
Also really need a hobby, something to focus on when I’m not at work instead of drugs.
Any advice would be appreciated 
xx
I’m glad you’re feeling better and realising youre not alone.
Well done on almost getting your first 48 hours done, and good luck for the future 
always here if you want a chat xx
Mine was pages! We have all been there. Dont apolgise for long posts you are brain dumping in a safe environment that is good. Have a good day. Will look forward to your check in 
Well in that case. 
Day 201: The shit storm that I created by my choices and actions and inactions when I was drinking were enormous and had far reaching effects. The fact that I am 201 days in and able to handle what caused me to drink in the first place Plus address what I caused as a result (mainly loss of trust from my daughter) … has me embrace sobriety as a lifeline to a potential future I know I have to earn. It’s humbling. It’s hard. And as I inch my way there … it’s worth it.
Thanks for the encouragement @Mephistopheles and thanks for the sweet avatar @Olivia.
Very wise words from April you guys.
She knows a thing a 2 about this.
@Dona
@Amisober
I hope you guys are well today. The early days really suck. Lean on your support. Ask for help. Check in here often. Go to a meeting.
Love you guys.
I fucking hate addiction!
Checking in on day 51
No need for shorter replies or apologizing for long ones pinkcloud. Thanks for sharing and it’s nice to get to know you. You’re among your peers here. We’re in this together and that’s the great thing about being here. Congrats on 2 days. Keep going.
Yes, my brother knows about my drinking problem and my choice to be sober. He found it stupid that I’m sober. My brother is a difficult person to talk to. I have to think how to approach him.
2nd check in today. So I have the weekend off for first time since this soberjourney. And its so much I want to get done at home, organize, clean and stuff I dont have time for during the week, and to go out enjoying. Be productive. But here I am and done almost nothing, just lazy and no energi or joy for doing anything. Well I did get my couch cleand properly, strippede it and in the washer. Its hell to get all back on the pillows. Next time will not be before Christmas 
Checking in at the end of day 244.
Have a great sober day, all.
Goodnight 
Sometimes on the early days if I didn’t drink. And that’s all I accomplished. That was a good day. Back then I figured I got one job. Don’t pick up! If that’s all I could do some days. Well that was enough.
We got your back Wakikki.
No more fucking day ones for you my friend.
Check in when you can.
No more day one. Cant belive tomorrow will be 30 days!
