Dally check in doing ok Not feeling to well today
And had to put up with bs last night but still clean
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@JuliaLuna Congratulations!
@Girlinterrupted Glad u are safe!
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Thank you @LeeHawk I appreciate that very much. 
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Kind heart, thank you. As someone who often has felt (and sometimes still feels) stuck, your words lift me up. Your posts help me so much, I can relate to much of what you said without have the words myself to express the ideas. 
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Thanks Sarah!
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Fun!! Where are you headed to??
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When international flights resume by next year hopefully, my first trip will be to the west coast and then do a road trip across to the east coast. I want to come over for at least 3 months.
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Yikes, @Girlinterrupted, glad you are OK! Hey @C_8 chip butties Thursdays sounds great, sign me up! Good to see you @JuliaLuna and congratulations on the little one! I hope you feel better @Dazercat. Chronic pain is not fun.
Lots of milestones, keep it up all! Day 103 here. Chugging along.
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I hear you there. I identify with a lot of what you shared. That internal dialogue - the internal conversation - it’s important to make space for it, to let it breathe, in the context of the whole you, the whole self (including the family, recovery, and personal time, as you mentioned).
I’m home from the gym and feeling good. I always feel good after a vigorous cardio workout & a shower at the gym after work. I work in a high pressure job & juggle a lot of commitments - and running it out after work always makes me feel better.
In terms of my sobriety this summer has been a bust for me. Just terrible. I’m in that addict cycle where I try to be everything and inevitably things fall apart. I need to be more humble - and more healthy (in terms of taking time each day to check in & connect with my supports).
Thank you all for being here. I appreciate you so much. You - we - deserve safe, sober lives where we can be our full selves. 
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Day 2. I’m feeling back on track, had therapy yesterday and it was so helpful. We talked about tools to stop and think before just following the impulse,among other things. I’m exhausted. Work is ramping up, and I feel I’m dealing well, I just have to start putting in extra hours to get it all done. Going to bed early so I can tackle my Friday clear and sober. 
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I’m just checking in. Day 17
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Checking in sober and feeling good. The cooler weather equates to more energized pups during walks. Usually they wear out halfway but it’s a power walk through these days. Both of my football teams (college and NFL) are playing simultaneously and close so maybe that is keeping me amped up. I believe I have my evening happenings and routines figured out once I start my new schedule, so the idea of checking out with alcohol after work is less and less desirable or an option – less likely for the switch to be flipped. Gotta have my tools ready, that is for sure.
Wishing everyone a peaceful night/day!
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Checking in Day 53 Alcohol Free.
Another day, glad I’m not drinking.
I continued to feel really tired today. I know it’s caused by hormones and it’s going to shift in the next day or so, I just hate this feeling of tiredness and increased anxiety. Tonight it was hard to shut down the anxious thoughts in my mind even though I knew they weren’t rational. I have an annoying thing going on I’m trying to fix with finances and my car insurance, and it’s a pain and I start to spin out on things that should not be that big of a deal — like changing my address, updating paperwork, etc. I start thinking about money and getting down on myself because I don’t have much saved and I’ve had to pay for a bunch of stuff lately, which spins out into thoughts like I’m never going to be able to make a decent amount of money, never be able to buy a house, never be able to afford to have children, and I’m 36 so I’m running out of time and on and on. I know it’s an unnecessary chain reaction from the actual immediate task of dealing with the insurance issue, but it starts up and stresses me out and makes it really difficult to just do the thing I have to do.
I’ve got some tools to deal when it all starts spinning out in my mind. But it still happens. It’s like I can’t cut it off at the root. Again, it’s a cyclical thing, not something constant day after day but I’ve been in the thick of it this week and feeling mentally and physically exhausted.
Not drinking though…!
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That is really tough April, I can’t imagine.
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2Y 0M 1D
These next few months are going to be challenging for me. If there’s one thing I love though, it’s a challenge and I’m going to enjoy every minute of it. I’ve been trying this past week to quit smoking. I decided to keep my last cigarette as a momento and see if I can hold off until my patches run out. I know I can do it and I will!
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- Reading through the thread I see I’m not the only one having a bit of a tough time. Anyway. Coffee. Back to work for another five days. I hardly slept as my shoulder is killing me. Yesterday while seeing the PT it was OK of course. Going to be a long day at the office. Hope to get a doctors appointment to talk pain relief.
Had a tough group therapy session too. Talking about parents. Tough for me I guess because Sunday it’s the day my dad died 7 years ago and Monday my mum 8. And since scattering my mum’s ashes last weekend I’ve been thinking and feeling lots about my past and it isn’t all good. I guess it’s necessary to finally process.
Grateful I don’t drink nor do I think drinking or drugging would do me any good under the circumstances. Under any circumstances. I’m sober and clean and plan on remaining that way. So I can move ahead with my life. One day at a time. Have as good a day as you all can friends. Love.
@CNevarezN 2 years Carlos! Huge congrats my friend. As to quitting smoking: I know you can do anything you set your mind to. You do need a good plan in place to make it after your patches run out. You read Allen Carr’s Easy way to stop smoking? I can highly recommend it in helping you create the right mindset. And I would get rid of your last cigarette, discarding of it with a nice ritual. Did you keep a bottle of scotch as memento when you quit drinking? Success anyway friend.
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Congrats on your 2 years!!!
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41 days alcohol free 
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That’s a beautiful dawn even though you’re hurting … hope the shoulder pain goes away and thoughts for your mental pain. Take care.
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@MagicILY sensing strength 
@Dolse71 thank you it’s so hard it really is 
@anon10035965 congrats on 1100 
your photo looks like part of the old walk I used to do before I moved, enjoy 
@Mno hope the physio helps and that your toe remains not too painful 
@apes2020 congrats on 150 days
@JuliaLuna congratulations 
@Girlinterrupted sorry about the accident, really glad you’re okay 
congrats on triple digits with ED 
@Edorr welcome back congrats on 4 days
@Dazercat @RosaCanDo sorry you’re both in pain, it really is tiring and depressing
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