@Nowenbrace thank you for the support! I believe in you too!
Checking in Day 125, having surgery at 4pm should just take an hour. A little sad because I will be given narcotics during and after the surgery, but here’s what I will do. ONLY request narcotic pain meds if I am in severe pain, if I think Tylenol will do then will ask for that. I will have to be really honest with myself.
Then back at the hotel…only take the Percocet if the pain is bad enough, if not, extra strength Tylenol.
By the way those 20 Percocet they gave me for after the surgery are still sitting with me in the hotel room I have Not touched them though admit to being tempted a few times. I just said No, my sobriety is more important to me!
Ok signing off hope you all have a great day and I will check back in when off the meds.
Day 64 Hmmm…I thought it was day 63. I guess it’s good I have something keeping track other than my memory. I’m feeling disconnected, surly and a bit out of it last couple days. Whatever
@Happilyeverafter99@iheartchickens4 Congrats on the 1 week!!! @KarenKW 3 days!!!Awesome! The evenings are very hard. I was walking but it’s gotten icy and cold. I’m thinking about doing some yoga or tai chi. Maybe something you’d enjoy too? @Callie99 70 days is Super!! Congrats! @JustAlys 6 months is impressive!! Congratulations! @LAB I’m sorry to here about Covid hitting your household. I hope all goes well for you. I wish you peace and health too.
Checking in Day 16. The last 2 days have been quite a challange for me. It just feels like one thing after another and my anxiety has been super high. I was tempted last night pretty bad but didnt give in. I took today off as i was supposed to be picking up a car ive saved for and been waiting for the seller to return home from work Now the seller wont return my messages when we had a plan for today. Pretty discouraged. Plus woke up to work issues so will be putting in a couple hours this morning as well. Well i guess ill just have to make the best of it and get some self care with what ill have lett of a day off after i fix the employee issues. Just got to get past the sadness of this car. Was super exicited and proud to have made it to this day and feel let down. But i cant control someone elses actions and gotta have faith god has a plan.
@Mno I loved that pic you posted of the church with the factory in the background. I really appreciate you taking the time to post from Amsterdam. Thank you!
I’m not good with daily check ins because I am honestly just not the best with consistency in general. I am historically notorious for not finishing what I start. I am actually super surprised I’ve gone this long without alcohol. If it weren’t for health reasons, I’d likely have hit the reset button a long time ago. Maybe the health issues are a blessing in disguise lol. They’ve gotten dramatically better over the course of my sobriety and health food journey in general. However, I’m still healing. Anyway, today I’m finally getting off of my ass and getting back in the field for work. The past month or so I’ve been negligently lazy and if I don’t motivate I’ll be wondering why I can’t pay my bills next month. Seasonal depression always gets me. Anyway, I feel like a reinvention. I have lost so much weight that I need new clothes badly. I’m going to treat myself to a mini spree and revamp my look. I would like a clean cut professional swagger to me. That should help my mindset in a lot of ways. I will get back into my daily morning prayer, my affirmations to pep up my morning routine and no more news. Ugh. I actually don’t even watch the news but just the headlines on web browers are enough to depress me about the future. Anyway, I’m going to be GRATEFUL for all that I have today and get moving this morning. Much love TS.
Day 543 clean and sober today. Got my meds refilled yesterday finally and am riding out the yuck until my levels balance out again. Not making any decisions or running with any of the thoughts that cross my mind today knowing that I’m not where I’m supposed to be mentally. Have an amazing day today I love you guys!!!
Checking in on day 117. I’m still alive and kicking… well, maybe not the kicking part just yet. Thank y’all for all the messages and kind thoughts during my absence. I woke up very sick on Thanksgiving Day, and I’m now recovering from Covid. Needless to say, it’s been an awful time of it, but I’m slowly beginning to feel human. I’m not well enough yet to be back fully, but I’m working on it. I pray that y’all are doing well, and I’m sending love.
