Welcome Back Dana, @Butterflymoonwoman
You know you’re stronger than you give yourself credit for, think of all you have been through and beaten.
This is just another obstacle you will get over in time.
Don’t beat yourself up over it, if it was easy there would be no need for us to be here!
Smile, be proud of the fact that you have come back, remember we fall, we break, we fail but then we rise, we heal and we overcome!
You know where I am if you need anything.
Checking in 79 days sober. I had some friends in town and met them downtown for lunch. They ordered drinks and I told them immediately that I don’t drink anymore. I even surprised myself how quickly I told them about my sobriety. I felt like they were going to think I was the biggest loser ever ( I met them when I was in my party days) instead they just said that’s awesome and we moved on. It made me proud - but also happy that I have friends that don’t pressure me. I didn’t even want a drink. I’ve been hearing about all my friends holiday party hang overs and happy that I’m not going through that like this time last year. We caught the sunset tonight. I’m starting to venture out more, I really am feeling more secure in my ability to say no. I’ll be very careful with my sobriety but it’s nice to be out and about 
I still have moments where I romanticize alcohol, but they are becoming less frequent. Excited to have the company of my friends doing dry January next month.
I’m happy to be here with all of you, learning along side all of you 
PS. Sending love to you CAM. You go out of your way daily to recognize all of us. Wins and struggles you are always here. I hope you are getting rest and I’m so thankful you are here.
Day 86 checking in odaat 
Thought about you alot last night after your post.Glad to see you on here today. You got this! Sending love and strength.
Glad your back.
Checking in day 80,5 alcohol free.
Today is my last day of work before my holiday start till the end of the year.
I have two trips planned and I am looking forward to it. But I am also scarred. I never had a sober holiday in my life. My last holiday was exactly 80 day ago and I ended this holiday by being drunk for 4 hole day and I felt terrible afterwards. This never again!! Although this is easier said then done.
The last week I am fantasizing more about drinking and the drinking dreams are coming back more
often. I have to step up to or I will probably not make it to 90 days. I am glad I am aware of this and I have to work harder. Today I start reading William Porters second book …“Alcohol explained 2”. I hope this book gives me more insight in my addiction.
I am struggling those days but I can do this. One day at a time.
Wish you all the best my friends and stay strong!
We’re just glad to see you. You’re working so hard at this. And I hear you. I know what it’s like to stumble over and over again while others around seem to effortlessly pass on by.
In my time here, I’ve seen many on TS struggle with chronic relapsing, but now have lengthy periods of sobriety. Don’t lose hope. I’m certain that you’ll get there. This is not a race to see who can get the most sobriety in the shortest amount of time. What matters is, if we keep searching and putting in the work, we’ll eventually get to the same place.
Good job on getting back in the saddle so quickly.
I find it really helpful to look at addiction from a “technical” angle. Not only does reading about it help me to understand my problem better, but it gives me something else, something productive, to focus on. Hang in there. These feelings will pass. 
Screenshot what you have written, print it or write it out and read it for encouragement and to remind yourself you do not want to drink and wake up hung over etcetera. Focus on how proud you are of yourself. Alcohol does not make the holiday. Your sobriety will. Just imagine how good you will feel making it through, hitting the 90 days and even more. You can do this @ShadowFax You know there is help here. Stick close to here and post before you drink (if you get that close to losing your sobriety) and do not let there be an after, please!
Thank you
Hey Roland. Sorry to read you think you may be struggling during the Holidays. That first Holidays sober can be a tough one. My morning devotionals and gratitude practice on here every morning sets a good foundation for my day. When I’m struggling my gratitude list gets longer and longer. I force myself to write down all that I’m grateful for when I’m sober. There’s just so much when you think about it. Sometimes I might have to make a second list in the afternoon just to remind myself. It is so fucking worth it. And so am I. And so are you.
Lean on us buddy. We’re here for ya.
Sending love and strength Cam.
Sending love and strength to you too.
Take good care of yourself.
What can help is having a buddy during those trips. Someone who knows about your struggles and can help you a bit? Maybe your partner if you have one ore a close friend ore family member?
I understand your worries, but it’s good to think up front what can help you trough those difficult days.
For me I avoided every alcohol related evend in the beginning of my recovery when I could. I quit september 2018 so was in the beginning of it when it was Christmas 2018 as well. But it was doable. I bought myself a “Jip en Janneke” bubble drink to celebrate New Years Eve and it tasted awefull 
But that all made me very proud of myself as well because I managed the holidays sober! And so can you!!
Sorry to hear about your relapse Cam. Did you see it coming?
And welcome new name 
I like it.
Let’s keep this new name clean and sober 
I’ll drive to the french alps in two days to meet my family for Christmas (and snowboarding 
). Wine is going to be everywhere as usual, I’ve said no 5789 times in the past, I’ll do it again.
Thanks everyone for the inspiration !
Thanks for the invite Kat. Might take you up on that. And goes the other way, from me to you too.
Checking in day 12. Feeling very at ease and anxiety free this morning. Its a fantastic feeling and Im just savouring the moment. Best wishes to everyone wherever you are on your journey. Today is a gift to every one of us. Enjoy it x
