First day of my very last cut in caffeine before I’m off completely, so it is now 10pm and I’m tired. Sadly, I have an online class on Thursdays, and I’m sitting here waiting for it to be done, but it’s 10 minutes over time and still going. 
@Butterflymoonwoman You’re doing great. Keep it up. 
@bubsy You’ll get there. Just keep going.
@Complicatedmama I’m so sorry about your friend. I hope you’re able to find some peace in this difficult time.
Aaaah, you have stones as well 
Welcome to the club 
Mine are galstones so they going to remove my gallblatter. Can they help you soon? Kidneystones can be very painful I understand.
Hope you feel better soon.
Congrats on your 88 Days MagicILY (I love how my predictive text finishes your name now 
) I’m sorry to hear about your boyfriend. There’s a lot of us out there affected by someone else’s addiction. It can be very frustrating and sad to say the least. I deal with it every day. If you’re willing and got some time stop by and read the new topic I started. Or vent. Or see who else has this going on in there lives.
It always helps me to remember to focus on my sobriety not my wife’s drinking. It’s not always easy. And sometimes I feel very lonely.
Day 1136 
I’m not going to share a picture of my face but if you would see me you would laugh!
I have a huge fridge. On top of the I have a collection of big cacti (hope this is the right translation 
). Yesterday evening we heard a loud noice and the biggest cactus has fallen down on the floor!
It has felt in pieces and it was a mess. Cactusblood everywhere. I cleaned it but probably got something of the blood into my eye. It burned like hell and I washed it but that didn’t help. Today my eye has swollen up and I look like an alien…and I have to work today! (Work in a store ) I think I’m going to have an interesting day 
Day 38 checking in need to take my baby girl for her jags in a few hours not looking forward to it praying everything will be fine have a good day 
Awe so cute you’re sober twins!!!
@Callie99
Like @Dazercat and I…
Oh wait we are not sober twins we are drumroll
Sober twin-not-twins just a little different. 
306 days
Mood is improving thankfully, anxiety still about but not gut wrenching so days are easier. Also noticed my energy levels improving, actually did housework in the week rather then watch TV felt good. I think I am settling into routine of work, so my aim for next week is to start back at the gym I know that will benefit me further.
River swimming on Sunday so treated myself to neoprene leggings and top, felt good to buy myself a present, hopefully will help with coping with the water temp.
Massive Congratulations @Nordique, @Callie99 @TripnMN on your milestones
@Liam1 keep going odaat it’s will get easier and the benefits of clear heads will be a joy
Have a strong sober day 
Checking in 76 days sober 
so glad my energy levels are finally starting to improve! Its not just the stopping drinking alot of things come to light
Biggest one for me was and still am just not eating that well. Who knew the body needs food for fuel… working on this im just rubbish at meal planning!
Have a great day everyone!
Hey all, checking in on day 502. I hope everyone has a good one!
Hi all, Checking in Day 5, missed a bullet yesterday. Incredible having somewhere to check into. I’m aware my body is going through withdrawal. Which is hard. I’m aware that my brain is currently conditioned to receiving poison at a certain time of the day. I’m aware that after only a 2-3 weeks of abstinence my brain get rewired to not expecting to be poisoned and the compulsion starts to leave. For me it’s about my brain catching up to the logic. It makes no sense to absorb a poisonous substance for the sake of ‘relaxing’ or ‘socialising’ or ‘numbing’ it does none of those things. Not one. It’s complete insanity. And I am not insane so I choose to rid myself of this ridiculous trap iv stuck myself in.
So I made it to day 3. Already feeling a lot better. Which is crazy. Slept pretty well for the first time in a long time. Feel less anxious and more positive today. BUT now I’m really craving alcohol again. This seems to happen to me all the time I stop drinking, once I start feeling better those thoughts creep in… ‘oh one drink won’t hurt’ and ‘you deserve a drink’ and ‘maybe you’re not addicted after all’. Then the cycle starts again, where I’ll have one drink, then the next day two, then the next a bottle of wine, then 2 bottles etc etc and I’m back exactly where I started! I know I just need to ignore that voice in my head and stay focused. It’s so hard. So glad I decided to join this community, its already helping so much. Really appreciate the support. Hope everyone’s doing OK. I will keep going 
Whenever I got urges early on, I just forced myself to drink two pints of water. Once you’ve done that, not only does your thirst disappear, but you can’t imagine drinking anything at all. It also helps to clarify your thoughts by hydrating your poor brain and helps you to make good decisions.
Worked for me. 
Thanks so much I will definitely give this a go!!
Good morning 
everyone!
I usually check in after treatment and the gym but missed last night. Falling asleep is so much better than passing out.
Yesterday was pretty cool I took a guy from treatment to the gym with me. While signing him in the lady at the desk mentioned staying in shape since she got sober. This is the same person I felt I needed to apologize to the other day I guess she saw some step 10 work. Turns out she got sober 23 years ago and three more staff at the gym have 14 plus years each. She actually worked at the treatment I’m in currently years ago! I’m going to check out some meetings with them next week.
God is good.
72 days no alcohol
35 days no cigarettes
We got this today
Love and positive thoughts from me to you
Day 4. A ground in my addiction had been a dialogue with harmful thoughts in my mind
Well done @Liam1 !!!
Day 504 clean and sober today. I hope everyone has a kick ass day today, love you guys!!! 
Day 15. So I posted my portrait tattoo attempt on that site bc I was looking for constructive criticism and some guy messaged me on my personal Facebook saying I sucked and needed to give up tattooing. I responded with let’s build each other up rather then taring each other down. I was hurt bc I knew that piece wasn’t perfect but for being my first attempt at tattooing I was proud. Idk what it is about me, but I see ppl post stick figures on that site and get nothing but love and told to keep going and don’t give up, but whenever I post I get shot down and bullied and told to stop fucking tattooing. This has always seemed to be something in my life with everything I do, ppl always tearing me down about everything I do. I know for a fact I’m not giving up and I will become one of the most amazing artist anyone will see. And what’s different about me and is I won’t ever tare anyone down about their work ever. Much love, I’m going to have a great day
Welcome @Liam1 I’m glad you’re here, great job on day 3!! Keep checking in and reaching out and you’ll do just fine my friend. This forum has saved my ass more than once. Well done!!
