Good morning friends. Checking in on day 174. Yesterday evening I had a migraine aura. I have gotten them all my life, but so far I have been pretty lucky to not get a full-on headache afterwards. Well, last night my brain decided it was time to see what it had been missing. 
Feeling better this morning. It is cold and windy today where I am. I hope everyone has a good day today.
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Day 2 or so of being on ~1.4mg clonazepamā¦going to taper down to 1.25 soon, or perhaps try to go all the way down to 1mg.
Feel very in the moment / in such a strong sense of immersion in reality. Driving is very enjoyable now. Very flow state type of activity. Also love hiking and walking as well even more now.
Completely sober is going to feel absolutely amazing, I just know it.
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I love this message because itās my struggle too.
IT IS HARD WORK. YOUR SO RIGHT.
After finishing the easy peazy method to break my addiction, i do find though that my ālittle monsterā although strong, is only as powerful as I ALLOW HIM TO BE. After 20 years of failing, iāve given him so much power. And yet, itās day 15, I understand now how those neural pathways are wired to think a certain way. I HAVE TO BE ON FROM THE MOMENT I WAKE UP TILL I GO TO BED.
For me, itās about having a plan and not letting my DEFAULT SETTINGS dominate me. My default settings are always going to push me to
- laziness
- Searching for novelty(trash online).
So i have to always ask myself, āare you being dominated or are you in control?ā
It is a daily battle, but a battle iām winning, day 15 is here.
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Arenāt we all. For me, itās panic attacks without my addiction. Itās like my addicted brain is crying out before i go to sleep. I counter this with sleep lotion/magnesium to help me rest.
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You are doing great! 
Crying always gives me a massive sinus headache. Try some warm clothes on your face and neck, drink something hot and soothing too. I cried and cried then raged and raged in early detox days. It sucks but itās totally normal. Try to get some fresh air and sunshine today, youāll be surprised at how much it helps. I also found taking B vitamins helped. 
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In to day 49. Slept good last night went to bed early, much to be grateful for. But my brain is trying to self sabotage. Fighting back the best I can much love everyone
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Just wanted to let you know, i appreciate you sharing your struggles with everyone. Your right, these check inās arenāt sunshine and rainbows, We are all together, battling our imperfections, our insecurities, whatever meds we are taking, while also trying to be good parents and not put our Trauma on our kids, itās so tough. The ānot putting your trauma on your kidsā part is a real struggle for me. I can have a temper and start to yell. I really really dont want to yell at my kids. My wife is Ultra patient almost to a fault, and with me i have to diligently work at being patient. In recovery my body/mind is going through alot of changes and i have to constantly work on being āpresentā not off in my own world. Chemical Changes in my mind combined with getting only 3 to 5 hours of sleep a night (thanks to my 11 month old) make it a real challenge to not snap at the kiddos. Sometimes i literally have to walk away, splash some water on my face, take a few deep breaths, and force myself to smile walking back in the room.
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Day 59 Just finished a sunrise 2 mile walk with my husband. My business is still very stressful but oddly enough, Iām not having any serious cravings right now. Heigh Ho Heigh Ho, itās off to work I go 
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Day 12
Had the last two days off work, kicked back and relaxed, seen some friends, went to some meetings and streamed a video game on twitch. All in all a good couple of days.
Awake way to early today though. Been sleeping good the past few nights but had some weird dreams then woke up from a nightmare around 6am and just couldnāt get back to sleep. Hoping to catch a nap before I head into work for the evening.
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I really hope I can catch all the 7ās, but Iām not holding my breath.
Today, have the best day you can!
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Day 538 clean and sober today. My Monday yay! I hope everyone has a beautiful day today, love you guys!! 
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Thank you for sharing what youāre going through. Itās a powerful message to everyone that sobriety isnāt all rainbows and light but rather something that changes sometimes multiple times a day. Recovery isnāt for pussies and youāre kicking ass, well done my friend!!!
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Awesome, I just recently started meditating with the insight timer app. It definitely helps
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Morning people. Just checking in on day 17. Actually sleeping a little bit better. Cravings havenāt been horrible, but when they come, they come with like a panicked feeling. Wifeās at work kids at school so just trying to stay busy and out of trouble. Thank yous all for any and all info yous have given me. 
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that means a lot to me Paulā¦ thank you!!!
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Morning checkin
Woke up late AGAIN! Lol ugh I keep missing the gym. Iāve been so tired lately tho. Ive been getting good rest but I literally could sleep for like 10 or 12 hours if I let myself haha. Havenāt exercised all this week. There is always tomorrow morning tho. Today consists of running errands, cleaning, and laundry. Finally itās starting to get cold here too. Itās always so refreshing stepping out into the cold air. Nothing really else going on. Birthday is tomorrow 
excited for it actually! Going to be clean and sober and enjoy some self care. Hope everyoneās day it amazing!! Hugs š«
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Checking in on Day 11. Feeling pretty great this morning.
Have a great day everyone!
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Today I feel hollow. All I want to do is sleep, I have no motivation to be at work and I really just want to isolate myself. My NA group was able to pick up their key tags yesterday so I was given my 30 day tag I was awarded Monday. Unity was the topic last night and I feel it there for sure. Not only with the long timers but I started my sober journey one day after another member joined. We have been able to sort of keep each other accountable and I hope to keep seeing this person celebrate and tally up clean time right alongside myself. Have a wonderful day guys.
I appreciate the support I have received here, when asked what has helped me to make it this far I mentioned this forum in my little list. Iām so blessed to have found it.
Much love
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Easy Peasy
Today Iām celebrating day 38
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