Day 16. Boy, am I in a state today! I guess I am (H)ungry. (A)ngry. (L)onely. and (T)ired. I have so much internalized stress and anxiety. I have been to two meetings, been breathing, been sitting with it. I am ready to punch out on my new business and just get a J.O.B. Then, I looked at my counter and the quote is: “Set your goals high, and don’t stop until you get there.” People keep telling me that this is 100% where I am meant to be. I have been dazzling people with food for decades (for free). I am top of the sales game, wherever I work. I am letting self-doubt consume me and getting ready to settle in and make money for someone else!? Pshsshshshshsh. I need to hit something. Rage charcuterie building doesn’t usually work out well for the design. 
There is no degree of alcoholism. You’re either an alcoholic or you are not. It was once I finally admitted I was an addict that I could look at the boatload of shit I was in honestly, and I was in a BOATLOAD.
I am sorry to see you slipped but the self realization you seem to be having will be helpful to you. Each time I learn something different about myself I try to make use of what I learn. Because in order to “recover” I need to take action against my disease. Glad you’re back quickly, keep moving forward.
Checking in before going to bed. Not had a good day, pains, anxiety and just feeling shit, lying on the couch all day. Hoping for a better day tomorrow.
1176 days alcohol free
Day 16. Check in number 2. These are historically hard days. I really want to numb out. I feel like my head is going to explode.
Finally I’m on time haha kind of a depressing long day very bored
Today’s a day to earn it Jené. Good you’re here. Breathe. Ground. Basic stuff. You can do this.
I hear you, and you’re right they are hard.
You have been doing a great job at getting yourself through the sticky parts and this is just another one. Maybe take a nice bath or light an incense and close your eyes for a min. Breathe it will pass.
Thanks, @Mno and @Its_me_Stella . I am not going to drink. There’s no alcohol in the house and it’s too damn cold to go anywhere. I just needed to lay it out there.
Just checking in day 9. Still relearning life I feel like.
Hey everyone! Just stopping in to check in. Today is much better 
No arguing with the hubby and I got some things done that needed to get done. Did some self care ate some good food. Things are okay today 
hope everyone is doing well hugs
Absolutely! After the first few weeks I rediscovered I actually have a sense of humour, and even fairly recently that I like reading books and swimming, and have the time and energy to do so.
@EarnIt Sending strength! Hang on in there💪
Wow ! What a great number !!! Congratulations !!!
Checking in Day 2. Again. What matters is that I’m back. Working of the confusion and daze from the weekend. Too many thoughts and what ifs. I am making it simple…come here read …post…breathe…one second at a time right now.
We are super happy you are back!
Day 7 covid - strange I never used to have a problem staying in all day popping pills, getting plenty of fluid, hoping no-one comes to visit and telling myself I’ll do better tommorow.
Thank you Ami…nice to meet you
I’m realizing this now, and it’s hard to face. I know I can do it, but I also know I need help. When you’ve been out of touch with who you really are for as many years as I’ve been, it’s scary. It’s almost like meeting someone new that I don’t really wanna know. I’ll get there, though. I’m grateful for you.