Coffee. Another dark rainy day here. Well, it’s supposed to be this kind of weather at this time of year. I’ll think of some useful and nice stuff to do. Looking for a new raincoat as the one I wore yesterday on my rainy bike ride isn’t 100% waterproof no more. Having dinner with my sis later for her 60th birthday.
None of what I do will include boozing or drugging. That’s just stupid for folks like me. Never again. Just for today I’ll remain sober and clean and I hope and expect you all will do too. Because to live our best lives we have to be. Have a good one all. Love from Amsterdam and its surroundings.
@Lisa07 800! Wow! Beautiful awful and awesome friend! Huge congrats! @Its_me_Stella And for you it’s 700 by now! Big congrats and thanks so much for all you share and do here. @Misokatsu That’s very eye pleasing Flo. Congrats. @ShadowFax Nice one Roland. Keep going. Once this whole mess gets better we should try a hike together too maybe if you’d like.
URGH. I relapsed again last night. But this time I have woken up full of commitment to the sober path. I"m excited about it. I do not want a life where I am drinking in my future. I can change this. I HAVE to change this or I’ll die.
DAY 1. I’m aiming at 1 month to start then 3 months. I"m also going to pay for proper support so that I genuinlely commit this time and stop dancing with the idea.
You don’t need to get one month or three it only matters what you do today. I know when I start looking to the future I can lose focus on today. 30, 90, 1000 days will never come without today and I’ll be OK today. Glad you’re here
Day 9. Sunday morning. Slept last night more than I have since last Friday…when I got my first and only DUI. Lord thank you for your forgiveness and love. I pray the serenity prayer for us all Strength, Courage and Wisdom. Amen. Happy Sober Sunday T S family.,
I’m so sorry to read this. It must be so difficult for international families in this horrible pandemic. I’m sorry for you children missing out on time with their grandparents. And also that with each chunk of time away, they won’t remember their country. You are on my mind and I hope there are fast solutions to these problems.
Early Sunday morning here, the last day of my 5 day break from work. Of course I have put in many hours of learning and lesson planning on my computer this weekend. Teaching is a non stop job. I mostly enjoy the planning and learning part of the work, but I do have to remind myself to stop and walk away from it before I lose an entire day “off”. Yes people, in addition to my alcohol addiction, I am also addicted to work. And I’m in a profession that just eats up workaholics, because beside being well-planned with the technical parts, teachers must also be well rested and emotionally healthy to do the art that is our work. Finding the balance is the trick.
Today is day 31! I made it to 30 with some steady effort and a lot of accountability. I’m reading quit lit a bit every day and checking in to several online communities throughout the day. I’m fortunate to have a relatively calm life going on at the moment, so I’ve been fortunate to focus on my health.
I honestly don’t think I could have done it much sooner as I’ve had a lot of stress for so many years before this. I am a stress drinker. Finally, I have a less stressful job, the home situation is very manageable, and my family is pretty healthy for now. I’m grateful to have this chapter. I wish it had never had to get to the point of addiction, but since that went on for almost 30 years I am honestly at the place where I have no fear of missing out.
As long as I can keep getting stronger in my new habits and hold myself accountable to my family, I think I can do this for the long haul. I want to be done and have other things take the priority in my life. What other things??
How about some adventures! Last summer I went camping by myself for the first time. It was so great. I kind of wanted to try it without the wine, but I did not have the courage to do that. As a result I was not able to experience all that I could now. I want to do some more rugged camping, some significant hiking and get back into long distance cycling. It seems hangovers can really get in the way for those activities. So I’m hoping to do that in the coming year.
Life is short, I’m hoping to have lots of time lest to try out some of these adventures with a clear mind and healthy body. In the meantime I wish you all a peaceful and happy Sunday.
We are stressed and waiting for similar news that we don’t want. We live in Singapore and haven’t been home (to Europe) for two and a half years. We have booked flights for Christmas but this new variant is throwing everything into doubt. We are supposed to be flying three weeks today.
I laughed at the start when people said that this could be our generation’s ‘war’, but the longer it goes on, the longer it feels that way. We are all so, so, so sick of it all.
You are never alone in this forum.
@Lisa07 Holy Cow!!! 800!!! Congrats!!! I am sorry to hear about your friends relapse and dire health. Hugs @Its_me_Stella 700 days sober!!!WOW!!! @Misokatsu Very awesome catch on that! @Hopeful777 11 months!! Super! @anon86198612 2 weeks! Look at you getting it done ODAAT! Congrats! @Newlife5 1 week!!! Congratulations!!!
55 days for me. Haven’t been sleeping well this week but I’m hanging tough. I want a drink but I ain’t gonna have one. Have a spectacular Sunday!
Holy Cow!!! 800!!! Congrats!!! 
I am sorry to hear about your friends relapse and dire health. Hugs 
