Day 576 clean and sober today. I hope everyone has a great day, love you guys!!! 
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Congrats on 20 daysā¦
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60 days is a huge accomplishment.
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Thank-you Joe. Feeling strongerā¦and definitely more peaceful.,
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I have to say that itās such a pleasure @Butterflymoonwoman to see you finally get past that 10 day mark! This is serious stuff that youāre facing. Donāt give up. It gets easier.
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Day 512
Today I was in an unexpectedly difficult situation. I went to a cafe with my husband to meet our friends. The children had tennis matches, we were going to watch that too. A place where a sports club and a cafe go together. It was the birthday of one of the mothers. All of a sudden, whiskeysā¦etc., a lot of drinks came to the table, and I was left alone with a glass placed in front of me. Of course, I never thought of drinking. But I was very disturbed. 30 minutes later I made up something and left. I came home. Iāve been to drinking places before. For some reason I was very uncomfortable this time, maybe I was unprepared, I donāt know. luckly, I took action quickly.
Have a nice week everyone 
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Congrats on 50 days!
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Hi everyone. Missed a Check in yesterday. I admit that I was really struggling yesterday. My mindās toxicity level was again at 8. Somehow, I accepted my fate to be sober. Iām glad I did. Acting out would simply reinforce that feeling of self-hatred and shame.
My mindās toxicity level is currently at 4 again. Iām glad. Celebrating day 76.
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I hear you. 
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I appreciate ur post. I do feel weak honestly. I donāt like this feeling. Maybe I should get into lifting weights more just so I feel strong in my mind and body. Maybe that will help me feel not so weak inside. Idk. But ya, my āsurvival skillsā arenāt like they used to be. And in a sense I should be grateful for that. Itās not like Iām in these situations often tho. This was a weird situation. Thanks for relating tho 
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Thank youā¦ I have to be honest, I do feel like using abit. But I am at work now and Iām not ruining my clean time over this situation. I have no idea WHY this has created using thots for me. Maybe bcuz my whole daily routine was thrown off? Idk. Maybe seeing that triggers something in me? Idk. Iām going to see if I can put my headphones in and attempt an online meeting
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Yesterday was a little rough, but Iām still here, 150 days sober. I woke this morning with high hopes that I wouldnāt be as sad, but after finishing my daily readings, doing a 9-minute meditation, and speaking my gratefulness, itās still here. Most days I can find little pick-me-ups, and I really hope those come before another day is done. 
Yāall have a beautiful day. Itās lovely here, snow and frost everywhere and the sun is shining. Itās glisteningā¦ I love that. 
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And thatās just the addict playing games with us; telling us that weāre missing out and depriving ourselves by choosing sobriety. Let me remind you, using wonāt give anything. It has zero benefit. I know it feels like using offers something when Iām inside the controlled environment and bubble of my addiction, but itās a lie. We didnāt work hard all these years in recovery just to stay chronic relapsers. Stay strong. Remember, I want this sober life and so do you.
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Checking in day 49. Sundays are my favourite day of the week. Gonna do some relaxing as my laundy is off the list today. Washer broke down. I alway make a big dinner on sundays even though only 1 kid is still at home. its a tradition i grew up with and will probably continue even when a empty nester. So curry chicken it is on tonight menu.
Heres to a relaxing Sober Sunday!
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Thank u soo much!!! Thank u for reminding me that using has no benefit. It holds no value. My mind is lieing to me. And I have new tools today to help me get thru this.
Iām proud of you by the way for getting thru ur high toxic level of 8 and ur urges. Itās inspiring for me to see that bcuz then it shows me that I can get thru my issues too. Iām not alone. I can get thru today, 5 min, 1 hour, 1 day at a time
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Day 5 AF.
Weekend done and dusted.
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Day 50 and counting!
Still been busy as all hell around here, 90+ hours a week in the office, while trying to manage life with the single half day I get free.
But ah well, it is what it is right.
One of our guys is coming back from medical leave next week so I should be back to my normal 80hrs a week with my 2 days off so at least iāll be able to kick my feet up and relax again.
My apartment is pretty well done now. The former tenant (friend of mine) still has yet to pick up the rest of his stuff, but I managed to store it away in a closet I wasnāt using so at least its finally out of my way.
Adopted my kitten yesterday! Made for a super long day though. Totally worth it though
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Congratulations on 49 days.
What time is dinner?
I love chicken curry. 
Love to see it on the foodies thread.
https://talkingsober.com/t/foodies-unite-4-trigger-warning-food-dont-go-bacon-my-heart!
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@Twizzlers thank you so much 
@Singtone wish you well
@Dansig congrats on 8 months 
sorry about your friend
@Jesile congrats on 70 days
@Lotusflower congrats on 50 days
@EarnIt sending strength I can relate.
@Andrea4 congrats on your week
@Mich80 congrats on 60 days
@Grumpybeard congrats on 4 months
@Willowwhiny welcome 
congrats on 6 days
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@Sunny11 congrats on getting through that, not what you expect when taking your children to tennis matches, Iām sure!
@Butterflymoonwoman I can relate to this āfeeling softā, I really donāt like it either. Solidarity
@ShesGotMoxie congrats on 150 days sending hope that the sadness lifts atleast a little
@Scrammbles congrats on 50 days
517 days no alcohol.
78 days no nicotine.
16 days no binge-eating.
9 days no cocaine.
Was awoken from a nap this morning by really aggressive shouting coming from a neighbouring property, the man did not stop shouting, I tried to ignore it for about 15mins but it was triggering some PTSD stuff for me. I managed to put the TV on and watch 2 episodes of the new series of one of my favourite TV singing shows, couldnāt manage to sit through the 3rd and most recent episode but by then the shouting had stopped and Iāve been laying in bed meditating and catching up on here. I also downloaded TikTok for the first time and some of the stuff it showed me was funny so that was nice too.
Iāve been really struggling with this situation with my friend confronting me yesterday, I hate when things occupy my mind, like thinking of what Iād say if I replied, it gives me anxiety because Iāve never been able to say what I want to say to her, sheās too confrontational. I do think itās best I leave it, even though it feels really awkward.
Iām still having using thoughts every day at the moment, but they arenāt what Iād call āurgesā because I feel like I have a choice now, and Iām choosing sobriety.
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