Morning Jene, really hoping today gets better for you. Resentments are awful Whenever I get super angry or resentful I usually need something physical to help me release that negative energy thatās build up. Exercise works well for me. Is there anything that has helped you in the past?
Congrats on 60 days!! Huge accomplishment
Checking in real quick like bunny! The bunnies are happy they got fresh alfalfa and pine litter today. Off to pick up some groceries then walk Miss Lupe and get on with the rest of my day.
Sober strength and big love, amigos
Maybe try reading some of the Caffeine threads we have going here?
@Chiron created a really good one recently that Iāve been following
Ironically Iām actually drinking pre-workout right now lol, but I do use it only once a day before I workout.
Iāve been trying to manage my caffeine intake also and it can be a huge bitch, especially for those of us who have problems with moderation. I noticed that I started drinking way more caffeine after I stopped drinking. Iāve capped myself at 400mg a day and I donāt go past that. It seems like a good balance right now because I still sleep fine, but eventually Iād like to reduce it.
Toward resentment? No. I am not, historically, a resentful person. Itās one of the new gifts of this go around. I do know the feeling of discontent is a biproduct of āTo-Dosā that havenāt been done. Itās a wicked cycle of feeling too depressed and helpless to do things AND having things undone lead to depression and helplessness. So, I just need to start getting things off the āto-doā and on to the ādone.ā
Definitely come on over to the thread @Nordique mentioned and post as much as youād like about caffeine.
It really is a drug. You get used to it. For me, if left unchecked, Iāll just keep upping and upping the amount I take in. It doesnāt really seem like youāre abusing your pre-workout drink, but in the natural course of events, youāve gotten used to your current dose and if you want to keep using it you either need to take a 14 day break or up the amount.
Youāre doing great at 22 days. I love seeing your number go up.
Congrats Ed!!!
Thanks for your contributions to the forum. I do believe we are due for some puppy photos though.
Mhm I know a lot of people who stop doing meth and start taking ephedrine to stay āhighā. Basically what you are doing.
Love the self awareness you have it is spot on. Super happy you are catching yourself doing that shit. Itās so easy to over look.
Congrats on your days.
Hey darlinā Iām sorry you felt yucky yesterday. How are you feeling today? Sending you some love and hugs.
Morning! Just thought if check in on ya hope u had a good rest!
Iām feeling much better today . A sweet freaking angel (Stella) messaged me and let me vent to her last night. I didnāt even go to sleep sad.
How are you feeling? How is your son? I was thinking of you this morning. I hope you were able to get some rest after the other night.
Thank you for the hugs and checking in on me
Hi BMW
I am feeling worlds better Thank you for checking in on me. I just needed to let out some negative feelings, process them, and get a good nights sleep.
How are you doing today?! I saw your coffee and pre- work out ready to go for this morning! I will be doing some yoga inside later today as itās pretty rainy and gloomy here.
Congrats on day one Letās both get through today
A study was done years ago on the common ground of any form of addiction and the process of recovery and the common denominator was āA childish defianceā. We want want want and we donāt want to do anything about it, we donāt want to try. I was quite happy living life on my terms until one day I woke up and decided I didnāt like what I had anymore. It was a very long time from that day until the day I woke up years later and thought āactually I might have to change a few things I donāt really want toā, Eventually I realised the only thing I had to change was ME.
How are you doing? Feeling any better?
Iām doing much better today. Iām on my way out of the mountains to go to the ābig cityā today. Itās a 2-1/2 hour drive, so a fun road-trip with my hubs. I talked with my son earlier this morning, and heās doing really well. He has a good attitude, so that makes me happy.
Iām so glad you got to vent and went to sleep without sadness. I find that when I go to sleep carrying a burden I usually wake up with it. Itās best to get that out.
I feel this big time. The worst resentments I carry usually stem from this type of bullshit, and itās just that - bullshit - but in the moment it feels huge. I wish I knew why that was. Hope you get some stuff crossed off and some bites outta that pesky elephant, amiga.
Day 1, it can only get better from here!