The night is winding down.
Had an overall good day. Was thinking about relapse and rock bottoms. I’ve had a few rock bottoms in my past. Things that have made me “wake up” and get clean. Usually a very close call with death or some sort of trauma/abuse which stemmed from what I used to do for “work”. I was in REALLY rough shape back in the day. Today I am no where near that place. I don’t behave or act any way like I used to. So honestly… things aren’t THAT bad in my life. They aren’t great thats for damn sure. I know completely getting clean would make a WORLD of difference. Normally, a rock bottom would be the jump start I need… BUT WHY do I need to have one this time around? Why do I have to lose everything for me to make a change? I used to be an all or nothing kind of gal… go big or go home lol… I want to change before things get to that rock bottom… cuz honestly that rock bottom could be death. Let’s be real here. Or in prison. I have this chance (yet again) to make a change. Going to cherish it and make use of it… goodnight xo
Feeling sad, empty, and alone tonight but grateful for my 38 days sober. These nights suck but they would be even more awful if I had to wake up with a hangover. Thank you all for being here, goodnight 
Way to go Lisa!!!
Great catch.
I hope y’all had a great night out.
Evenings like that are the worst 
I’m sorry ur experiencing that tonight. But ur right, drinking/using would only make it so much worse. Maybe a good night’s rest will help 
And a bright new day awaits u tmrw 
Have a good rest my friend hugs
Day 45 checking in have a great day everyone
313 days
Struggling with anxiety quite overwhelming at times, it does not seem to be impacting my sobriety for which I am greatful for. I am at a stage at work when I go to meetings and can’t talk, ask questions for fear of looking stupid , the ego! Then someone ask a question I am wanting to ask, and gutted I did not then ask, as its not stupid! The fear at the time is real , typing now it’s sounds it all so silly. Just hope if I keep trying it will get easier.
On a more positive note I have Monday off so heading to beach Sunday for a campout with lots of walking and fresh air, nature always helps.
@Butterflymoonwoman well done on jumping back on with such determination and congrats on day 1. @Lisa07 can beat a bunch of 7’s 
. @anon53116147 congrats on 3 weeks.
@CATMANCAM hope you had a better night sleep.
Have a good day all 
Checking in 13,600 day of clean and sober!!
Nice catch Lisa! 
Captured this neat number tonight. This number was only possible because of all the beautiful people and support here on Talking Sober and Alcoholics Anonymous/Narcotics Anonymous. Thank you… 
Nice Charlie! Maybe you would like to meet some TS Dutchies in real as well? 
Maybe we can set up something by then.
If you need tips about what to see ore visit just pm me.
#Day 1143 
Pffff, last day of my working week. Glad with it. Had a stressful week. Manager having her holiday and me doing her work with lack of staff to help me 
The “dessert” was an big agressive customer yesterday under the influence of something. Sexual disinhibited (hope that is the right translation) and mentally confused behaviour. But I stayed calm and got him out of the store safely, even after he came back for the second time 
It was scary, but it also made me gratefull for me being sober
Picture from a lucky clover I found during one of my walks. This one is for you @Butterflymoonwoman
- Coffee. Late shift later. Cancelled spinning class this morning. There are some times I need to rest instead of run. Stuff isn’t linear. That goes for training, that goes for the work I do for and on myself in sobriety.
Therapy yesterday was good and positive, we evaluated the first 40 sessions which was really nice as everybody came up with some good progress they found in themselves and each other. Still 20 sessions to go, we discussed what we’ll be working on. I tend to take pretty big steps, than stall and retract quite a bit, until another jump is made. Hoping to make some more jumps in the coming months.
Without my sobriety I’d never ever be able to do this. No way. Not drinking and drugging is the base of it all. So happy to be sober and clean. So grateful to you all for helping me making it so. Have a good day all, or at least as good as you all can. Clean and sober helps so much. Love from Amersfoort, the town where my therapy is. The little tower and the adjacent building is the old town jailhouse.
@Chance That’s a crazy number James. Very Impressive. Big congrats and thanks for the share.
@Edmund Wow. Beautiful number Ed. Huge congrats.
@Lisa07 I’m dazzled by all the 7’s Lisa. Lovely.
Beautiful Lisa. Congratulations 
Hey Ed
So nice to see these beautiful strong numbers. You show it can be done. Thank you for your inspiration and support on this forum
Day 12. Good Morning Talking Sober Family. Today my oldest son turns 14. Thankful. Up early decorating the house. Will be a sober day.
Proud of me. making progress filed and receivedy legal aid certificate yesterday. Can move forward with custody and child support for my children.
Happy Sober Friday all.
Heeeejjjj!! 
Awesome!! I cheer for you!! 
And now I give myself a kick behind my…(fill in whatever you like 
) and go to work! Bye!
Congrats! What a great number and a good catch!