Congratulations on day 8!!! Ur right we can do this 
Iām determined to get this. Hope yo keep seeing more of ur posts!
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This means alot to me Eric thank you. I do need to step up my recovery game. I do well with doing positive things like exercise and affirmations and self careā¦ the issue Iām finding lies in what Iām NOT doing before I do drugs. So I donāt reach out on TS and my will power to say no (if someone else brings up using) is almost non existence. Itās like my brain says āsay no, say noā and then my mouth says, āya okā. Like thereās a huge disconnect. I need to connect them. So what I need to do is go on TS and reach out BEFORE. Reach out when I get that 1st thought. Talk it out. I know thatās what Iām doing wrong. Iām not asking for help. I was thinking the other day that I started using when I was 16. And Iām 37 now. Besides my 3 yrs clean at one point and various other times, itās been like almost 2 decades or so of on n off using. Like I want to know what itās like to not fucking use something. Even when I was clean I obsessed and got addicted to things like exercise and shopping and other things. I want to find balance in life. I want to live my life clean. I gotta fucking do something before my life ends or something else bad happens. Iām grateful for you Eric and Iām grateful for TS. Next time I get a craving Iām coming on here. Gonna try it and see where it takes me. Hugs hugs š«
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24 days
I didnt check in yesterday and really have no excuse. I just spent the majority of the day vegging on the couch watching The Underground Railroad. I guess I needed a day of rest. Today is a new day and Im off to work on this blustery day.
Keep on keeping on!
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Thatās right, 1234. Fun!
Anxious. Boss is out all week which means pressure.
Anxious. My back injury from last week was getting better. Chanced a run yesterday, and did finish, but was def too soon. So now another week out, minimum. I know itās not true but I have this perception that I can and am falling out of shape overnight when I have to take a break. I feel flat and weak.
Anxious. Because I feel kind of directionless again.
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Some days thatās really all we can do, either way you were sober so it was still a win congrats on your days
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When the kids were still home, there were 13 guitars in the house! Three out of four can play. My oldest son fascinates me with his gift of playing by ear. He will first just sit and listen to a song. Then heāll play along with the song. After that, heās got it down and can just play it on his own. He did NOT get that from me! I can listen to him play guitar for hours. He plays the drums and harmonica, too. Iāve always wanted to learn and just show up at his house one day, take a guitar off the wall, and have a jam session. He would freak! 
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Super grateful to reach this milestone, thanks to HP, the AA programme and working with a bunch of really great recovering members. This online group also helps me so much especially when Iām alone and stuck in my thoughts.
A luta continua!
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Today is my first day here. Iām 51 days into my millionth try at sobriety. This is the furthest Iāve gotten so thatās positive. Anyway, itās nice meeting you all.
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Day 6 for me 
Sweet, Iām just starting to learn guitar atm too @Callie99, youāll be surprised what interest and even just occasional time can do as I feel my fingers slowly improving already hahaā¦ Met some awesome travelling players, and nice instrument to play anywhere! 
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13 guitars?! 
I have been wanting to learn for so long. Iāve been singing for as long as I can remember but never really learned an instrument. I told myself I didnāt have enough time to learn and now I have plenty I doubt Iāll pick it up as fast as your son. People who are musically gifted like that are so amazing. I have a friend who taught himself how to play piano during Covid. Iām just in awe of him. A musical home sounds like a happy home. 
Iām sure he would have so much fun having a jam sesh with you! That would be such an fun surprise 
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Welcome Terri.
Advice for new comers and constant relapsers
This is a great thread to be accountable, get and give support.
I hope to see you around.
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Iām one of those āplaying by soundā types with the violin. 
Do you ever play?
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Ahhh thatās so cool Sven! Where did you find your guitar? Iām trying to avoid getting mine on Amazon. They get enough business! Do you play any other instruments?
Ps congrats on day 6
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Congratulations on your one month of sobriety JP.
ODAAT.
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Ours was, and still is, a musical home. Iām excited for you to get a guitar and learn to play. Itās gonna be fun! 
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Iāll keep you updated! hopefully my small hands are not a disadvantage
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To be honest, Iāve never really tried. I would pick up one of the kidsā guitars and almost immediately put it down, just knowing I could never learn it. Now I know thatās silly. Caroline is inspiring me to get over myself. 
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Great catch buddy.
More impressive is all those ODAAT.
Keep leading the way.
At 60+ I still donāt know why itās so hard for me to listen to my body and rest it when it hurts. But Iām learning to take it easy. But itās so hard sometimes.
I hope it feels better soon. Iām doing the opposite now. My back is finally feeling better and Iām afraid to get back to the gym. Iām going to stick with my power walks for awhile and stretching. Seems to be working.
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Checking in on day 193.
I did something I was properly scared of today: went the the GP and got a referral for psychotherapy today, now I can apply for my insurance to pay for it! Pheeeew. I did it. Opening up to my friends war hard, I was really scared of talking to the therapist, but talking to a fellow medical person ā¦ couldnāt imagine it. I always fear that people would judge me, even shame me, act rude ā¦ but the physician was really nice, understanding and only wanted to help me. When will I start to wrap my mind around the fact that itās ok to ask for help and that people can be accepting of me even though Iām a sad, depressed, alcoholic? 
Itās a journey and Iām glad I ventured out in the world and started to talk about my problems.
@Rockstar24777 Rob thatās absolutely fantastic! How far you have come and how many of us you helped along the way, youāre an inspiration! Congratulations 
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Thanks Callie! 
Just the violin, never learned notes tho unfortunatelyā¦ But it can definately be nice and fun sometimes 
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