But I shared my burdens with colleagues and family rather than pretending to be emotionally indestructible and squashing the feelings down. Everyone was kind to me.
Sobriety intact. Now drinking mint tea with my feet up.
Day 137 here. First day of fall came with cooler temps and rain. Got a killer workout in and an easy day at work. Work has gotten much better in sobriety. ODAAT applies to so many aspects of my life at this point. Control the controllables and do the next right thing; everything else will work itself out.
Apparently, Iāve been so wrapped up in my studies and work, that I missed a dear friends 1 year milestone! @Dolse71 , Paulie, we have been through some shit together. Iām glad we took turns so one of us was always sober, now here we are, both sober. Weāve been through the trenches together, and you know I love you dearly! With all you face in life on a daily basis, you are doing this, and it makes me more happy than you ever could imagine. You had a plan, and you stuck to it. CONGRATULATIONS!!! Iām so grateful to call you friend <3
Having an ok day last night I opened up to my best friend about my issues and she told me about her issues sheās going through thatās a friendship and still sober from self harm at 3 months and 16 days
@Tomek@Alisa@Chiron thanks for your compassion @MwinecwaftOwO feel better soon @anon27760155 tattoo looks awesome! @RosaCanDo sending strength proud of you for always taking action @Iwebt congrats on 60 days @al2017 welcome back keep trying @apes2020 congrats on 150 days @Rockstar24777 I hope this is just an error and the person responsible for the rota didnāt realise
408 days no alcohol.
376 days no cocaine.
14 days no disordered eating.
Had some really awful nightmares last night about the family stuff, but managed to shake it all off and let it go. Iāve been okay today and Iām grateful for more stability around this stuff these days, it can just feel very raw in the moment, itās making me want to spend Xmas alone this year, but I can only imagine how much backlash Iād get from that.
I reached out to someone that I thought had given up on me in August last year, and we have reconnected, itās an online friendship, weāve never met but get along really well and can relate over the ED and Fibro stuff and Iām glad I reached out, I never normally do.
Checking in sober and sleepy. Had a long tiring day but canāt complain as it was productive and positive and I am still sober. I can now add pumpkin inspector to my resume from my part time job.
Hosted my event tonight and it went well. I am very tired. Thereās nothing to complain about this week or anything, I just keep feeling low and tired. I think it has a lot to do with where Iām at in my hormonal cycle. I just hate these phases because I feel like good things are happening and itās harder for me to take joy in them. But itās ok, it will pass.
Part of me really wants sweets, which have become both a celebratory treat and a comfort food. Iām resisting though. I donāt think I go overboard but Iāve noticed an increase lately and I really want to keep it more of a special thing. I know sugar also wonāt help if Iām feeling low, itāll only make me crash more. Sooo I guess Iāll just sleep. Hopefully this will pass in the next couple of days.
I know this might sound crazy to some people, but I miss some of the isolation that happened when I mostly stayed how before the vaccine came out. I love people. I really do. But I just found all that time alone at home to be recharging. Being social takes a lot of me.
Day 103. Happy autumnal equinox to my northern hemisphere friends, and vernal equinox to my southern hemisphere friends. The days are getting shorter and crisper up north, and fall is in the air. Got my flu shot today. Cycled 16.5miles/26km today out in the country. Happy to hit the pillow sober.
Day 1100
Goodmorning, came here to wish you all a good day ore night. Have to work and going for a walk before that. Never thought of myself as a morning person, but now I am.
Itās good to be outside before the sun is up.
Clear headed and energetic I start this day.