It blows my mind that this is all still happening two years later.
In my city, as of today, there were new restrictions imposed again. This is after they said it would not happen again once we hit the vax percentage. We hit it. The whole country is pretty much vaxd. But now it’s happening all over again.
Take me on a spacex flight to Mars now please away from here! LOL
Good morning! Today will be day 10. Slept a bit better last night. Still in pain from surgery. Have a follow up with my doctor today. Depression has been creeping back in. It was so nice having my sister stay with me. Now that she’s left I’m feeling lonely, bored, and sad. I’m hoping to get back to work at least part time on Monday. I’m used to numbing my feelings with alcohol. It’s hard to deal with them sober. At least I start back with therapy next week.
The quicker it goes through everybody, the quicker there’s immunity, still haven’t worked out the logic of multiple ‘jabs’ yet… …in UK they are saying it’s now fine to go out with a positive lateral flow test but no symptoms… all a bit illogical, but I can’t change it, god grants me serenity to accept all crazy illogical systems … including my own
@anon27760155, I’ve received a lot of bad news lately, and it’s a huge relief to hear some good news for a change. Hearing that you’ve pulled through this absolutely made my day! So glad to hear from you. All of us were genuinely worried.
To everyone, thank you for all the kind words said to me yesterday and the great support. I’m happy to admit that my mind is in a much better state. I guess 1 day of cravings isn’t as tough as the months of cravings I’ve endured back in 2020. Anyways, I’m still on day 73. It will be day 74 in a few hours.
Day 1 Toxic relationship free.
Good day TS fam. I decided to add my toxic/co dependent relationship with my ex…my children’s father as a addiction. He ce over for 2 days…I fanitized the first day of what we could be if he gets sober…was intimate etc …then…in the am…I see clearer now as I’m not drinking or using. He was up all night…cold…aloof…scaristic…took my car to go too Walmart and shows up 3 hours later. Found a few cases of beer in my garbage can in the basement. Then he decides to take off because he has a clinic apt at 6pm…when I’ve been encouraging him too go to the dr for years. Then he storms out and says he feels used. He has such a way of making me feel everything is my fault .I’m the problem not good enough etc …petty or not. I had to block his number again …the kids all have their own cell phones minus my youngest who talks to him on the house line.
Moving forward will get support from our CAS worker to work out visitations and child support. Seeing him again is a threat to my recovery. Not just drugs and alcohol but also depression straight shutting down which is not fair to my children.
Felt the urge too just sleep the night away after he left but did different…texted my Sponser…did some step work…hut too. Meetings and helped my youngest complete a puzzle. Thankful for positive change., Blessed 24.
Two years ago I woke up to my first day of committed sobriety. Today, I awoke without a hangover, pounds lighter, infinitely happier, and having achieved 2 full years alcohol free!
Thank you to all the friends here on TS who supported me those dark early days! Yes, it was difficult. But as they say, the days are long but the years are short. And it has been SO worth it!!!
I love your idea of having a toxic relationship timer. I also love seeing you grow in your sobriety and step out of your comfort zone and begin to know your worth and set boundaries! You’re pretty amazing!
Awe girl, this means alot to me. I like to share alot about things bcuz I love talking about all aspects of recovery. The good the bad and the ugly lol. I feel it’s so important to share bcuz u never know how something could impact another person’s life. I’m glad u get something out of my posts
Honestly I haven’t felt this good about recovery in a long time. I’m scared to fall back into that life. I dint want to reset my timer and most importantly hurt myself and others due to my selfish actions. So that’s why I am purely focusing on recovery and being as vigilant as I can be. I do the things in my recovery every day whether I want to or not. Bcuz I know that when I stop doing them, I’m almost certain to head to relapse.
I’m proud of you!!! I don’t know when u joined TS… but I’ve seen u engaging on posts and I see you working hard at this and learning new things and discovering what works for u! U say my posts bring joy and strength to ur life, but honestly u do the same for me
So grateful ur here! We are both giving ourselves the lives we deserve