41 days alcohol free 
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Thatâs a beautiful dawn even though youâre hurting ⌠hope the shoulder pain goes away and thoughts for your mental pain. Take care.
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@MagicILY sensing strength 
@Dolse71 thank you itâs so hard it really is 
@SoberWalker congrats on 1100 
your photo looks like part of the old walk I used to do before I moved, enjoy 
@Mno hope the physio helps and that your toe remains not too painful 
@apes2020 congrats on 150 days
@JuliaLuna congratulations 
@Girlinterrupted sorry about the accident, really glad youâre okay 
congrats on triple digits with ED 
@Edorr welcome back congrats on 4 days
@Dazercat @RosaCanDo sorry youâre both in pain, it really is tiring and depressing
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@KodaMac congrats on double digits glad youâre recovering from Covid too
@JLove congrats on 70 days
@Fury enjoy your break next week 
congrats on the openings prayers for more balance
@pinkcloud congrats on 3 weeks
409 days no alcohol.
377 days no cocaine.
15 days no disordered eating.
Checking in for yesterday. Fell asleep with my glasses on and phone in my hand. Actually slept much more than I have been the past two weeks, so Iâm grateful for that though my dreams were pretty full on and unneccessrily graphic. My last one was about gigantic pizzas being made by big men using their bellies. My brain is weird 
and I now have to deal.with thoughts/cravings for pizza all day!
My eyes are really heavy so I think Iâll start today with a coffee.
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Day 45/435 pills / booze
Checking in clean and sober
Wishing all peace and strength this weekend
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Day 409
Food is shit, and cleaning is not great, but being organised at work, and keeping up with another Japanese study group. You win some, you lose some, I guess.
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7 weeks AF. In one way I can feel the different. On the otherhand, I miss the cozy in the drinking wine. The last days I had some urges during the days, not bad ones, but they are there. To have some in the evening while watching Netflix and so, like a normal person. Why not? I done so good, I can drink normal again now ( well me and my brain argue about this, I know the answer here very well honestly), I still feel dead tired with no energy, I dont loose the weigth anyways, still kinda fat. So what does it matter if I drink a little to enjoy my self?
BleeeahâŚ
Thanks for Reading.
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Day 298.
Its been a while since i last checked in and things could be better. Even though im currently on Tenerife having a holiday with the misses. Our hotel is located very close by an irish pub where there celebrations and parties have been going on for days now. And my mind is just fucking with me, its telling me i should go and just have a beer and socialize. And while alcohol isnt even my DOC its starting to look like it might aswell be.
It just feels sometimes like i cant be having fun anymore or atleast not as i used too with previous holidays.
I will stay sober though. I really cant afford to go back where i came from. And i dont want too.
That feeling is luckily still much stronger then the urge to numb myself.
Thanks for reading people, and stay strong! We are so worth living a sober life.
Bart
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I love reading these posts from you. Although we talk I need to catch you here to know what youâre thinking about your life.
Iâm proud of the steps youâre taking.
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Be strong. You often feel like you âdeserveâ it or you are missing out. You are not missing out by making yourself absent and sloppy. You deserve a holiday you can remember, that you enjoyed fully by being in the present.
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Checking in on day 47. When work asked me to pick up a shift last night, I was so excited to not be drunk on a day off - that I immediately said yes. Driving in I realized I was missing my 1730 womanâs group meeting. I was immediately filled with shame that my group would assume I was drinking, drunk, not coming back; that theyâd never believe I âwas workingâ. That meeting should have been my priority above all else and Iâm scared at how easily I forgot about it when given the choice to work or work on sobriety. Iâve always felt that until I get to 365 days sober I was high risk for relapse. Then I realized I will never NOT be high risk, regardless of days, and that made me happy. For me, this disease is really a one day at a time situation as evidenced by how easily I forgot one meeting when given the chance. For today I chose to not drink, use the Meeting Guide app and be flexible with going to new meetings with new people.
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Day 6 sober. I long for more days sober, thatâs good. I am growing really tired of the addiction
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I was sooo excited to accept the shift, to show how responsible and sober I was. Yeah, nice to not be drunk or hungover during adult events, less exhausting for sure. Happy Friday 
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Day 13. Heading on a weekend getaway with my husband and kids, which has been a threat to my sobriety in the past. âIm on vacation - I deserve to get drunk!â Im confident I wont this time, thanks to meetings and all of you guys. 
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Checking in sober and rested! I slept great last night, and it looks like an added nighttime routine of sharing some shoulder rubs with my husband and doing some wind down yoga/stretching really made a difference after a busy day running on little-no sleep. It seems obvious now, but lack of sleep and working in the kitchen all day or even doing regular tasks = tension in my body and difficulty relaxing. Add on top of that the trouble I have shutting my brain off (@MagicILY I see you and hear you, for sure!) and its a recipe for insomnia. Now, just have to make it routine. I had a pretty good day yesterday, actually, it was really good. I love when time in the kitchen is relatively leisurely and very productive. I was proud of the meal I cooked to kick off my husbandâs birthday weekend. I was so pleased that when he broke out the fancy birthday bottle I was more repulsed than tempted (not gonna deny there were niggling thoughts of wanting to join in but then I remembered I never even liked the taste of it and just drank shots as fast as I could to get hammered). I am really grateful he kept his consumption to a dull roar and didnât pass out breathing alcohol breath on me!
I am realizing I might always have the âwantâ to participate in whatever he is doing and that this is one aspect of how I ended up where I am with an alcohol problem. Iâm sure I have written about this before, but I always felt like I had to keep up with him in our partying days (and after)âŚwhat a mess. Seems some realizations happen repeatedly, or maybe it just helps to be reminded from time to time.
I smiled seeing this sunrise this morning. Sober life is a good life. Con mucho amor, amigos, stay strong, friends. 
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Good point on the Scotch bro 
and Iâll definitely check out that book man. Thank you very much!
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Thank you!
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Hey all, checking in on day 467. I hope everyone has a good end of the week!
Big shout out to @CNevarezN on 2 years!! Thatâs amazing, congratulations friend 
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Day 469 clean and sober today, I hope everyone is doing well, Have a great day, love you guys 
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D 358
This week had lots of processing: two therapies and a debriefing about a long term project from a few years ago. Didnât sleep well last night, bleh. Starting vocational rehabilitation next Monday. Yikes!
I donât watch porn because I donât want porn anymore.
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