Day 13.5 Heading in to the weekend sober! One day at a time… I love not feeling the anxiety and regret I did when I drank. This is the longest stretch I’ve been sober in over a year. Stay strong everyone! 
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Wow I didn’t even think of it that way! 
Thank you
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Ur welcome!!! 1 week is huge!!! I’m proud of you 
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Hi Checking in Day 156 Clean and Sober
Not much to say, it’s cold out there and the gym is closed , bloody lockdown. Still, apparently the mall is still open so driving a disadvantaged fellow addict there to spend the gift card I got her for Xmas. That should be fun.
Down a couple pounds so happy about that…
Love and sobriety,
Kat
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Day 574 clean and sober today. Dang last night was a really tough night, feeling sad and low. I’m coming to realize that there really is no consistency in the way I feel on a daily basis and that it’s just the way the chemicals in my brain are now from years of drug and alcohol abuse. It gets tiring to not know how I’m going to feel from day to day but I at least have a better shot at normalcy sober. Anyway, have a great day everyone I love you guys!!! 
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Checking in
Day 9
Well… not much to say today I’m still clean and sober. Woke up in a better mood actually. Hubbys payday is today, which normally would cause great anxiety in me. I don’t think we have ever not spent money on drugs during a payday. But things are different today. Not only am I feeling better about recovery and being vigilant about what I need to do, I also have my family coming to visit today so that will help me also. Have to be honest tho… I am abit stressed bring around family. Trying to remain grateful tho bcuz I see them maybe once every 2 years or so. So ya im happy to see them. Trying my best to make it a good thing. I will check in a bit later. Going to get this day started 
have a great day everyone!
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Hey guys
Checking in day 14
Had some cravings pop up here and there and also feeling some heavy emotions
I know that these few days maybe difficult for me but its in those days where most of the growth happen
Stay safe guys
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Congratulations on 2years Marc this is awesome. Keep at it.,
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Thank you Sarah. This made my day. In the early days the uncertainty is real. I appreciate your clear mindfulness and support.,
I keep trudging along with the strength of my Higher Power and this forum…trusting my gut my intuition.,
You are pretty amazing too. Hugs
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I am happy to see you holding on tight through those first couple weeks, they are tough ones. In Canada there are medical supply companies that rent equipment short term. Is that an option there? Could you possibly rent a scooter until you are able to get around better? That way you can get lots of fresh air without causing your body more damage and discomfort. Just an idea. 
I always have hugs for you Cam.
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Good for you!!!
You have done a lot in a short period of time it sounds like you are really ready to move forward with this.
I wrote on another thread how I often have all these revelations, all these great ideas that I conclude to and then have issues following through with them. Months later I end up coming to the same conclusions and think to myself " you already knew this. " Going back to a toxic relationship is one of the things I do. It is a very damaging pattern of behavior I have had for many, many years with many different relationships. I almost feel like I need to set myself a daily reminder with a list of new behaviors that I read and maybe it will have a few unwanted behaviors on it too, just to remind myself of what I want my life to look like today. It is SO SO easy to slip into old patterns.
I am very happy for you and very proud of you for making this massive step in your life. You deserve to be cherished and your children deserve to see their mother cherished too. Maybe bookmark your post so if your mind starts to fall back into old thinking you can remind yourself of today and how freeing it felt.
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Quick check in
So change of plans. Family is only coming over for a couple hours this afternoon. Which means no one will be here for when hubby comes home. He did video call me from work. Told me how much his cheque was. I could sort of see what I thought was like an inkling of maybe suggesting using tonight. But I didn’t comment on it. Just started talking about plans for the money such as rent, his smokes etc.
Now I feel like this is my day… day at war with my addiction lol
There’s a few things going on here…
#1 It’s payday. This will be the 1st payday we have not spent money on drugs
#2 I’m coming up on day 10 today (longest streak of clean time in many years). So… I have a few things going on. I feel like I need to be proactive. So I will call or text him before he gets home to tell him that I don’t want to use.
If he comes home and asks me my thots on using, I will say “no… but maybe u wanna order in instead?”. This NEEDS to be a 2nd nature response. I will be pouring my day into recovery. Will attend an online meeting at 11am also.
What else should I do? Any suggestions? Wanna be prepared for this.
This is my cheat sheet… I need something east to access when I get cravings cuz sometimes I forget what to do:
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Day 48!
I had to both laugh and shake my head at myself last night.
The thought of having a drink popped into my head last night while at work. But it was the manner of the thought that got me laughing at myself but annoyed. We have all heard it “oh I have X amount of time I can control it now and just have 1 or 2”, heck I said it myself the first time I tried to get sober after 8 months.
But my thought wasnt have 1 or 2… my thought was a case, 12 beer.
The thought wouldn’t leave either, it was persistent, though eventually I got annoyed enough with it that I pulled a Home Simpson and said “shut up brain or I’ll stab you with a q-tip!”
Waking up today after a great 10 hour sleep, still sober and ready to face the day!
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You are showing how strong you are and how much you’ve grown!! Good for you all around!!! 
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Way to go!!! This inspires me! I might have to try ur suggestion about yelling at my brain! It drives me crazy sometimes 
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It worked for me hahaha
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Congratulations Rebecca! 
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Well done Justin! 
I bet it feels great to not give in! Those thoughts can be fucking persistent, my worst fear…
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Oh yeah, waking up today after a nice long sleep, not feeling sick or hungover, no empty cans to clean up, I wouldn’t trade this feeling for anything!
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Oh yes! But despite knowing all this, I have fallen off the wagon soooo many times! 
Take a screen shot of what you just posted, whenever the beer monster knocks on your door, read it! Just in case… 
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