Didn’t post for a couple of days - work has been crazy abd interview didn’t go as I had hoped. BUT - I walked doggies instead of reaching for a drink to de-stress. I really wanted one when I got home but my partner kept me on track, which helped a lot! So managed to reach day 11, whew.
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Danni! So great to know your still with us! We’ve all been praying for you! You are so loved @anon27760155
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Congrats on your 5 weeks! That’s so huge! Ignore the numbskull questions and suggestions. Maybe we should start a post about the most bone-headed things we’ve heard from people while getting sober 
I’ve heard some doozies.
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Hello, it’s 1188 days af today. Good night, stay sober peeps 
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Haha omg 
that made me laugh!!
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- It’s been one heck of a week! 3 of my kids have COVID mild symptoms because they’re vaccinated. But, it gets so overwhelming when it’s having to take care of them and the toddlers. Wednesday was the 5 month mark of me having my sisters kids. One more month and I can file for full guardianship. I’ve gone over and over about of this is the right thing. I know now that this is where they’re meant to be
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I’ve had my ex texting me all week. Now he wants to come see my new house. He asked if I ever had time alone or if I’m in a relationship. He’s one that just doesn’t know how to let go. It’s been 2 years and he just thinks one day I’m going to change my mind. That’s not the case with him. I tried to make the relationship work but he’s been by himself for a long time so he wants my attentions 24/7 and with kids we all know that’s not possible. I want to be friends but he makes it difficult I can text to say hi and he then ends up saying he loves me and sends me money
. Who knows…why can’t he just accept being friends.
Anyways, I hope you all have a wonderful sober weekend!
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Way Go SC!!
Congratulations on day 11.
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Thank you!
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Afternoon check in
Day 10
Today is good! Did my usual routine this morning, readings, prayer, TS, and took care of some responsibilities. Hubby got paid yesterday (as u know) and bcuz we didn’t use, he still has all his money lol This is an unusual time for us. Change is happening. We are so used to spending his money within the first 2-3 days (and then we are broke for like a week and a half until next payday… struggling to survive). So he has this $$ sitting in his bank account lol. He is out of the home right now tattooing. Once he gets home, I am expecting him to ask me yet again if it’s okay to call. Idk. I could be worrying too much. But I am just trying to prepare myself. It honestly would be very disrespectful for him to ask me again. But saying no this time tho will feel a little easier I think if I do have to say it again. It will take time for him to see that I am serious about recovery. He’s soooo used to seeing me cave…not anymore!
Anyway, I was to be paid on Monday. But for some odd reason I got my pay today. And more then I expected cuz I only worked 2 shifts over a 2 week period (due to holidays etc). So I got about $300 more than I predicted. And as most of you know, money is a huge trigger for me. Anyway my pay is gone already… but I actually paid bills and put money on my credit card bill (my bank can finslly stop calling me 5x times a day now lmao) to get caught up and put aside some money for my medication. And then saved like $15 for when my family comes to visit on Monday (it’s their last day here). Not once did drugs enter my mind when figuring out how to distribute my money. I’m in awe about this change in me. I’m scared tho that this will vanish 
But I feel like if I do the next right thing and stay connected with my faith and my recovery, things will be okay 
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Checking in, sober and feeling healthy. Haven’t been on the app much the past few days. Went straight back to work after holiday travels, than directly had a visit from an old friend. Amazing but i was exhausted. Now weekend, the weather is amazing, had a long walk on the beach with a friend. Amazing, i feel lucky.
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You are doing great, Dana. It is so great to read about you turning things around. Stick with it. We are all rooting for you. 
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Day 533
Last night I saw a huge shift in me because of all the meditation…
My 3 year old daughter was having a tantrum in the bathtub kicking the water going nuts and wouldn’t get out… so I wrangled her out of there while she is screaming in my ear and put her pjs on while she’s kicking me and I stayed perfectly calm. Telling her “You’re okay.” Then I put her in bed and turned out the lights and started doing deep breaths. I told her “breathe in the good, and breathe out the bad” “breathe in the happy, now blow the sadness far away!” I kept repeating this. She said “Mommy, I have too much sadness in me.” I told her to take a deeper breath, and she actually did it! I’ve tried getting her to breathe before with no luck. She said “ I am still sad” I said “You know what helps? Going to sleep. Your sadness will go to sleep too and you will wake up happy” LOL … and with that she went to sleep! (She was tired)
I layed there in the dark in complete shock of what just happened. This meditation is really paying off!! The old me would have got angry and yelled or lost my nerve but I was calm the entire time. Now if I could just do that every time… haha! Oh yeah, she woke up happy this morning, of course!
@Butterflymoonwoman Really excited to see this awesome shift in you! Congrats on 10 whole days!! You’re doing it!!
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Love this, Sarah. Beautiful experience.
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Hi everyone,
Wow my anxiety is really bad right now !!
I have got into bed its 9pm here in the UK.
I am really missing my 13 year old daughter and constantly in waves of feeling ok then next thing I’m having mental breakdown, everyday constantly.
I have to learn to live the life I have now and it hurts so much.
I just needed to say this as it’s hard to even speak about but i just had to tell someone how i am feeling.
All the drinking helped me drown It all out, but i have to feel every emotion since quitting drink and every emotion has a physical pain it really hurts. I dont want to cry because then I open up the door to crying for months again and not getting out of bed, my dr knows and I have an app monday but they dont understand.
Besides all the emotions, iv eaten i cooked a curry today it was nice, in bed going to watch a film and hopefully fall asleep soon.
Drinking lots of chamomile tea to try calm myself.
I hope everyone is doing ok today and I’m gratefull today for staying sober, I am gratefull to you all for taking time to support me it means alot thank you.
Here’s hugs for anyone else that needs them too 
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Thank you so much!! It feels good for sure! A shocking experiencing lol but so much relief I’ve gotten from this so far
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Wow a huge congratulations on 5 weeks!!! Omg thats amazing 
keep at it ODAAT!
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Hi this is really nice to hear you are doing so great and your a strong woman🤗
I can only imagine what you’re going through, and I’m so sorry. You have a strength that I would’ve never had if what happened to you and your girl had happened in my family. I’m sending you love and warm hugs. I’m happy you’re here. 
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Thank you so much
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This is a great share Sarah. Thank you. I’ve introduced and done yoga with all three of my children…they are a lot older. Wanting to introduce Meditation next. Live it. The discipline and connection with breath/spirit. The places they will go.,
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