Checking in on Day 5! I went back home today from my mothers house so I am alone but I’ve been keeping myself busy rearranging my apartment and I’m going to cook myself dinner and lunch for work tmrw and then I’ll read some threads on here and catch the 319 online meeting. I started taking my naltrexone again today and I was a little nauseous but I’m feeling a little better after a light snack i think it’s best not to take it on an empty stomach that was my mistake. I hope you all had a great day and blessed evening, I couldn’t have made it to day 5 without the encouragement of you all 
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@anon52066378 thank you 
I’m sorry for the sad news for your superwoman 
she will surely appreciate you being sober and present through this difficult time 
congrats on your week 
@Pat_m congrats on your first two sober concerts 
@Stormy welcome back 
congrats on 3 days
@PuraLatina congrats on your week
@TripnMN thank you it really does feel like I’m having to be more of a parent than a friend, he needs it, but I am trying to take a step back as it’s not my responsibility and not good for me at all really.
@JustAlys sending strength I hope you feel a bit better today
@SoberWalker Thank you for sharing your photos, I love trees and unusual buildings 
@RunnerBean congrats on your week
@Dmcg1987 I hope today went well
@KarenKW well done for pouring the rest away 
congrats on a new day 1
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@Charlie_C yikes, my legs and stomach went like jelly just reading about your previous light-hanging stunts 
glad you were safer this year and it all looks so lovely 
@ShadowFax sorry you’re feeling a bit down, sending strength congrats on 70 days
@Deep welcome congrats on day 1
@Newlife5 congrats on 2 weeks
@kat261 Good Luck for your surgery 
hope all goes well
@LesIzMore101021 welcome
@anon53116147 definitely don’t give up Mike, literally the only people whose feedback matters is your customers’. You’re doing great 
@Hazy congrats on 8 months
@Grumpybeard congrats on 90 days
482 days no alcohol.
450 days no cocaine.
43 days no nicotine.
Having had 2 days to myself, I can see clearly how bad it is for me to try to be there for my friend everyday. It has been like going back to work in my support worker role. He does needs the support but there’s only so much I can do while he’s not at all willing to do anything to help himself. He gets in trouble when he’s had too much to drink, always has done, but doesn’t want to even try to stop drinking at all. I can’t be around it anymore, at least not in the way that I have been the past two weeks. This is the hard part for me though, taking a step back, the guilt I feel when I do. I already feel bad because he wanted to make NYE plans with me, but I replied saying I haven’t celebrated it for a while now as it’s too late to stay awake for me these days. I have felt bad most of the day for it, because if I let him celebrate at mine I could potentially keep him safe and out of trouble, but I have no desire to stay up so late, especially as it’s highly likely he will start drinking early in the morning so would be intolerable later on. I can’t give in.
As for myself, I have been feeling a little emotionally unsteady after my first therapy session on Friday. Like my tightly-packed traumas have had a tiny bit of room to shuffle around and release flickers of painful feelings. Just trying to be aware and acknowledge this. I had a lot of meditations to catch up on so I’ve been working through those this weekend.
I have my second treatment on my feet tomorrow afternoon and I need to collect my repeat medications beforehand.
I’m feeling really stuck in regards to my eating disorder stuff. My size affects me mentally and physically so much and nothing I try to do is working (I’m gaining rather than losing weight).
I wish I was stronger. Mental illness and addiction seem to have truly broken my inner resolve and resilience. I’m a cancerian but I feel like I don’t have my tough exterior right now.
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Thanks Tyler 
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Love those numbers, Lisa!
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Wow Ryan!!! Way to go!!!
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Those lights look great! The hard and dangerous work paid off!
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@Butterflymoonwoman Those shower steamers look nice. I’m really affected by my environment too.
@StarK31 great job on your five days!
@Grumpybeard 90 days! Way to rock it!
@CATMANCAM There is only so much you can do for other people. As much as we want to be there for others, we have to remember that we are also of worth and must love ourselves enough to say no to others.
@Lisa07 those numbers! I love it!
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AMAZING NEWS!! Thanks April. 
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Had never heard of shower steamers! Cool. And well done not using. I almost caved and went off my pre-surgery diet tonight but went to an NA meeting which helped me resist.
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Beautiful!!!
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Way to Go!! PL
Great job.
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Congrats!! 1 week is amazing!!
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Thank you so much!
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Thank you, I appreciate it!
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First time checking in… 5 days today… I almost had a set back, but I made it through.
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