Hey everybody. Just checking in day 3…
I have been watching a guy on youtube, he has a free course on how to quit porn and also has videos on how to control urges and also has a guided meditation in the course which is in the 7 slide.
Anybody interested can check him out…
His youtube channel is philip kupka and the free course is in the description. He also has a video on GoldJacketLuke channel.
Hope this helps some of you guys. Bye bye and good night
Waiting for the electrician to come to our house because we lost power to a bedroom and our refrigerator. We know we have some messed up wiring issues.
The electrician is going to have a fit when he checks out our old house.
Morning check in
Hubby stayed home today from work. Theres very little work that needs to be done at the jobsite he’s at and needs to wait for other trades to finish their job. We got into a small argument. Of course it puts me in a funk. Anytime he’s home I always predict an argument of some sort. Doesn’t always happen but 3/4 of the time it does. But I’m outside now getting fresh air and picking up some food. My mind has been very scattered lately and sometimes my thoughts come out too fast and don’t make sense. That’s what the argument was about lol. I have alot on my mind, money stuff, recovery stuff, and holidays etc. My mind is always so scattered. I apologized to him for that and then explained why my mind is scattered. Told him that I was actually concerned about it. He saw the message but didn’t respond about what I said. Anyway, we will see how the day goes. Heading home now. Hope everyone has a great Tuesday!!!
Third football match in a row with no beer before going to the stadium. Just a tea. Strange sensation but happy. Ready for Champions League, both in football and in sobriety!!!
Well I did it! I mean I’m doing it, haha it’s a nice feeling seeing that. I feel very grateful for this. During these 6 months there were a lot ups and downs, a couple of days I went backward instead of forward. This morning when I woke up I honestly felt good because i achieved 6 months all on my own, it made me realize that I didn’t wake up hungover and how I dont miss that feeling, or those long nights where you just can’t sleep. It also was a bit unexpected but my uncle came over this morning very early i might add, but he gifted us a roast. It was completely random but thoughtful, and you guessed it! That’s what’s for dinner tonight. It’s a beautiful gloomy day where I live. I’m grateful for today because I’ve come a long way from who I was, I changed for the better in many ways, although I am constantly working on myself mentally, & phsically… I like who I am sober, and I like who I’ve become, yes there are days where I struggle but this community has really helped with that, I’m thankful for you guys, for every kind word spoken, it’s very much appreciated. I’m staying sober today because well I just passed a milestone and it feels great. I hope everyone who should see this has a great day today. Remember you are loved and you can do this! I believe in you.
I’m so happy for you, Alys! I experienced a major shift at four months, and it kept getting better from there. I celebrate my freedom from alcohol everyday. 6 months is a major milestone. I will eat come ice cream in your honor tonight.
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Congrats on the 1 week!!!
days! 
Thank y’all for all the messages and kind thoughts during my absence. I woke up very sick on Thanksgiving Day, and I’m now recovering from Covid. Needless to say, it’s been an awful time of it, but I’m slowly beginning to feel human. I’m not well enough yet to be back fully, but I’m working on it. I pray that y’all are doing well, and I’m sending love. 
I mean I’m doing it, haha it’s a nice feeling seeing that. I feel very grateful for this. During these 6 months there were a lot ups and downs, a couple of days I went backward instead of forward. This morning when I woke up I honestly felt good because i achieved 6 months all on my own, it made me realize that I didn’t wake up hungover and how I dont miss that feeling, or those long nights where you just can’t sleep. It also was a bit unexpected but my uncle came over this morning very early i might add, but he gifted us a roast. It was completely random but thoughtful, and you guessed it! That’s what’s for dinner tonight. 
It’s a beautiful gloomy day where I live. I’m grateful for today because I’ve come a long way from who I was, I changed for the better in many ways, although I am constantly working on myself mentally, & phsically… I like who I am sober, and I like who I’ve become, yes there are days where I struggle but this community has really helped with that, I’m thankful for you guys, for every kind word spoken, it’s very much appreciated. 
. Congratulations on 500!!! Amazing