@Happilyeverafter99 glad to see you came straight back here to try again 
@paper_boats congrats on 80 days and seeing your worth 
I enjoy your writings 
@Sarrazma sorry you’re feeling the loneliness, I feel it too but coming here helps a little, this time of year is the worst for it for me, so I hope it feels easier soon for you too 
@JustAlys you’re definitely not alone, sending strength
@Hopeful777 enjoy your time with your son 
and good luck for the meet, it sounds exciting 
@SoberWalker I really hope the guy leaves you be, maybe worth mentioning it to someone else at work that could help if it got a bit out of hand. Very exciting about your wedding rings 
@Dmcg1987 feel better soon congrats on 80 days
@Mno congrats on 2.5 years I’m so excited for you in your new endeavours
@Bomdhil congrats on 2 weeks
@anon53116147 proud of you for keeping your calm at home, sorry it’s like that at the moment 
@Scrammbles feel better soon
@Soundlab congrats on 40 days
@Leveller congrats on 21 months and your new way of life
@Gonefishin welcome back 
487 days no alcohol.
455 days no cocaine.
48 days no nicotine.
1 day no binge-eating.
I made it through last night without ordering food, I’m so relieved, getting through a whole day had started to feel impossible again. I haven’t binged today so far either so I’m feeling really good about that.
Therapy was tough but I got a lot out and actually felt lighter afterwards spoke mostly about how I feel inadequate compared to other men and how my early experiences of relationships have left me playing roles, he said we need to integrate these parts of me. I also said how pre-transition I never felt like I knew who I was, and that I still feel that way, he said perhaps that real me doesn’t exist yet because I need to become me. He said he sees my numbness as that I have retreated, and that we will work on bringing me back out slowly and safely. Only one more session before Xmas then a 4 week break. Glad to have made a start though, feeling positive and hopeful about it.
Missed all them crazy pictures my man!hope you are doing well Eric.
Afternoon check in
Hubby is still at work but I got alot of shopping done for Christmas and got going on my 6 cakes and 5 batches of vanilla buttercream. Got my stencils done for my fondant work for this Christening cake too! Making good time! Feeling good over all. Shopping is one of my favorite things to do. Could easily be a new addiction (so need to watch that also lol). Anyway, going to clean up this kitchen and start assembling 
hope everyone’s day had been great!
Checking in at just about 38 days. Almost to 40 and it’s gone by in a flash. I have had no desire to drink or take adderrall. I’m thankful for that. I’ve made some big changes including my job. Last week I accepted a new job offer with a significant pay increase. Some thing I’ve been talking about doing for a long time.
It is ok to be here while struggling. Ur post may get moved if u are posting while drinking, but plenty of people will still talk to and support u.
Folks will always be here when you’re ready to return. And I hope that you do. You have more power than you realize, I really believe that. Keep it in mind, as well as what you’d like your life to look like. 
Month 16 was yesterday
Girls night at a friend’s house tonight. The other mums getting all excited about the wine and margaritas. I will be armed with my ginger ale. Not worried about drinking, but sure I will feel a bit wistful about not being able to partake. But, well, I can’t do handstands either. Such is my life. That is ok. Plenty I can do.
Hello and happy Friday! Got the first taste of winter this morning and it was nice to see some snow, finally. When I left for work at 530 I was wishing I was heading out for a hike instead. I live near a great park with trails going up into the foothills. Hiking there early in the morning while it is snowing is close to magical.
Looking forward to the weekend. I have my plans set. Enjoy a safe and sober weekend all ya’lls!
View from the office this morning
Bye for now…
Heyy @Misokatsu
Lmfao you cant do handstands and i cant dunk a basketball
Enjoy the ginger al
Its the opposite of a stomic ake
Magic happends in sobriety
Stay strong please
We want you safe strong and healthy
You ALWAYS have a chance. YOU choose your choice. Never stop choosing the right thing. Choose daily to make your chance 
I stumbled across the wheel of death today 
I’m contemplating risking my life and riding it at night a clean and sober high see what I did there lol… I’m pretty Impressed with the photo I took. No filter. The sky was just soooo blue!!
Adventures of a sober human
fun
Checking in Day 10. Today was a good day, I was off from work so I was able to tidy up my new apartment and relax. I went for a walk and for a moment i felt like a drink would be good but i stopped and replayed me be sick and in the hospital no more than 5 days ago so I kept walking and said the Serenity prayer the feeling eventually passed. I know I can’t go back I’ve worked to hard to get to where I am to throw it all away and plus i feel good sorting through my raw emotions and facing things i would normally run from.
2020(covid breaks out, still sober)
20 twenty won (not a chance still sober)
2020 number 2 (bring it on)
Losing is not a option
Good work man
Struggling
Love to all.
Heyy toki
I miss out chats 
How are you feeling
What are you doing up at 4am
Its 4:00 on your time right??
497 days one day at a time
Wicked awesome (wicked is a Massachusetts word) what we use is for is intence amount of)
I hope your feeling better
I finally have tomorrow to myself so im up all night tonight drinking coffee and energy drinks 
Thats beautiful
Sending you healing energy. I am so sorry you’re struggling. Hang in there, you amazing person!